Hello, I'm a man living in Colorado Springs, Colorado. I've been depressive since childhood. My depression have increased gradually over the years to the point(I'm 39 years old) that I simply do not enjoy but the briefest of moments. When Obamacare became available I joined the ranks of Medicaid to eventually wade through the prerequisites to see a psychiatrist. I've since tried eleven different antidepressants. I'm taking Latuda presently and it's clear that this isn't helping. This according to my psychiatrist is the last antidepressant that we will try. When I return for my appointment in a couple of weeks I will have expended all of my options for antidepressant medication. I'm aware then that my medication options will be expended, and I've already lost the hope that was getting me through all the horrible side effects and withdrawl symptoms of the last 3 years. Obviously(to me) I maintain a strict diet, exercise, and meditate but none of these has improved my depression more than a modicum. I could go on a bit more but perhaps this is an appropriate length for an "introduction" I'm not even sure what I expect to find here. I'm imagining a room(forum) full of people nodding at one another at the horror of mental illness. Perhaps it will make more sense as I get into the conversations and begin to read what you all have to say. Thanks, Aaron.