womanofthelight

Sure on this Shining Night, Morten Lauridsen with James Agee's Poem of the same name: Sure on this shining night Of starmade shadows round, Kindness must watch for me This side the ground. The late year lies down the north. All is healed, all is health. High summer holds the earth. Hearts all whole. Sure on this shining night I weep for wonder Wandering far alone Of shadows on the stars. It brings tears to my eyes. The good kind.

Hi, there. I have no children, but my mother actually said to me "every pregnancy is selfish; every pregnancy is a risk." I believe this is true. But we were made with all the parts required to reproduce, and I think this must be a drive in the human animal, whether conscious or unconscious. You are answering the call of your body and your deepest needs. This, I think, is good! You have a husband who loves you and the child you're carrying. This is a blessing. Maybe you can see your child as a blessing, too. What you're feeling is absolutely normal. (I've seen it with a couple of friends!) And rather than anxiety, maybe the wait can be a source of the anticipation of a great adventure.

Thank you, Duck. 😐

Hello, Bos -- Have you ever been medicated for Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder? If you have access to mental health services, you might look into it. Of course, they won't just give you pills (hopefully), but spend some time with you, familiarizing themselves with you and your physical/emotional/mental history. I'm so sorry you're hurting your hands by washing them to the point of injury. Certainly this pandemic has been a breeding ground for behaviors we have not, until this point, experienced. I wish I had better advice for you, but you've come to the right place if you want to be accepted and listened to with compassion. Also, the longer I live, the more I see that no one is just one thing. We are composed of myriad desires, truths, and needs, so being attracted to both guys and girls is nothing to fear or be ashamed of. Thinking of you, WOTL (womanofthelight)

Oh . . . the way I feel most of the time . . . like I wish I was dead.

I feel like I shouldn't have chugged that bottle of diet A&W root beer. Aspartame gives me migraines and tinnitus, so I'd better go to bed before the s h i t hits the fan.

This is a terrible idea. You're both needy right now; yours is sexual, his is emotional. It sounds as if you know what you want, and it doesn't seem to be compatible with what this guy wants. Your instinct is telling you to maintain boundaries. So do that. Listen to that voice inside you that says "no," or at best, "not now." When I was in high school, I had a teacher who had a very helpful approach to making a difficult decision. She said that If ANY part of you says "no," then "no" is the best answer. That advice has been proven to me to be correct. When I got into a relationship with the last man I was involved with, I was emotionally needy and physically h o r n y, and I ignored that doubting voice. I should have listened. My best wishes to you, whatever you decide.

Hi! I've been seeing a great therapist (since Covid-19 we've been doing phone appointments) who recently said the same thing to me. He posed it as a question, of course. Something like, "Would it be so bad if you just accepted this as part of who you are?" I gave it a great deal of thought, and though that thought doesn't help when I'm particularly anxious or weepy, in the scheme of things, it makes sense. For me. I've been depressed since early childhood, and my hoping to get over the next hill like a jolly rancher (!) is putting to much pressure on myself for results. And I'm a result-oriented person. Process is therefore painful for me, but as I age, I see that life has always been a process and my wanting everything resolved according to my expectation has added to the difficulty I have in this life. This world. This . . . whatever. Anyway, nice to meet you. WOTL

Like regret is eating me alive.

Like throwing all my belongings out the window; like they're just encumbrances.

Train whistle blowing

Nature, particularly desert landscape.

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