mulberrypie reacted to RiverLight for a blog entry, Go Away With Your Poisonous Negativity!
Self-hating mean, envious, angry and jealous people irk me to no end. They try to topple you down and tear you down because you're better than they are and they know it. They are filled with self-hatred and self-loathing and need to spread their poison everywhere to make themselves feel better or more superior. I loathe this type of person with every fiber of my soul. I have no respect whatsoever for someone whose own sense of inferiority causes them to bully, ridicule, attack, accuse, and blame others for basically everything that they are not and wish that they could be but never will be. That is pure dark, soulless evil. Pure toxic, venomous waste. So anyone who is like that belongs in a toxic waste dump and is a waste of space and of life. God help them. I pity these lost souls who obviously just hate themselves and hate their lives. We're responsible for our own happiness. Stop blaming others for your own lack of a happy and fulfilling life and self-hatred. Do something about it and fix yourself. But don't sh*t upon others just because you're miserable. Do unto others as you would have done unto you. Clearly these people do not know the Golden Rule. I am not religious and don't shove religion down peoples' throats, but this is a pretty basic life tenant to live by that I do embrace.
mulberrypie reacted to My empire of dirt for a blog entry, Why can't i have the glory of forgetting?
Its so easy for the "normal" people to forget and let things go why can't I? Why must I be tortured by my regrets? Why must I long for a woman who cares nothing for me when there was never a chance she would care? Why must god see fit to take my life as well isn't it enough he took any chance of a "normal" life from me? Why must I be aware of what I am? WHY CAN'T I HAVE THE GLORY OF FORGETTING???????????????
mulberrypie reacted to RiverLight for a blog entry, You Pi** Me Off
I am tired of getting kicked around. I am tired of being abused. I am tired of people trying to trample on me and take advantage of my good nature. I am done. Just done. The latest is that this recruiter for a job I really want is asking me to do all sorts of work upfront for the company, without getting paid. W T F??? I have done this before as a consultant and was totally burned! She did not hire me, yet used some of my ideas. So I did work for free! Never again will I do this. His suggestions are over the top and unreasonable. He not only asked me to prepare a 3-month action plan of what I would do if hired, he also asked me to prepare a 1-3 page S.W.O.T. analysis of the company (strengths, weaknesses, opportunities, and threats) to leave behind at my interview. 1-3 pages? Are you freaking kidding me??? Where the hell this guy is coming from I do not know. My therapist said he's pushing just to get me hired so he can get paid. I am sure that's what it is, too. He's not looking out for me, he's thinking of himself. Selfish Barsteward. I am sick to my stomach over people like this. I want to kick them to the curb. Wish I were just a total biotch. Life would be so much easier. Nice people suffer more, I do believe. This reminds me of my boss, expecting me to work holidays and demanding that I fix things on my days off. When I put down my foot, she put up a real stink about it. When you stand up for yourself, people don't like it. Well I'm drawing the line. I told him no, I do not do work for free. I will do a S.W.O.T. analysis only if I am hired. No longer will I allow people to take advantage of me.
mulberrypie reacted to RiverLight for a blog entry, The Dalai Lama ~ My Spiritual Guide
I LOVE the Dalai Lama. He has taught me compassion, forgiveness and inner peace. He has helped to squelch my own anger and replace it with tolerance and understanding. He is my teacher, my guide, my savior at times, my spiritual guru. I am now returning to a place in my life where I want to embrace his philosophies again.
