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6dantex6

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  1. B from NJ you can ask for xanax to treat the anxiety in the first days or maybe try another ssri. i have xanax from years ago when it was prescribed to me together with lexapro(i threw away the lexapro but kept the xanex). tried it few times(first time was very scared) and it wroks great but you cant take them for long.it doesnt help my fears that i have xanax but maybe it will help you.
  2. I have recently finished an electricians course and now waiting to get the license(you cant work without a license).i am 27 and decided its time to make a change and get a better job(was working in store stocking shelves ) and where I live electrician is good career so I went for it. It wasnt easy with the depression at times but studying and that environment was good for me. Before the store job I was unemployed for 3 +years,it was a horrible time. at that time I tried lexapro and took 1 pill and it made things way worse with horrible panic attacks and developed anxiety (had anxiety before but after the pill it got much worse for many months).after that I also developed fear of medications,i am scared to take any medication even the common ones for headache. the doctor told me this happened because I took 10mg pill my first time when I should have started with a smaller dose and that if I try again with lower dose it wont happen . since that time I was desperate at times and wanted to try meds again. I bought the medication but never took it. now I am at this situation again. i finished the course two weeks ago and was doing ok but now I am all day at home with bad mood and my anxiety skyrocketed (having evil upstairs neighbors who make noise all the time isnt helping ), I am shocked that this deterioration happened so fast and scared that again I will be stuck for years until ill find a job. Few days ago felt so horrible that I went to the doctor and got the medication again. Now I am in a constant battle with myself. i have approximately 2 months until I will get my license so I thought its a good time now to give the meds a chance. On one side I know that if the meds will work for me it will change my life and I will be able to feel good (i have persistent depressive disorder so I havent been happy for many years) and also will be able to relax from the constant anxiety from everything. on the other side I am terrified of the side effects (not the nausea or head aches) but the panic attacks and anxiety and the health related things (heart stuff, bleeding risks and so on...) and most of all I am scared that it will make my situation way worse. I am at a bad place now but I know it can get worse and these medications are strong. So if you have any advice or had a similar experience please share
  3. same here. its weird,on one side i am depressed with no will to live and just want it all to end and sometimes suicidal. on the other side i get very anxious about my health and when i think i have some terminal disease it comes close to panic. i cant understand it at all. you can talk to a therapist if you have one or even your doctor.
  4. just some thoughts i feel i need to share with someone for the past few days i convinced myself because of some symptoms that i have ALS. it made me anxious(well more anxious than i am usually) and sad with a feeling of doom. this scare led me to thinking.lets say i have ALS so what? ill be dead in few years so whats the problem?why i am scared and sad about it?i dont enjoy living anyway so this will just shorten my suffering.if i go to the doctor and he says that i am completely healthy, what then? so i am not going to die soon from a horrible disease but why is that better. it wont change the fact that i have no reason to live and no joy in this life. then it got me thinking why i am still alive?why i try and fight depression?what is the point of all this?for what? i just cant find a reason to live or why i should try to live and get better. i dont want to die but also dont want to live.its a strange and confusing position to be in
  5. same here. i had a girlfriend at 16 for 2 weeks and since then having a relationship is like some impossible fantasy (i am 27 now)
  6. you can try taking vallium or other benzo to calm you before the appointment
  7. pet rat is a great idea.they are smart and loving.similar to dogs they come if you call their name,give you kisses ,can tech them tricks... but if you get a rat its better to get 2 so that they wont be lonely when your not around.
  8. welcome to the forums. have you thought about getting a pet?it will help with the loneliness( it helped me and its nice to have someone who loves you unconditionally)
  9. linkin park had a concert where i live but i didnt go,i thought ill go next time.i regret this decision very much. its a strange thing. i grew up listening to linkin park and still listen to them.i didnt know chester personally but when my friend told me what happened i was shocked and very very sad as if it was someone wery close to me who died.
  10. the thing that keeps me going\trying when i can is the hope that someday ill get better.you can say that getting better and beating depression is something like my purpose.
  11. i tried CBT and it worked for some time but when my mood hit the really low points i did nothing. its my fault because i havent done the exercises every day and didnt take it too seriously . i think it has a great potential,i am also reading now david burns book and going to try it more seriously and for longer period of time.
  12. SADNESS INSIDE AND HAPPINESS OUTSIDE JUST STANDING HERE HOPELESS WHEN EVERYTHING CRUMBLES RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY EYES EMPTY IS HOW I FEEL HOPING ITS NOT REAL MAYBE ITS JUST AN ILLUSION AND BEING HAPPY IS A SKILL THAT IF I TRY TO DEVELOP I ALWAYS FAIL I AM LOCKED IN A JAIL AND ON TOP OF THAT MY MIND FEELS SLOWER THAN A SNAIL THERE'S NO LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL THERE'S NO MORE FISH LEFT AT THE SEA SADNESS BOILING WHILE I SCREAMING WHY IS HAS TO BE ME I JUST WANT TO BE FREE FROM THE SADNESS FROM DESPAIR FROM THE LACK OF MOTIVATION FROM MY FRUSTRATION AND ALL THE OTHER SH*T INSIDE OF ME SOMEHOW I BECAME MY OWN ENEMY SO I KINDLY ASK MY SELF LETS GIVE OUR HEART AND ONCE AGAIN FOR ONE LEST LAST TIME LETS TRY AGAIN TO DO MY BEST TO BEAT THIS CURSE AND BRING SOME HAPPINESS INSIDE
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