Everything posted by downunderu
I'm so frustrated, I'm miserable and have no motivation to do anything. This has been going on for a long time now (a couple of years) and just seems to be getting worse. I have seen multiple psychiatrists and have been on so many different meds and nothing seems to help. I wake up in the mornings and don't feel motivated enough to get dressed and then just call off work. For instance this week I haven't even been into work. I feel like I'm just going through the motions every day and I'm miserable every minute that i'm doing it. I really feel like I'm just here passing time and that the feeling is never going to go away. I'm tired of being miserable, unmotivated, unhappy, grumpy and disinterested in anything. I just don't see any way out of this as nothing works. I asked my doctor whats the next step if nothing works and he mentioned shock therapy which I don't like the sound off. Has anyone else had a similar experience and had success after so many years of constant failures? I've tried drugs from all the different classes of Antidepressants, Bi-polar medications, ADHD medications, Anxiety medications etc etc. I feel like there is no answer and that I'm stuck in this hell for ever.
I went out and purchased the book Driven to deception. I'm just hoping this is it. would be nice to have an answer at last and have hope that things will become more normalized.
This is my first post on this web site although I have been reading it for over a year. For the last year my doctor has tried me on many depression medications and none of them seemed to work. I was at the doctor the other day and she said I think you have ADD. I was kinda shocked but after reading about it I seem to have a lot of the symptoms. I was talking to my wife and came up with an explanation as to how I feel. If I try to read a book, I never get past the first chapter but if I read forum posts I can read them for hours. I said if I can see an ending in sight I can finish it, hence forum posts. They are short and I know it only takes a few minutes, but if I try to read a book I know the ending is days away and I end up losing interest. It's as though I have to have a quick ending to get anything finished, if I can not see the end in sight I just never get there. I have about 100 things I have started over the last 2 years and nothing is finished. I started a sports room with all my autograped memrobilia, it started off great but now it is all in boxes waiting to be set up. I mow the front lawn but never get to the back lawn or if I mow the back I never get to the front. I built a porch on the front of the house got it to the stage it is up and painted but never completed the finishing touches. Started making cornhole boards never finished them. Start watching a movie never stay interested enough to see the ending. These are just a few things I can thing of off hand. I'm kinda excited to think that maybe I have an answer but kinda scared at the same time. What if it isn't ADD? What next? I just want an answer. I don't want to feel frustrated every day anymore. I just feel as thought my life is slipping away and I am getting no where. Do you think my Doctor has got this right or am in for another disappointment?