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  1. All I can say with how I was able to quit (had to, it caused some psychotic symptoms for me), is the following; It’s an absolute nightmare for about four months. I would start shaking with rage, and as a usually calm and kind person, I started getting into screaming fights, even with people I didn’t know! Oh, and the first two days off of it, I went into a true, full-blown mania! I don’t know of any way around a very long withdrawal though.
  2. Is anyone else suffering from rage after quitting Celexa? My doctor had to take me off of it because it was causing psychosis, but now I'm always in a rage. It's been about a month since I quit. I'm just always on edge. I explode at the smallest things, and I don't know what to do.
  3. Hello all. So I have been working full time, or working and going to school pt/ft for years. I was doing just fine with it all. But now the stress is just eating me alive! I am having panic attacks at work, and school plus ANY work overwhelms me. I applied for SSDI at the beginning of this year, but it will still be months before I get any sort of decision, good or bad. I just don't know what to do. I don't have the means not to work, but I can't go on like this. And I can't quit school just to work; I was having panic attacks before I started school again, and I would then have to pay back thousands in student loans, which I can't afford if I'm not working (obviously). Please, any help that can be offered, or sympathy or empathy, I'll take it. Thank you.
  4. Hello. I just wanted to share my Celexa story. I just started it a month ago, and I want to encourage others who might take it now or have to start taking it. It has been a great drug for me so far! I was put on Celexa for Major Depressive Disorder. Before that I was only on Abilify, Wellbutrin and Neurontin because I had never done well with anti-depressants in the past. AD's like Paxil and Zoloft made me madder than a hornet, and AP's like Ripserdal and Clozoril did too. So I basically had untreated depression for decades in my life. I also have High Functioning Autism. So my Psychiatrist started me on Celexa. I was scared of the 20 pound weight gain I had heard of, but last November my depression had started causing panic attacks and I could not focus for the life of me. It kept getting worse, so I knew I had to try something. The first day of 10 mg of Celexa was horrid. my eardrum (which has ruptured before) was throbbing, I was tired and dizzy and foggy, among other things. But that was only for the first day. I went put to 20 mg after the first week because my doctor said to do so if I was able to tolerate 10 mg. I started taking the Celexa in the morning, and for two weeks, I was falling asleep in my classes and could not sleep at night. So I tried taking it at night. I could not sleep if I had a gun to my head! That lasted for another two weeks. I also had very vivid dreams. I did deal with fogginess, fatigue, wanting to sleep all the time, etc during all this time as well. So my doctor told me a week ago to switch it back to mornings, and I can sleep pretty well! It's still not as well as before I started the drug, but I'll live. After the first month, I am now so happy I gave this med a chance! I can focus! I haven't gained any weight, I've actually lost 3 lbs (though I know a lot of people do gain weight on SSRI's). I'm noticing things in life that I never did before; like the beauty of fallen snow in the sunlight, sunrises and other parts of nature. I Feel excited to have been created, as opposed to wanting to not exist anymore. I rarely get blue anymore. Not even depressed, but just blue. I am far more social than I have ever been, and confident. I can walk up to total strangers and start conversations. So to anyone who is starting Celexa, or in that 4-6 week startup time, if you feel it might work for you, don't let the side effects force you to stop. This is just my opinion and experience, I'm not a doctor. But be encouraged that the side effects to subside. Thank you.
  5. Scienceguy, have you tried joining a club or group that revolves around a hobby, sport or interest? It is a way to get away from the food aspect of socializing. I wish you the best of luck.
  6. Hello all. So, I hate coming home to an empty house every night, and that's exactly what I have to do too. I don't have a spouse, I don't have kids. I'm not home enough to own an animal; it would just be unfair to a dog or a cat to leave it alone all day. I don't know what to do about this. I don't have any friends that want a roommate or even that I would trust as a roommate. What does anyone else do about this who deal with it? I dread going home at night from wherever I have been :(
  7. I also had a severe worsening of depression. I have never before felt like sleeping all day and isolating, but after tapering off of Abilify and starting Latuda, I was in the worst depression I had ever had in my life. You're not alone! I had to go back on Abilify after a few days of Latuda. Now at least I'm functioning.
