Hi Lisa. I'm new to the site as well. But I wanted to let you know you are not alone in how you feel. I suffer from depression as well and like you, am thought to have no reason to be depressed. According to everyone else, I should be happy. After all I have a great life.... Blah blah blah. In any case, I am very depressed and it affects every aspect of my life. For years I thought I had it under control. When in reality, I only hid it well. Now that I've actually admitted that I'm depressed and I don't try so hard to be strong for everyone else, I feel like my life has unravelled. I was teaching as well. It was the only thing that gave me true pleasure. But I started to feel like I couldn't hide anymore and that it would ultimately come out in front of the children so I began to withdraw and finally stopped teaching. Now I volunteer to babysit infants and toddlers for a moms group in my community. And although I rarely want to go, I always feel better after playing with those little angels. I'm probably just babibg at this point. But that being said, you are not alone. Just try and hang in there. Get your routine back and you'll be fine. It's never easy. But always worth it.