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Almha

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  1. Modded my Wii so I could play some older gen games. Was really relaxing to clean up the controllers/system and to just delve into a project for a number of hours
  2. @In2deep4me Holy! Thank you so much for your in-depth advice, really appreciate it. Compromising and being able to work out with another can help a ton with keeping motivated, plus a bit of friendly competitiveness is always fun. I’m for sure going to check out prison cell routine in the morning (never heard of it before but it makes sense), can’t get a much smaller area than that! Seriously the little tidbit of a schedule you wrote is going to help so much. I’m pretty clueless with how long to go for and how best to balance rest vs workout. Thank you again!
  3. (Sorry for the double post) This is fantastic to hear about, thanks for sharing. Kudos to both of you on keeping such a strong exercise regiment going. I’ve tried just hiit alone and man was it brutal. Can’t imagine doing the other workouts that you’re doing too, good luck with it!
  4. I’m doing great, almost gained 20lbs thanks to Covid19. Really though, I’ve got to start either getting some daily exercise in or eat healthier/less given how little I’m burning each day. Any tips for someone who has little room inside their place and is keeping quarantined?
  5. For a quick short term boost to perk myself up I’d have to say tennis, cleaning or playing a game back from my childhood (although nostalgia can be a hit or a miss). Distractions & delicious endorphins more or less. To be quite honest though, my biggest positive leap was when I accepted that the ‘big bad reaper’ is coming no matter what I do - so darn simple, right? There will be fantastic days accompanied with garbage ones not far behind, take them as they are and continue marching on like a mindless ant. Realizing you can only do so much as a person, living on a small planet within a gigantic universe.. that thought in the past used to not motivate me at all, but knowing I’ve full control when I want to end this Earth game I’m in is pretty calming. It’s like a safety net, if that makes sense.
  6. My S.O. My current job (keeps me social & surprisingly happy) My upbringing (been very fortunate with so many opportunities)
  7. Thank you both, means a lot to have some support. I need to stop getting so emotionally explosive at everything and have more confidence in myself, the interview was very easy. Seriously appreciate the reassurance, you’re most definitely right 20years.. it does filter out any positive thoughts! (That’s very sweet of you btw Epictetus, such a kind soul! Likewise, you deserve to be free of any pain & be surrounded with good feels) 💕
  8. Welcome to the forums @Jonesy, so glad that you’ve come out of your shell to make an account here. Reading about your struggles and push to overcome them was very satisfying and oddly soothing. Though, I’m very sorry to hear that your Thanksgiving wasn’t spent with anyone.. it’s always heartbreaking to hear when folks break apart from their families/loved ones. Dogs are superb companions however, and I’m sure your lab was joyous to spend not only a holiday with you, but every other day in your loving company. Wishing you the best as well, and take care! Hope to see you more around the forums.
  9. Oh yeah.. ain’t NO SLEEP TONIGHT 🎉
  10. Hi all, Just a little overview of what’s happening before I go into details: I’m a Canadian about to get married & move to the USA. It’s been a long journey, and a lot of patience.. but finally the interview is here and I’m absolutely frightened. My memory is god awful (& keeps deteriorating) and no one takes me seriously, I fear I’m going to totally ruin this for both my husband and me (he won’t be there & we don’t have a lawyer). It doesn’t help at all that the last few months I’ve been having minor health issues that seem to be getting worse, and the doctors have not a clue what’s wrong.. which results in me getting booted out of their office. Close family around me aren’t believing me (docs word is final) and I feel no one’s got my back right now. I’ve been trying head over heels to straighten my life up and get a better outlook, yet time and time again I convince myself “what’s the point”. I’m not skilled at anything, I’m a bloody moron, no unique or attractive features, such a negative personality and absolutely toxic. No goals, nothing. I get so anxious about everything, yet at the same time I just don’t care. Been apart of these forums for a number of years, always coming back and repeating what I’ve said in the past. It’s not getting better, and there’s nothing that can change that. This mindset is miserable and I realize that, but it’s correct.
  11. Please don’t act like you’re interested in an activity I enjoy, and urge me to talk more about it.. only to have you completely ignore my enthusiasm later on when I try to speak.
