bbwolf

sux

after a horrible night hurting so bad i never really did sleep, i got up, washed my sheets and blankets, made my bed, now looking for something to make money with, then maybe be able to get a couple days worth of groceries

im not eating anything, i dont like to eat alone

i know how you feel, i just totally gave up on the idea of possibly having any friends, everything i do is alone, i'll grow old alone and probably die alone

nothing

nothing

when the county took over the facility it went to crap

went to see therapist today, appointment was confirmed yesterday, after waiting a hour and a half, the receptionist calls my name then informs me my therapist is out today, i just came off of several days of depression and now having recurring anxiety, and finding out i had just wasted nearly 2 hrs pisses me off

suicide is painless

minutes before i got the call that my dad had died, i felt someone sit down on my bed, when i looked up i seen nothing, that was in 2012, to this day out of no where i can smell him, a combination of old spice, and those stinking roll your own cigarettes, sometimes in the house but mostly when im driving somewhere,

understatement

sick and tired of feeling lonely

the way i describe how i feel is a wild animal, a predator like a bear or lion, trapped and caged no longer free to roam,

sounds like my life

lonely, unwanted, depressed, need to be touched, in need of companionship,