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    mulberrypie reacted to Camellia for a status update, Missing you my dearest friend. So very much (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Be   
    Missing you my dearest friend. So very much 
    (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Berry))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
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    mulberrypie reacted to Icy_rose88 for a status update, Hey friend,I tried to send you a message on here but it wouldn't let me. Anyhow, I fi   
    Hey friend,I tried to send you a message on here but it wouldn't let me. Anyhow,  I finally got a laptop again so I can get back into posting regularly on here. My previous computer died on me so I had no way to keep in touch. I have missed you! 
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    mulberrypie reacted to Jalen for a status update, Here's a s***ty poem I wrote... I look around, Things so hazy, I feel nothing, Think   
    Here's a s***ty poem I wrote...
    I look around,
    Things so hazy,
    I feel nothing,
    Think I'm going crazy,
    I tell myself it'll all be okay,
    All this will go away someday,
    But for how long can I lie,
    How long can I hold back the urge to die,
    I want to give up every day,
    I see no other way,
    But I keep pushing forward,
    In hopes the future will hold a reward,
    I silently cry,
    As I sit down and wonder why,
    Why does this world crush me down,
    A world where it's normal to be pushed around,
    You put up with others bulls***,
    Their words like a bullet,
    The loneliness eats you alive,
    Making it so hard to survive,
    A knife, a bottle, your only friends,
    Everything else a fiend,
    Demons haunt you day and night,
    How easy it would be to end the fight,
    Give up, surrender, let them win,
    Why not just give in?
     
    Hope you all have been okay.
    I'm doing pretty sh!tty.
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    mulberrypie reacted to quentin360 for a status update, I am so lost as to what the Hell is wrong with me. I have been so severely depressed   
    I am so lost as to what the Hell is wrong with me. I have been so severely depressed for the past 2-3 weeks and since Tuesday, I have just got so weak and so fatigued that I can hardly breath.  I know that the Charcot-Marie-Tooth disease is getting worse and my vision is crap.  A friend yelled to me about 30 yards away, but I did not know who it was until I got right up to him. I can not hold anything, anymore and drop everything I try to hold. The braces I am wearing are cutting into my feet, but I am going to get them adjusted Wensday.  But, my friends, those are just feelings and emotions, that just so happen to be really getting to me BAD.  I am grateful though, there are many people/children that are a lot worse off than me.  My friend in Australia, April, is always messaging me good thoughts, as do so many of you. She has CMT, as well as her 8 year old daughter, Erykah. Erykah has a worse type of CMT, than I do, she too is losing her vision, as well as, her hearing. I am sorry for being so distant for the past week, but it has been worse, (the depression and losing my temper at myself all the time), I have just had such a terrible attitude. The crazy thing is, I should have been here on the forum, instead of just wallowing in my anger and self-pity. I will try to get on the forum more often when I am like this, you guys do still mean a lot to me, with your encouraging and supportive words. For the past few days, I have had horrible stomach pain, (Like right now, it hurts really bad. I'm gonna post this and then go to bed. I just need yall to know that I am still kicking, I am just so sick of being so sick. Please continue to keep me in your prayers...Yall's Friend Always Quentin. PS: I will read every message I have got when I am feeling better, THANKS my friends...
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    mulberrypie reacted to Jalen for a status update, Thank you for all you've done on the forums, and being an amazing friend.   
    Thank you for all you've done on the forums, and being an amazing friend.
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    mulberrypie reacted to quentin360 for a status update, Hello all my good friends, my current status is mild to moderate depression with a 35   
    Hello all my good friends, my current status is mild to moderate depression with a 35% chance of panic attacks as well as severe depersonalization and altered ego states of mind...But seriously, I am doing well as I can, I just can't stay online right now because we are having some very bad storms and I don't want my PC to get fried again. I do have a "Quentin" moment I will share real fast. My neighbor that made me supper that night. I made her family my famous banana pudding. So i went to meet Matt, her boyfriend, about halfway to give it to him, they do have some bad dogs. I barely made it out of my yard, with hands full of pudding, and my leg just snapped/cracked, I thought I had broke my leg but it did not hurt. I held onto a tree and yelled to Matt to come get the pudding, that something was wrong with my leg. He offered to help ma back to my house but I limped my way back, with a big ? as to what happened. Yall know that I have the CMT and have been wearing AFO braces since 12 or 13 and they would break many times back then because I was so active and hard on them.  But sure enough that is what happened the other night, my left one broke all the way in half. Of course I have had this pair for about 10 years, so I was not to surprised. Thank God, I had another pair in my closet that I have never used. So that's my story and I'm sticking to it, what a day that was. I am getting off line now and unplugging my PC. I will be back on the forum before yall know it...Be Good to Yourselves...your friend Quentin...PS: I will read all my new messages when the weather clears and I get back online...
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    mulberrypie got a reaction from Camellia for a status update, Hi my sweet lovely friend (((((((((Camellia))))))))))) I need to erase some messages;   
    Hi my sweet lovely friend (((((((((Camellia)))))))))))
    I need to erase some messages; I got yours fine but couldn't reply to yours -Thank you so much for thinking of me!!!!
    Love,
     Your friend, Berry
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    mulberrypie reacted to quentin360 for a status update, Hello all my good friends, I hope and pray that all are well today. I am posting this   
    Hello all my good friends, I hope and pray that all are well today. I am posting this on my profile status as well as The Depression Central. First I would like to say that I am so grateful for all of you that were so concerned for and prayed for me during my ongoing stomach illness, I can not express that enough. I only confided in two people about the fact that there was a good chance that I had stomach cancer, I did not want anyone to worry unnecessarily until I knew for sure. I am sorry to the two people I told, I hope yall did not worry a lot. Anyway I just now got off of the phone with the doctor and he said there is no cancer. They found the bacteria H Pylori, and I will be on antibiotics for two weeks. I still have a severe pyloric ulcer, but the antibiotics hopefully will **** the bacteria and therefore help to heal the ulcer. And who knows, maybe if I start getting better with my health, then maybe the severe depression I have had for the last couple of months will get better.
    I know that here on the forum, I can be honest about everything that I am or have been feeling. I will have to admit that I, in a way, almost hoped it was cancer and terminal and that way I could "escape" from this reality through natural means. I was very wrong to think in that sort of way and I hope yall don't hold it against me. I see, on a day by day basis, people/children going through a lot of difficult things and it does, in a way, cause me to be somewhat thankful, so I am sorry that I was ever thinking those thoughts. I have to pay bills right now but I will try to get back on the forum later. Again THANKS a Plenty for all of you here...your friend Quentin...Be Good to Yourselves...

