bbwolf

same ol worn out depressed lonely old man

jumping

took me 6 years and a administrative judge had to award it to me

feeling depressed, unwanted, vacant, tired, and a bunch of other stuff i dont have the words to describe

a semi remote piece of property with a house/cabin on it,

loneliness is my middle name, i almost met with a few others that was within a hundred miles of me but it didnt work out

freedoms just another word for nothing left to do ,

my progress is going alot slower than i wanted, but my dr told me not to worry about it, i had dropped 70lbs in 2 years, fell off the wagon more times than i can count, set the wagon on fire a couple of times and had to start over, its a hell of a roller coaster but im 70lbs lighter, 35 more lbs to go

thunderstorm all night, cloudy and chilly today, 55 degrees f

i feel empty and very lonely, and my body hurts

i lost most of my fair weather Friends as well long ago, the friends i have are all disabled or handicapped in some way and experienced being abandoned by fair weather friends as well, my friend that just passed had severe diabetes and was on a waiting list for kidney transplant,

soon i'll be out of friends and wont have anyone to lose anymore

major anxiety attack building

when it rains it pours, a friend of nearly 50 years had a heart attack and passed away yesterday, thats 4 friends i lost since thanksgiving

what use to work for me, i havent had in years