Icy_rose88

The last few days have been exceptionally hard for me. Then I started my period in my sleep this morning and got woken up to horrible endometriosis pain. Its only 26 past noon and i am already tired of this day. FML.

So glad you're doing better! Yeah, I had to stop online dating too. I met a guy who tried to drug my drink. Horrible experience.

Tired. Had a long, exhausting night last night both mentally and emotionally as well as physically just staying up too late. Migraine today which adds to the tiredness. Feel like I may have a shorter fuse today than normal and I feel the need to tell people in my life that im not as dumb as i look. -_-;

Good job @hocico!

Anxiety ****ing STOP.

I'm so glad you found a solution and are feeling better! Paxil also drastically increased my anxiety and panic levels.

The Binding of Isaac: Rebirth. I've been playing it on and off for years, trying to beat it now.

BuSpar made me homicidal when I tried it for some reason so i had to stop it. But yes actually, I already have Tachycardia so my resting heart rate is somewhere between 110-112 all the time and then when i have a panic attack it skyrockets and i also have palpitations so I will ask about the metoprolol. I agree, it really is debilitating and the worst part is that people think it's something we can control and I clearly cannot do that or I would've by now. thank you for all the help!

Thank you so much! I have a chronic condition that they have me on an opiate for so that wont give me xanax or ativan or anything like that. Im not even sure how much Vistaril would be the "Max dose" I could take without it harming me. It is written as 50mg 1 or 2 pills up to three times a day. I took two about an hour and a half ago and I still feel nothing so i took another one and a half just now. It is crippling and excruciating to deal with this, especially living with my boyfriend and his 3 kids because as I'm sure you also experienced, when you are having bad panic attacks you can't do anything, you can't go anywhere. It is amazing how a disorder can disrupt your life so much. Every time it happens I feel like a huge asshole because I know they want to do things with me but I just can't all the time. I just now got medical insurance in the new state i'm living in, so now I can actually schedule or get a referral to a therapist. Or at least I hope I can. is Klonopin considered an opiate/narcotic or do you know? If it isn't then I might ask to try that instead. I am having a massive panic attack right now and i know it's irrational but my mind is convinced that this is going to **** me. Hyperventilation, super shaking hands and a weird kind of like....inside shake? It's hard to explain but that's the closest thing i can think of to describe it. just have no idae what to do right now to make it better and it's horrific.

I have always had Anxiety but never as bad as I have been having it lately. It gets to the point when I have panic attacks that I physically feel like I am going to die. Like, actually die. Usually when I have panic attacks, even when they were bad, I would at least be able to reassure myself that it wasn't actually going to **** me. Now i also have PTSD from my ex dragging me with a vehicle across a blacktop parking lot. I had several injuries but I feel like the mental/emotional toll that it took/is still taking on me is far worse. I am on Vistaril for panic attacks and it seems like sometimes that doesn't even touch it anymore. I'm so tired of feeling depressed and anxious pretty much consistently. I don't know where to go or what to do from here.

Anxiety Worthless Tired(not the sleepy kind of tired)

Hey guys, I've been on Effexor XR 150 mg for around 8-10ish years and I have the issue that i either feel like it isn't working anymore, or maybe i am just way more depressed? I talked to my doctor about changing it, possibly. She didn't want to change it yet though,(Against my request) so she added another 75mg to take every day so now I'm at 225mg a day and i have been since February 6th(roughly) but I still don't feel a difference. So I guess my questions are, where do i go from here? And do you guys think that the medication doesn't work after so many years or is it just me?

I know it has been a really long time since I posted on here so I figured I would give you guys an update on what is going on and how I am currently feeling and whatnot. Things went drastically downhill since April and not only has my Dad been in the hospital more frequently, I was also hospitalized for a bit because of the cyst that I have in my brain, because it was growing. As far as the panic and anxiety, I am trying to find a doctor that will prescribe something solely for anxiety that I can take not necessarily daily, but just when I am having a panic attack full on to stop it..My family doctor "doesn't believe in anxiety/panic attacks" and thinks that I can willingly control it if I try hard enough which we all know is bulls*** in the fullest. I continue to be pushed out of people's lives whom I have put 100% into, which makes me cautious and anxious to be in relationships and things. I am dating someone now and it is going well so far and I hope it stays that way. I miss you all. I still feel like I don't want to be here anymore honestly.