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    mulberrypie got a reaction from hocico for a status update, Happy New Year!!   
    Happy New Year!!
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    mulberrypie reacted to Natasha1 for a status update, happy new year to all. may we all find peace in 2017. im trying to forgive myself so   
    happy new year to all. may we all find peace in 2017. im trying to forgive myself so that maybe i can too.
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    mulberrypie reacted to samadhiSheol for a status update, Happy New Year, Boyz and girlz. May it be a turn of the tide (for the better!) for al   
    Happy New Year, Boyz and girlz.
    May it be a turn of the tide (for the better!) for all of us.

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    mulberrypie reacted to hocico for a status update, Aah one of the best things about this time of year is eating all the left over christ   
    Aah one of the best things about this time of year is eating all the left over christmas food before it goes out of date 
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    mulberrypie reacted to RiverLight for a status update, Merry Christmas everyone!   
    Merry Christmas everyone!


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    mulberrypie reacted to RiverLight for a status update, On self-acceptance:   
    On self-acceptance:


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    mulberrypie reacted to RiverLight for a status update, HOORAY!!!!! Bought tix for this show on NYE! Now if only my loving, adorable and incr   
    HOORAY!!!!!  Bought tix for this show on NYE! Now if only my loving, adorable and incredibly sweet boyfriend could join me! Sigh...... another time.


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    mulberrypie reacted to RiverLight for a status update, Head held high, self-esteem in tact, I am flying high.   
    Head held high, self-esteem in tact, I am flying high.


     
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    mulberrypie got a reaction from hocico for a status update, It's my birthday!! Welcome all my DF friends, you're my real family, so please!! have   
    It's my birthday!! Welcome all my DF friends, you're my real family, so please!! have some cake and help me celebrate! Love you all!!!!<3                                  


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    mulberrypie reacted to hocico for a status update, "Ah come Watson the game is afoot!"   
    "Ah come Watson the game is afoot!" 
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    mulberrypie reacted to RiverLight for a status update, Hehee! This made me laugh.   
    Hehee! This made me laugh.


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    mulberrypie reacted to hocico for a status update, OMG my reputation finally caught up with my content count lol thanks everyone.   
    OMG my reputation finally caught up with my content count lol thanks everyone. 
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    mulberrypie reacted to RiverLight for a status update, I have two ex's stalking me. This image pretty much captures it.   
    I have two ex's stalking me. This image pretty much captures it.


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    mulberrypie reacted to RiverLight for a status update, Welcome to Wednesday. May your day be as beautiful as this field of flowers!   
    Welcome to Wednesday. May your day be as beautiful as this field of flowers!


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