  12. Absolutely not. I try to be as nice as possible, but fall short every time and come out looking fake no matter what. Bad temperament too, uninteresting.. just overall mood killer. It’s so friggin frustrating, I’d probably beat myself up lol
  13. Tired, but pretty hopeful. Life as a whole seems to be taking a turn for the better. Futurewise and just general goals.. I’m really looking forward to it finally. ☺️
  14. A ton of stuff is on my mind, so much so that it's all scrambled into a single word; dull. I don't know why, thing's are going ok. I'm talking to at least one person a day, even if I may dislike it. I've got a job and am earning steady money now, even if it's stressful (what job isn't, aside from your dream one.. even still). I'm gradually weening back into my hobby, the one positive I've to my name (to be honest isn't saying much, but regardless), even if it's tough and has me second guessing. I'm trying to be societies form of normal, and am somehow still failing because my mindset -even if I'm cooperating correctly- is so vastly different than the standard.. or least last I've heard.
  15. Not good at all. My body hasn't been this tired in so freakin' long, my normal routine of getting energetic isn't working anymore. I've also had on-and-off splitting headaches which have made me a snippy ignorant biotch as of recent. Christ.. I just want to be gone already.
  16. Welcome to DF, Brother. :) I wish there was uplifting advice I could give you (that wasn't generic), but since I'm also going through the same problem it makes it quite difficult. Have you thought of volunteering? I realize a number of people dislike this route, one being the problems you have also carry over to even this type of choice. However the feeling of doing something for free and knowing you'll be appreciated is easier than jumping into official work. As well, it's a stepping stone in confidence building. You'll be able to also show you're doing something productive during this downtime if you choose to put it on your resume. It's definitely a terrible situation to be in, especially when you suffer with depression/anxiety. Maybe some background information might be helpful in getting some better specific responses than what I've given? Are you currently being medically treated? Did you just lose your job? Have you gone to interviews and not heard back, which may have lead to all of these emotions you are suffering through? Is this something new, or have you had depressive episodes previous to this? I'm sorry I couldn't be of more help, I do wish you well in improving your mental health and eventually finding a job.
  17. Oh sweet, this thread got remade - I remember it! :) A lot of people fancy poems and writing around here, but I hope it's alright to post something visual. This is from a larger piece, but it's not yet done. Hopefully it looks ok as a standalone. :P
  18. Which is why I've said may, and have clearly indicated that it's risky. That's a good point about taking advantage of her being vulnerable, but when she's sprouting off "where are all the good guys at", that can definitely be a subtle hint OP's way. Or it could simply be venting. Without much more to go off of, we can only speculate.
  19. The minor examples you gave didn't seem to give off any hostile vibe, rather they're just opinions in responce to what you've wrote. Everyone is entitled to their own, it's how you react that'll determine a peaceful outcome or not. What's great about the internet is that at any given moment, you can simply walk away.
  20. I think this is pretty narrow minded thinking, honestly. The same could be said when the genders are switched; I've most definitely seen timid nice guys with a****** girls, it comes down to whatever floats that certain persons boat. Who is to say that they aren't happy as a couple? Who are we to judge what they're actually like behind closed doors? It's a shame however when it's unintentional, or when one of the people develops a completely different personality throughout a relationship.. which results in no longer meshing along side your own. It's troublesome when you're dealing with mental issues, but if you want to stand out or be with a specific someone, make it known. Because you didn't speak up - to put it quite bluntly - may have lost you an opportunity with someone who may have been a great match. The mistake is split both ways, though they did come to you in times of need (someone close to whom they trust). In the end, it takes two for a relationship to blossom, knowing when to properly reciprocate and taking risks. Lonelyforeigner makes a valid point also in regards to the 'nice guys' act. This isn't much in the way of advice, but just continue to be open to friendships (new & old) and watch for signs. Eventually one will stick.
  21. It's hard to determine how I feel right now. You think you're improving with time, but you're fooling no one. You physically try to present yourself with how you'd like to feel, but it's that of a simple act. People say when you smile it makes you feel happier.. I beg to differ. It drains what little energy you had with a end result resembling that of someone fake and warped. You can't change what swirls around in your mind. Minutes, hours, days, months.. years. Suggestions and advice just delay the inevitable, you'll always be you, though. Tomorrow will carry on regardless of this mind-game. It always does, sadly.
  22. "Time does not heal and you may never be the same. But each day that passes means you're surviving despite the pain." – Ms Moem
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