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captain_gauche

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  1. I like riding my bike in the woods like a wild man but I often get hurt. Art sounds less dangerous
  2. I have suffered self hatred and depression for years and covered it up. My wife is very angry and says I can talk to other people but obviously not her. I try to explain that is not the case but she does not understand. It's been hard enough to admit I have had a problem. Does anyone have any ways I can explain it to her?
  3. I have suffered self hatred and depression for years and covered it up. My wife is very angry and says I can talk to other people but obviously not her. I try to explain that is not the case but she does not understand. It's been hard enough to admit I have had a problem. Does anyone have any ways I can explain it to her?
  4. It took me about 22 years. Hiding behind a mask all this time has become habit. It's so hard to break the cycle.
  5. I am trying to figure out my feeling by writing them into a book. Things are pretty bleak in my head at the moment and I wonder if it will help. Has anyone else tried this?
  6. Hi. I have covered up how I feel inside for years and have finally decided to do something about it. The crushing self hatred. The snappy moods and anxiety. The crying to myself and doing stupid things to occupy my mind. Longing for attention even though there is a house full of people. Now its out I can't turn back.
  7. I feel like if I was really ill then I would not drag everyone down with me. But I saw what my brother having a brain tumour did to my mum. So I get stuck in a big circle
  8. It's a fight to get up each day and drag your feet about like some sort of godzilla. Staring at the ceiling thinking....Damn. Still alive.
  9. I have spent so long in my own she'll. Hiding from the truth. I struggle daily but life would seem ok to someone who does not understand. Why are you unhappy? You have a nice house and family.....If only it were that easy.
  10. I can relate to this so much. I act the clown to get noticed. Like craving for attention as I feel I am not worth knowing. I suffer anxiety and get short tempered. I don't drink as it makes me so much worse. My life is pretty good but I still hate me and find it so hard most days
  11. I have struggled for years inside but only recently started to deal with self hatred. When I am alone it is like a crushing loneliness which I feel I deserve. I don't seem to enjoy anything and disgust myself. I have no thoughts of harming myself but look at the ceiling each morning and think....Damn I woke up. I am seeing a councillor and have enlisted the help of the local mental health service but it seems to be pretty much the same.
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