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  1. My ex-to be wife is abusing me through her attorney. Here's the deal she hasn't lived here for a year and 8 months we have no kids together going on the12 th year of marriage her mom is employed by a big law firm so her atty is her moms friend of 25 yrs and our judge she worked at the same law firm they are all friends. Here's the abuse my wife knows every trigger I have and pulls them at will. One of them is being rushed and so April 5th I get a call from my atty saying my wife wants to file a joint tax return. I had no income in 2016. I said no i don't have nothing to file. The judge issues me a court order to do it and have the info too my atty in 3 business days. So i do this. So I get a call Saturday 5-20-17 saying her mom who is doing the taxes she does it for a living hasn't got my tax information yet. We have a trial date in three weeks yep a trial for this divorce. Her attorney didn't give my info to her yet. This pi**es me off.
  2. Well you know the old saying about helping someone helps you too. Expecting something in return ruins it. I enjoy helping people but don't seem to want to help my self. I know how hard we all try but when it's about you it's just not the same. If I have to clean my house I don't want too ask me to help clean your house I will be more than happy too.
  3. Hello and relate to your situation. I've been taking psychiatric medication for 15 yrs now . I seem to build a very fast tolerance and have yet to actually feel good on them maybe for a few weeks then I level off at that point they usually up the dose and add things until it's a cocktail. I'm alive but not living .Then they want you to stop one to try another and so goes the cycle. Some people don't have this problem. It's unusual for the ssri's to effect you right away but like you I felt good after a couple of days. I hope you find something that works for along time.
  4. I wake up everyday 2 or 3am take my adderal sit in the dark pet cooper 6 am still sitting doing nothing except draining this crap from my ear a white thick gew it never stops.this is my life the mucus runs so thick down my throat I don't think the meds work I can't even walk cooper anymore and still no divorce $3,500.00 for nothing no income for A year and a half my savings is down too $ 7,350.00 after that I have to cash in a IRA, SSD denied have too appeal my health slowly robs my strength, I get short of breathe very easily. The left ear keeps gushing into where my mastoid bone used to be my family tried to have me comitted becase i don't do anything and hardly take care of myself because I have to suck this nasty stuff or it turns hard. I can see assisted living coming my way but they had a better Idea get rid of him he is a embarrassment to us. my new psych is taking me through some med changes maybe it will help for how long?
  5. I could see this coming but I'm paranoid why would I be parnoid because my family called my T and wanted me committed. My T wasn't very happy about this if he thought I should be locked up he would have done it they are unsupportive so my T said not too talk about it with anyone so I just can't forget it so I decided I had to detach from them so now I know the truth I can't take care of mom so now I'm a problem solution get rid of him
  6. Well good to here keep moving and eating and don't forget to shower.not a easy thing some days
  7. Oh yes I remember that name. How have you been? I hope okay
  8. When I was a yong boy in grade school I never had any friends. When ever someone nes came to our school I would always talk to them and be there friend but after a while they fades away.
  9. well it's pretty much done i will never recover from this depression and anxiety it has eaten away my soul and flesh
  10. THANK YOU ALL FOR YOU KINDNESS LOVE AND SUPPORT BUT ITS TIME TO RAMBLE ON. GOOD LUCK LOVE SCOTT
  11. I CAN'T GET OUT OF THIS FUNK I HAVE BEEN IN SINCE THE FIREWORKS WENT OFF INSIDE HEAD FROM THAT REDUCTION OF PAXIL I DON'T EVEN WANT TO WRITE
  12. If i can just keep reminding my self I am free and it's over, no longer can she torment me with her passive aggressive narscist crap is over instead of being angry I seem to feel better
  13. Cold fire I feel for you religious guilt tripping about a natural thought and the reaction physically has to be overcome I could say it's tormenting you. I am a Christian I read the BIBLE cover to cover you know what I learned I have done almost every sinful thing in there. I don't get into gotta do this and that preachers . I don't have to do anything it was already done for me . It's all prostitution whether your married or not Your going to pay money for it either way. Its all about faith { the hope for something you can't see.}
  14. PARANOID BLACK SABBATH FINISHED WITH MY WOMEN CAUSE SHE COULDN'T HELP ME WITH MY MIND PEOPLE THINK I AM INSANE BECAUSE I'M FROWNING ALL THE TIME ALL DAY LONG I THINK OF THINGS BUT NOTHING SEEMS TO SATISFY THINK I'LL LOSE MY MIND IF I DON'T FIND SOMETHING TO PACIFY CAN YOU HELP ME, OCCUPY MY BRAIN OH YEAH I NEED SOMEONE TO SHOW ME THE THINGS IN LIFE THAT I CAN FIND I CAN'T SEE THE THING THAT MAKE TRUE HAPPINESS, I MUST BE BLIND MAKE A JOKE AND I WILL SIGH AND YOU WILL LAUGH AND I WILL CRY HAPPINESS I CANNOT FEEL AND LOVE TO ME IS SO UNREAL AND SO AS YOU HERE THESE WORDS TELLING YOU NOW OF MY STATE I TELL YOU TO ENJOY LIFE I WISH I COULD BUT IT'S TOO LATE
  15. Hi and welcome Johney I don't know what type of work you do or your relationship with your company. I feel for you because work is supposed to be good. It helps to focus on our work and can give us a sense of accomplishment. You do not have to reveal your disability to go home just say your sick.Some workplaces can and will use it against you I don't no if your union or in a at will state. You never have to reveal your disability. Workers comp ins especially will give them bad advise. Since you have revealed it ask if they have an EAP rep and talk to them if they do. Sorry for your bad day is there .Hope it gets better for you
  16. What you have is called chorea, I hope its the right spelling. I also have them in my whole body or oneside or maybe just a limb, its like every muscle in your body flexes and you can't control it. Hopethis helps have youever had a brainwave test it won't show up.hope this helps its a scarey feeling
  17. your not alone treatment resistant is the black dog winston churchill had it led zeppelin wrote a song about it called black dog seems like no light at the end of the tunnel they say it can leave as fast as it came so ijust waiting youcould give me all the money in the world i won't have the energy to do anything I would hire a maid and a cook though.