  8. Hi Deboriole :) Thank you for your response. I have been on meds since I was in first grade, so that might very well contribute to my memory issues.
  9. Hello Monic Marti. I'm sorry that the loss of a relationship has triggered this for you. But you are in a good place to find people to relate to! I've suffered from chemical depression (IE, not brought on by a life event) for ten years. Its sucks. And sometimes the more you are suffering, the more people who've never gone through it pull away because of stigma or not knowing how to deal with a depressed person. The truth is, depression can be very hard to get out of, especially the longer you are in it. Sometimes you won't feel "blue" or "sad", but you'll still have a lingering numbness called Anhedonia. I've had that for so long. The more people you can find to relate to, like at this forum, the more it helps. Do things to get your mind off what makes you sad, even if you don't feel like it, and eventually, it will help. That's what I've been told. Hope this helps!
  10. So, I've had traumatic things happen to me in my life. I also have a very hard time remembering things, especially the "when" part of a memory. If I was asked about things that happened in childhood, I could not tell you an age that they happened for the life of me. I remember all the bullying I faced in childhood, but things like being heavier due to medications, I can look at photos of myself being heavy as a young girl and not even remember it! Everything runs together for me. Things get a bid clearer in my late teens, but I barely remember my childhood. How many people here have this issue? Thanks.
  11. So, I posted this in the wrong thread, but I'll repost it here; I'm 28 and I'm single. I would rather be married! I only date guys who are kind and considerate, I will not date someone who treats me like yesterday's garbage, only to be thrown out. I hope that is an encouragement. A lot of people (yes, including myself), consider me attractive. I'm at what is considered a healthy weight by doctors (not overweight or obese), and my friends tell me they see people check me out. But I'm still single, and I am always the one to initiate dates with guys. I don't know why so many people are wanting something serious later in life, but it seems so many people in their late 20's and early 30's don't want to settle down or even commit. Here's an article on why people get married later nowadays: [please PM this member for the link] Just know that you are not alone, and there is nothing wrong with you for not having a spouse or significant other. It's a societal norm anymore. Cheers.
  12. Hello. I've been in a state of "deadness" in terms of enjoyment for years, and for years, I thought it was just my lot in life, and that it would never get any better. After all, I was able to hold down a full time job. I have been on Abilify for these years. Now my doctor has me tapering down from the Abilify in order to start Latuda. I'm hoping it works but scared at the same time! I've heard mixed things on the weight gain aspect, which has been manageable on Abilify for me. Has anyone experienced the "mask-like face" with Latuda where you can't talk or move your eyes??? If you have a comparison story of the two meds, I'd love to hear it. Thank you.
  13. I've been on Abilify for 5 years or so, and yes, it seems to be getting less effective. I've been feeling worse over the last few months, and my mood and thoughts just seem to be getting more angry, jaded and hopeless. I'm less able to concentrate and feel enjoyment in anything. I'm switching to Latuda, which is in the same class as Abilify, and I'm terrified! Terrified of possible weight gain, of my psychotic symptoms coming back, of all the side effects possible with Latuda! But continuing down this path is not worth staying on a med that seems to be "pooping out".
  14. Hey Lacewing. Having to "earn" people's acceptance will get us nowhere fast. There are people out there who accept others for who they are, but just remember that all relationships are give and take, and everybody can be inconsiderate at times. I know that when I was a teenager (and improperly diagnosed, depressed, etc), I was not a good friend and was very self centered. That was something I had to change, but other things, like individuality, creativity, and the like, are virtues, not vices. Hope this helps ;)
  15. I'm grateful I found this forum :) Other than that, I was having a mini-meltdown earlier today. I'm tired all the time and tired of fighting life just to survive.
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