i dont even know where to start, i recently was contacted by a very special old friend, when i say special i mean we was each others first everything, we lost contact 35 yrs ago, thru 2 marriages i carried a torch for her, my 2nd marriage been 25yrs wife hasnt touched me in a dozen years maybe more ? anyways when my friend and i chatted is was like once or twice a week sometimes less, she lives 1000 miles away, her mom lives here, as a favor to her i helped her mom out with some chores and repairs, her mom told me point blank that her daughter had told her many times over the years that she had made a huge mistake leaving, and had always had feeling for me, i was happy sad confused and a bunch of other feelings and emotions i cant even describe, over time our chat sessions got longer and more frequent we sent pics of each other our kids grandkids and i noticed in a pic that she's got the connectors for chemo, i asked about it, this is her 4th time with cancer, now the fear and anxiety has shot thru the roof, she seems to be handling it alot better than me, i try my best to keep my emotions in check, she knows im concerned for her, but i dont think she knows how scared i am, im not sure theres anything that can be said or done to ease my feelings i just needed to tell someone