  18. After an all day session trying to compress and send my attorney in Madison my updated FDS to set a court date and force myextobe atty to talk or let a judge decide everything my attorney E-mailed me back do you need help filing out your FDS This is the 3rd time you sent me your old one . Sure enough I done it again . I got the new one filled out and scanned a couple of weeks ago. When I opened it I started finding all these mistakes any ways I still think it's 2015 letters back words numbers backwords Even now trying to keyboard I make one mistake after another . I really am ******** now it means to slow progress or delay it's hard to plan anything from cooking to paying bills I will screw it up . When I lived alone 11 yrs ago I worked 40-50 hrs a week had all kinds of extra time.Now I can barely take care of myself and cooper and I don't work my head is messed up it makes my depression worse. Somedays I can barely stand i'm so weak I have no life just a man trying to survive I'm going to have to hiresomeone I will be in a old folks home pretty soon 49 yrs old I'm hopeless this is how it ends my life is over I have no life left 0-2 in marriage just want a family. worked hard for them and this is the end. hopeless
  19. I think it will happen when you least expect in a way you never dreamed of and after a while you will say I wasted a lot of energy trying to make this happen. Don't worry about what happened yesterday or tomorrow for there are enough problems for today. I wish I could practice what I preach.
  20. well since i only had 2and a half hours of sleep I didn't enter a dream phase.
  21. rrrrrrrrrrrrrrriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnngggggggggggggggggggggg and music in my left ear.
  22. After going through the withdrawal and starting back on the alprazolam I don't think its going to work. I have my normal head and eye pressure but when I woke up at 1:30 am it feels like someone pounded a nail in my forehead, I feel confused today it took me hours to try and compress some scanned documents and e-mail them to my attorney. In my head its riiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnggggggggggg and my left ear I here music. I pay big bucks to feel this way.
  23. HI RiverLight I was a wrestler after high school I started into power lifting, I know how to keep my weight down and strength up or I knew until 2003 i was 165 lbs powerlifter. Don't take paxil . still working out powerlifting eating the same my lifts went down I was 185 lbs in 2004 in 2006 I was 205 in 2006 I gave it up due to work related injury in 2015 I was 225 I stand 5'8" with shoes on after my paxil dose reduction they put me back up to40mg I now am 250 and I take 60mg of amphetamine salt combo. I went grey and bald everyone else in our family my age has a full head of hair. I don't know your age I think you have had a couple of kids. Have you ever thought about St.Johns Wort and take ginseng with it unless you take something now you don't want to mix the two but I take prozac and paxil together but I filed for SDD Im still alive I only had 3 hrs sleep and I feel like I have a massive hang over.
  24. Oh this is so fun going through alprazolam withdrawal for the first time in16 yrswow 2003-2016 no14 cant really do basic math. the new guy at the clinic had a week of vac it was a good thing I accumulated extra over the years so i called yesterday because I am totaly out he called back and said oh it will be today or tomorow, hold on i don't have none oh well today or tommorow bye. so this is great seeing lots of funny colors, im holed up in the dark air conditioning and start sweating so i call the pharmacy oh we just got the fax it will be a hour and a half thsi all happening now while i tell you how i feel right now i called the guy at the brand new fancy mental health clinic and left a message congragulations you have just sent me on well no just told hold on oh spots on my computer blue yellow really feel confused dazed and confused hey thats a good song yeah not sweating mouth is really dry oh 2 min later the pharmacy calls its ready well im in no shape to drive dont have any friends my dog cooper he would do it but they probably wont accept his dog licsense i forgot to tell you this is the same place that reduced my paroxetine from 40mg to 20 mg i started taking it with the alprazolam my family doctor put me on this yeah that was pretty rough the 2nd week terrible 3rd week i woke up to what was like someone lit a hole pack of firecrackers and threw the pack inside my head wow it didn't huert until afterwords so anytime now i might get that agian never did recover from the last one so i hav a little anxiety about that right now i called my widowed mom i'm supposed to take care of her but now she takes care of me it makes you feel great yeh she is gonna go get her drug addicted son his fix 2mg a day not much i did stop partying lets see i was 27 and i will be 50 23 yrs ago i spent alot of money partying come to think of it i spent a lot of money getting well on this place i was in control of my partying really out of control but never had to wait or rely on someone else now i have tingling head, feet,hands and tongue no its dry okay i cant take the light anymore bye
  25. I've asked if they want to go to therepy with me and no one does. It's like i have the flu and they might catch it. Then when you taper of medicine to try another because thay say it's not working and you are now worse then they say start taking it agian and pretty soon your on 5 different psychologic meds and your the one who has to come off them. morepills
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