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  1. I couldn’t agree more. Depression destroyed my self-esteem and I haven’t been able to rebound. I’m trying a career transition and I really need a lot of confidence to sell myself and it’s just not happening. That only makes me more depressed and anxious & it cycles from there.
  2. No memory issues at all after mine but the occasional wicked headache.
  3. Zagor, it is not a cure but does help. It wears off, though, and you need booster treatments.
  4. I did 25 rounds of it in 2017. It took about 5 or 6 sessions before I started to notice a bit of a change. I was severely depressed and not really feeling emotions and it broke through that for me. By 10-12 sessions, I was finally able to have a range of emotions again and I started feeling better. I did have back soreness and a headache after the first 3 or 4 but that wore off as I had more treatments. Unfortunately, once I entered the maintenance phase, I fell back into a severe depression and a a ramped up burst of treatments didn’t help me so I stopped altogether. The only lasting impact I have now a year a few months later is that it changed the way I look at things in that I just lost a bit of my filter for saying what I think about situations. I am more blunt and it made me realize that I can’t put up with doing work that makes me miserable any longer. So that’s a good one. I’m still really depressed but I haven’t turned back to ECT. I’m getting ketamine treatments, which seem to help me more, but have the drawback of being expensive and not covered by insurance. Good luck! I know ECT has helped a lot of people.
  5. I’m on a low dose of Klonopin which does help, but I only take it before bed to calm me down so I can sleep. I am also on an antipsychotic and antidepressant and it doesn’t interfere with either. Hope you find something that helps.
  6. I’m sorry to hear you are worried about being alone, but at least you are getting medical help. For energy, I would say eating healthy and getting some exercise would both really help. Not sure what to recommend supplement-wise, but you should watch those as they can interact with meds.
  7. It is a day-by-day process and you have to focus on little things that might still give you pleasure. Plus, you have to think of your family and try to find some meaning from your time with them and with friends. It is so very hard to live with depression, but the key word is live. Reach out to people here or in person when you need to talk because it can truly help. I wish you the best.
  8. Try asking for something just for the anxiety, like Klonopin or Xanax. If you get a low dose it can take the edge off the anxiety without any worry about getting hooked on it. Exercise is the best medicine for both depression and anxiety but I know from personal experience that is easier said than done. I hope you are doing better today.
  9. Any hobby that you can enjoy is a great option. I can certainly relate to having unsympathetic people around you. Other than my wife, my family just looks on blankly as I talk about being suicidal-no sympathetic words at all. I just know now that I can’t look to them for any kind of support. I cratered this last Spring and I am just now trying to get back into a “real” life. It is tough and you need to be able to vent and get feedback, so come back here as often as you need.
  10. I have it and I know how the anxiety can spiral and overwhelm you. You have to try and break the anxiety by doing things like slowing down and focusing on your breathing. You can also remind yourself that things can, and do, get better. Just because something bad happened before doesn’t mean it will happen again. If you can, ask your doctor for an anxiety medication to help you with it.
  11. Please try to reach out to a professional to talk to if friends/family are unsympathetic. It’s tough for people without depression and anxiety to understand all of the feelings and thoughts that hold you down- the shame, sadness, guilt,etc. I understand and want you to know that you can deal with it but it’s a daily fight. Try to one thing a day that you used to enjoy and see if you can rediscover that feeling. See a psychologist or psychiatrist and talk with them. There are a lot meds that can help. Reach out on this forum whenever you need it. I hope you have a better day today.
  12. It’s hard to get out of bed for anything when you’re severely depressed. I completely understand. Please make it to the psych appointments and just be as honest as you can about where your head is at and listen to what your doctor recommends. I wish you the best and keep in touch on the forums.
  13. If you’re suicidal, please call a hotline in your area. I’ve been trapped in suicidal thinking and I know how it seems so logical at that awful moment, but it’s just a moment. It passes and you realize that it would devastate your family and your friends, not to mention the fact that things can get better. It means living day to day and trying to find little things to do to occupy your mind. Please try doing even the smallest amount of exercise. Walk around the block as slowly as you need to and build from there. You can’t go from being a bed zombie to a runner overnight. You are going to be weak at first but you can get stronger. I urge you to talk to a professional if you can and if not try someone you know who might be at least a little bit sympathetic. Stay with us.
  14. I’m on Rexulti and Fetzima with Clonazepam for my anxiety. I did a round of ketamine infusions that helped lift me out of being suicidal but they are really expensive and you need to keep going back for more if things go downhill. Exercise can really help more than the meds but I’ll be honest: I don’t do near enough of it. After years of laying in bed, I’ve put on weight that I’d like to take off.
  15. I can totally relate. When my depression is at it’s worst, i struggle with anhedonia. Just don’t care about anything and I am nearly emotionless. All I want to do is escape the world by sleeping. I’m feeling a bit better now , thankfully, but I still retreat to sleep on down days.
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