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  1. Okay, we need the like button back! It's triggering me not being able to show my appreciation for all the great posts in this thread anymore.
  2. Thank you :). My cat was there too. We had a blast watching Shameless lol.
  3. Well, I was expecting to undergo my ascension into a super powerful 'God King' since it's my 35th birthday but when I felt absolutely no change in my ability to lift things with my mind I just watched Netflix and ate some caramel and cheese popcorn. Eclipses are overrated if you don't get powers from it. Meh. Just for future reference, when you give a creepy old homeless man 20 bucks outside of a Kroger and he looks at you with his solid white eyes and tells you your destiny is nigh when day becomes night and shadow consumes the sun....ignore him, he's crazy. I suppose I could have painted my naked body in bear fat and maple syrup and wrapped myself in the freshly skinned hide of a wolf to dance in the hidden sun but that was too much work for a few stupid powers. Oh well.
  4. You are too hard on yourself but dang that was funny as heck! I'm dying lol.
  5. @KidSurvivor2011 I care right now, I hope you feel better. If I could take the pain away I would and I'm sure everyone here would do the same. My grandmother used to say "Give me my flowers while I'm alive." Meaning, pay attention to me while I'm living. These are for you... ✿ ✿ ✿ ✿ ✿ ✿ ✿ ✿ ❀ ❀ ❀ ❀ ❀ ❀ ❀ ❀ ❀ We hear you.
  6. I sing Disney songs when I use the restroom. I don't remember when I started but it's just a habit now. I don't like bodily functions so I guess it helps with the trauma of going potty. ♫A WHOLE NEW WOOOOORRRRRLLD♪
  7. This thread always leaves me inspired and in awe. Big to all you brilliant mother******s.
  8. Sorry you're not feeling well Teddy545. Don't feel bad about forgetting the therapy homework, sometimes I forget to even GO to therapy! lol.
  9. I know the feeling. Don't hurt yourself. We tend to want to hurt ourselves when we have already been through so much pain. I say do something good for yourself, something you like. Buy something you want even if it is just something small (my thing today was a gyros with extra tzatziki sauce and a book I have been wanting to buy). Hope you get to feeling better.
  10. Me too! I have to stop because I get so worked up. I'm listening to ASMR videos now whilst playing Empyrion Galatic Survival and I'm starting to feel a little better but not by much. It feels so hopeless that these monsters are literally doing what they do and seem to get away with it.
  11. The Family I weep with you, my friend. Your tears, they wet my face. Your sobs they squeeze my lungs, and your anguish haunts my brain. I suffer with you, my sister. Your pain fires through my nerves. Your contorted features mirror all my sorrow's twists and turns. I ache with you, my brother. Your bruises mark my skin. Your abrasions are like fingers tracing all the pain within. I mourn with you, my family whether distant, whether near. Conjoined with you in agony, never separate when we're here. ColdFire-6/20/17
  12. I feel like giving up. Watching the people of the world turn on one another knowing there are evil-hearted and greedy persons orchestrating it all is heartbreaking when you feel like you are the only one who sees what is really happening. There is an agenda being worked out, not under our noses, it is in plain sight but few see it. We split off into our little groups and fight while the powerful elite warms their hands over a fire fueled by the cremated remains of the people. I have very little faith in humankind. I don't want to be here anymore. Love don't live here anymore.
  13. I get those too where in my dreams my teeth are really loose and I start pulling them out one by one. I wonder what those kinds of dreams mean.
  14. I get them too and my doctor put me on prazosin for PTSD and it helps sort of with the nightmares, I still dream really vivid dreams but they are not nightmares. I hope you find something to help because sleep is really important. I don't know why I have them but the meds do help.
  15. Humanity, or what passes as humanity these days. We seem to be better at harming than anything else. The wealthy/greedy pull the strings and shape the world as they see fit, damn the innocent lives that are ruined in the process. The selfish and vindictive always seem to succeed, the leeches grow fat and still refuse to drop off. The puppet masters wiggle their fingers and orchestrate division and strife and no one seems to see it. Social engineering is a thing. I wouldn't be surprised if 1984 turns out to be a prophecy. It sure looks like it to me.
  16. Thanks Jess! Same here, If you ever need to talk I'll be here.
  17. I would punch me in the face and spit on me. F* ck that guy.
  18. So happy to hear you are doing better!!!! You just brightened my day Jess. I hope things continue to improve for you because you are an amazing person.
  19. I understand that all too well. A therapist told me to buy a punching bag to vent my anger by taping a picture of the persons/things I am upset with even if those things I would tape on the bag are just words. I don't recommend doing that because for me, it just caused me to associate my anger/frustration with physical aggression and to this day I want to cave in the face of everyone that pi**es me off and lets just say whenever someone visits me they ask if I'm remodeling lol. I have to buy drywall, plaster and paint in bulk. Just make sure you allow yourself to feel what you are feeling and don't try to push it away. That helps me a lot. I let myself acknowledge my anger/frustration, I analyze why I feel that way and and then I try to think of ways that I can improve my reaction to stimuli. Its not 100% effective (hence my walls from time to time look like a demo site) but it helps. I love people but at the same time I can't stand people which is most of the time. I really have a hard time not letting other people's crappy behavior and my complete failure at adulting upset me to the point where I'm almost frozen. I hope you can find a way to process that anger and negative thoughts that won't cause you harm.
  20. I got in a bit of cardio too. Stupid Crunch N' Munch bag was so hard to open. Just kidding. I did go for a 3 mile walk before therapy and am planning to go to the park tonight with a "friend" because his group of friends are going to sing and play guitar. I am deathly afraid of the woods here (the deer like to attack humans) but at least if I have to run I am a pretty big guy who used to play football, I can easily push one of them to the ground and get a head start. Nothing motivates like Bambi wanting to play patty-cake on your face. So far I have lost 10 pounds in 8 weeks. By October 2033 I will be in great shape.
  21. Well, may brakes went out while I was driving a few days ago (and lets just say I instantly lost 10 lbs ) so I have been doing a lot of walking since then and I actually like the after walk ache I get. Lets me know there are still muscles in there somewhere. Edit: Just got the bill for the brakes and I lost 10 more lbs.
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