I'm currently sat in the tub, with the saddest songs I know feeling the calmest I've been all day.
Ive had depression and anxiety for 15 years and still feel guilty about it. Nothing triggered it, it's thought it's just a chemical imbalance as by all accounts I have a pretty perfect life... On the surface.
My depression has led me to some extreme behaviours overspending getting myself into nearly 10k worth of debt, obsessing over characters a d films for weeks on end, binge watching programmes, what I think is a binge eating disorder amongst others. I'm so lost and unmotivated and don't feel like I have anyone to talk to without feeling embarrassed or understood.
There's so much in my head right now I feel so heavy and overwhelmed. I want to feel numb.