Here are are few of my favorite quotes by him:
“One great question underlies our experience, whether we think about it or not: what is the purpose of life? . . . From the moment of birth every human being wants happiness and does not want suffering. Neither social conditioning nor education nor ideology affects this. From the very core of our being, we simply desire contentment. . . Therefore, it is important to discover what will bring about the greatest degree of happiness.” – Dalai Lama
“Given the scale of life in the cosmos, one human life is no more than a tiny blip. Each one of us is a just visitor to this planet, a guest, who will only stay for a limited time. What greater folly could there be than to spend this short time alone, unhappy or in conflict with our companions? Far better, surely, to use our short time here in living a meaningful life, enriched by our sense of connection with others and being of service to them.” – Dalai Lama XIV
“The creatures that inhabit this earth-be they human beings or animals-are here to contribute, each in its own particular way, to the beauty and prosperity of the world.” – Dalai Lama
“Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions.” ― Dalai Lama
“A truly compassionate attitude toward others does not change even if they behave negatively or hurt you.” ― Dalai Lama
“Human potential is the same for all. Your feeling, “I am of no value”, is wrong. Absolutely wrong. You are deceiving yourself. We all have the power of thought – so what are you lacking? If you have willpower, then you can change anything. It is usually said that you are your own master.” ― Dalai Lama
“Hard times build determination and inner strength. Through them we can also come to appreciate the uselessness of anger. Instead of getting angry nurture a deep caring and respect for troublemakers because by creating such trying circumstances they provide us with invaluable opportunities to practice tolerance and patience.” ― Dalai Lama
“Be kind whenever possible. It is always possible.” ― Dalai Lama
“To conquer oneself is a greater victory than to conquer thousands in a battle.” – Dalai Lama
“A disciplined mind leads to happiness, and an undisciplined mind leads to suffering.” – The Dalai Lama
“In the practice of tolerance, one’s enemy is the best teacher.” ― Dalai Lama
“When we are motivated by compassion and wisdom, the results of our actions benefit everyone, not just our individual selves or some immediate convenience. When we are able to recognize and forgive ignorant actions of the past, we gain strength to constructively solve the problems of the present.” ― Dalai Lama
mulberrypie reacted to RiverLight for a blog entry, Every Relationship Has Abuse?
I cannot believe what just happened. I was with my mother talking about the fact that my therapist says what my boyfriend does borders on verbal abuse, and that I didn't feel comfortable going to his daughter's graduation right now. Plus, logistics are tough. My mother just gave me a stern lecture by saying every relationship has some amount of abuse, and if I cannot accept that, then I will be alone for the rest of my life!
W T F?????? SERIOUSLY??????????? NO. I do not believe this, nor is it true from my own experience! I think she is justifying her own relationship with my father since he is controlling at times, belittles her at times, and basically from what I witnessed, I saw some verbal/emotional abuse when I was growing up.
I cried after she said this to me and had a mini breakdown. I would rather be alone then for the rest of my life then be abused. Period. And, I do not believe that what she says is true. Not at all. What do you believe?
mulberrypie reacted to RiverLight for a blog entry, What He Does to Me.... Abuse?
His accusations: I don't like the way you communicate --- when I wanted to go to bed in the middle of a conversation You're unstable --- simply because I confronted him about his behaviors and how they made me feel You take me for granted (twice he's said this) --- simply because I didn't text for a few hours while in transition from a party You feed me all BS; you pick and choose what you want to tell me -- simply because I went to a bar by myself (I should not have broken the rules, but I told him the truth)... and because I had forgotten to tell him about an ex boyfriend contacting me, yet told him the truth when asked if anyone's contacted me lately.
He turns the tables & gets defensive: When confronted with his behavior he always turns the tables to say what I do wrong, or equally as wrong. He won't simply own up to it immediately and apologize for hurting me
Everything that is wrong has to be equal to him: When he's in the wrong, he needs to make it equal by bringing up my past mistakes or what I do wrong
Brings up irrelevant past issues in arguments: Throws in what is completely irrelevant, or a past issue, into the current argument
He becomes controlling whenever he's upset or anxious: I want to chaperone you when you're out without me and show up unexpectedly to check up on you I want to meet every guy friend of yours before you go out with them alone You can't go out to dinner alone with your ex boyfriend, even though I'm invited to meet up with you afterwards I don't want you being affectionate with your guy friends ever Doesn't trust me, is overly anxious, and communicates very poorly when upset or anxious. Can't deal with this anymore. :/ Is this abuse?