Very frustrated. Been dealing with my issues for 20 years now, and I pretty much know the signs and what to do and when to do it to keep myself safe. My wife (been together 6 years now) is now going on about how she wants me to "work through" my, for lack of a better term, episodes, rather than self-medicate and sleep through it. I can't get her to understand that my episodes are not related to any particular issues, but rather a short-circuiting in the wiring of my brain. Medicating keeps me from hurting myself. Talking through it, or whatever she thinks is gonna happen, is not only going to put me at risk, but could put her at risk of physical harm if she tried to restrain me. She apparently spent her entire counseling session today discussing this with her doc, so it's a big deal to her. I think she feels like I am shutting her out or something instead of talking it out? Not really sure what she expects and don't know how to get her to believe I know what I am doing. She has unintentionally now made me feel guilty and feel like I am a burden that she has to worry about. Yeah that was a bit rambling and all over the place, but I feel a little better just getting it off my chest.