Oh ok, that makes sense as to why she never stays. Thank you for the response <3

I am a 23 year old with a disability...A cyst in my brain that causes chronic migraines and also blackouts and chronic pain. I live with both of my parents. My Dad has chronic pancreatitis and we just recently learned that he may also have throat cancer. He is pretty weak and needs someone at home who can help him do things around the house and also to take him to hospitals/doctors when he needs to go. My mom is a drug addict and has been for years now. She has always hated me since I was born, she tells me that i ruined her life being born and that she never wanted me and that I don't take care of my Dad and that I am a fat ass and lazy and shouldn't be living with them anyway because I am an adult...That is just Some of the things she says to me on a daily basis. I have endured the emotional/metal abuse for years because my Dad needs me when my mom is too drugged up to help him. There has been one time, before today...that mom has been physical and she left bruises on me. Today she slammed the couch arm rest on my Dads arm and he grabbed her bu the neck and i got him off her. She told him that she is gonna kick me in the throat, etc...and that she will fight him also if she has to, to get to me. So today has been especially bad. I have tried calling police multiple times and they put her in a mental hospital a couple of times but somehow, after just a few days she has been released because she knows how to talk to people like nothing is wrong with her. It is very hard on me to take all of this abuse and she says what she does to me is not abuse and laughs at me when i try to bring it up and say it's abuse and that it is wrong. My Dad loves her too much to kick her out and so i have been stuck in this position because i want to take care of him because i love him and he is not only my father but my best friend, also. I just needed some support and some people to talk to about this because it really does and has worn on me after all these years and the things she says make me feel like it is true and that i am a bad daughter and a bad person, etc. It is horrible and I hate my life so much.

Sad Bullied Isolated

Thank you for this. For those who don't believe in all types of bullying, this will make it clear that it is not only physical, but there are Several actual types of bullying that can/do occur.

Things had been going pretty well for awhile as far as not having panic attacks. It was nice to almost forget the feeling of them, but everyday stresses and triggers that I deal with on the daily have made them come back in full force. Just when you think that you haven't had them for a good amount of time, they creep up on you again. In my case, I never got away from the biggest thing that triggers them which is a particular abusive person in my life, but I just seemed to be able to curb them so they didn't happen for quite a while. But these last couple of weeks seem to be a literal non stop anxiety attack. I try to only cry and really deal with it's full effects by myself in my room and I've been feeling like I just don't want to be here anymore some days. I know a lot of us have similar experiences. I just hate that I was doing so well and then it came back again. I know good and well that anxiety doesn't just go away and that I will always have it, but sometimes you have false hope that maybe it won't come back. Just hating where my life is right now and that I'm so stuck with this constant anxiety with no/little relief.

Exhausted No Effort

Unappreciated Anxious Hungry

I'm sorry you are so alone. I am the same way. I have no one I talk to and go out with on a regular basis other than 2 family members, i live with one and the other lives in another state so i cant just go out with her when i want or have sleepovers, etc. and she has work and school and an Actual life she lives every day so we cant text all the time like id like, i dont have a cellphone so i cant constantly message her. i only text her on facebook. I used to have real life friends who would come over and stuff but then some stuff in the family started happening and i lost some friends and then the other ones got tired of me venting about what was going on or me being sad all the time and noone really wanted to hangout after that. So i totally understand..and it feels like you will be sad and alone forever but you wont be, WE wont be. You just have to keep in mind you will meet someone who wants to see you and loves you and puts YOU first. You will eventually get married if you want to and then youll meet other couples to hang with or hang with your husband. If you are stuck kinda like i am just try and block it out for now and then get yourself out of the situation and really take time to find the pieces of yourself that you lost or that were taken from you and build a new you, a BETTER you. The you that you want to be <3 we can get through this together

That is how i feel, my mother constantly makes me feel like a horrible person and like i screw everything up :( hugs

I'm sorry, i have been feeling the same way, It seems that sometimes life throws multiple things at us at once to see how much we can handle. Never be afraid to cry, we all need to sometimes <3 *hugs*

Feeling extremely depressed and stressed. My dad is extremely sick and has been in the hospital 3 hours away from home for more than a week and he has to have another more dangerous/deadly surgery :( And i can't work so i can't help with bills and things when mom and dad are gone. My sister and I have started a page to help Dad and our family.