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  1. The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" Topic (5)

    Really p***** off. Am on clonazepam fir side effects. My psychiatrist in his wisdom decided he didn’t want me on them any more, despite my protestations that my myclonic jerks s would return. Guess what? They returned. With a vengeance. Sitting here jerking like a puppet in the hands of someone having a seizure. Really angry.
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    No it makes it worse. People that don’t truly understand think it will go away if it’s own accord. Or that by thinking positively- like they do- you can overcome it. Most are well meaning but they often make you feel worse at least in my experience. Do you have anyone you can go to? A dr or psychiatrist? If you’re not on any medication they will help. As can psychotherapy. Good luck. You’re not alone here. All of us understand the abyss.
  3. I agree with mmoose- if your goals are too much- that can cause helplessness and a sense of failure. Try and reorganise them. Break them down into smaller, more manageable goals. Ones you can achieve. At worst, that can be as simple as getting out of bed. Taking a shower. Yoy can still have larger goals to aim fir- but by breaking them down into smaller, more achievable steps, you’re more likely to reach / achieve them. As to the not capable enough- I’ve fekt that many, many times. When I’ve been able to push through it, I’ve done better than I’ve hoped but often, I’ve given into the fear and insecurity and self-defeating mentality. You’re not alone.
  4. The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" Topic (5)

    I agree with everything said here.
  5. The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" Topic (5)

    Fir me- it always happens when I accept and love myself. Then I project positive vibes and find someone. So the only advice o can give is- try and love yourself. Accept yourself. Give online dating s try. May not lead to anything but at worst you can get chatting with guys. Good luck.
  6. I’m done

    I Understand how you feel. I’m tired too. Are you getting any help? Things are often never as bad as they seem. Is there anyone you can talk to?
  7. The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" Topic (5)

    I think live is hard even when there’s no complicating factors. Add in mental health problems and it can make it unbearable. Yet, it can also be the greatest thing you ever experience. Though it always ends too. Again in my experience. That said, I still don’t regret the lives I have. Itll happen one day. Likely when you least expect it. Keep the faith.
  8. Need to end it

    It’s never as bad as you feel. Difficult to see when you’re in the grip of it but it’s true. I agree with the others. Please contact a crisis line and please try and get professional help.
  9. You are NOT weak. Please believe that. You will healat your own pace. Please forgive yourself and give yourself a break. PTSD is a complex illness and unfortunately won’t go away overnight. But you will heal and progress. Keep the faith.
  10. The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" Topic (5)

    Your life isn’t pathetic. You’re struggling. It makes everything look worse. Is there someone you can talk to?
  11. The "How Do You Feel Right Now?" Topic (5)

    Yeah I can understand that. Love and hope are two of the worst emotions.
  12. There’s a fantastic prom called desiderata that has a lot of wise words one is- do not compare yourself to others you will become vain or bitter and I’ve found it’s so, so true I’ve also found, externally projecting anything is a futile exercise as it’s our own perceptions we tend to see in others We only have our own window on reality- which is already a distorted and biased one- add in mental health issues and it gets further distorted imo
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    Every cloud....
  14. Ruminating on the past is s major feature of depression. I’ve read a few studies that indicate ruminatory thinking is actually a good indicator of future diagnosis of depression. Mill bet every sufferer has had similar thoughts the only advice I can offer is - it’s dangerous to compare yourself to others. Especially when depressed. As you tend to see the negative in yourself and the (projected) positives in others. You sound bright, reflective (ruminating) and have educated yourself well on the conditions you suffer. I agree with Phillip- please please seek out professional help fir your low mood. maybe psychotherapy can help you. Us there any guidance counsellors st your Uni? The study you’ve accomplishrd so far isn’t fit naught. You may be able to switch over to some other course. I used to feel the same as you. That I’m getting too old. That has gotten easier as I’ve gotten older. It is symptomatic of how you’re feeling. Pkease give yourself a break.