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  1. Feeling calm right now and tired.  I have a new routine that I set up with my online therapist and it really helps me to relax and feel in control of my emotions.  The routine involves breathing, positive self-talk, meditation and visualization, which is a type of exposure therapy.

  2. Hi everyone. This is a really great thread about PTSD. Thank you to those that posted the informative articles. I was officially diagnosed with PTSD by my online therapist 2 days ago. I've had it for a year or more now, but it was never diagnosed as this is the first time I've sought help for the problem. My official diagnoses are Dental Phobia, Anxiety (With Panic Attacks) and PTSD. Long story short, I have been repeatedly traumatized by dentist and other doctors/professionals who work with teeth including specialists. I've needed a lot of dental work over the years and I'm only 29. The trauma first started at age 9 and has gotten worse and worse ever since. The phobia started at age 9 and has gotten increasingly worse. It became a full blown phobia in 2011, when I was 24. My therapist and I are working on CBT and exposure therapy. My current dentist is aware of my issues and he is also helping me with exposure therapy as a part of my dental treatments. I've got a good team together now and we are on the road to getting me back to good dental and emotional health. JJ
  3. Hi Long Journey. Thank you for your reply and support. I thought about that, but it's hard for me to talk on the phone for this, as I don't have a private place to do it. I'm really enjoying this so far as I can write to her whenever I think of something and we can talk as little or as much during the day as we want. It's really helpful, because at this point I really need a lot of extra support and guidance. Thanks. JJ
  4. Hi allalone6. Thank you for your reply. It sounds like it would've helped if it weren't for finances. Thank you for sharing. JJ
  5. Hi Dolphin. Thank you for your support. I too am very glad that I finally found a dentist who can and will help me. JJ
  6. Spent a grand total of 2 hours and 45 minutes at the dentist today between two appointments.  Now that everything is over for the time being I'm feeling oddly emotional.  I feel like I want to cry.  Next dental appointment is in a week on May 4 th.

  7. Hi Lauryn. Thank you. Everything went well. I don't know if I told you before but this is a new dentist who I've seen 5 times now. The last sedation/phobia dentist I saw before chose to end our working relationship. I don't think he could handle my emotional state. I'm seeing Dr. C. now and I'm starting to trust him. I like him a lot. He's very compassionate, gentle and patient. He also offer nitrous oxide which really helps me a lot. We have decided to use it for now, but to eventually taper me off of it as I become more comfortable with Dr. C. and the office. JJ
  8. Hi everyone. I've decided to try online therapy to help me with my dental phobia and anxiety. I'm not really sure what to expect, as I've never tried it before. I'm hopeful that it will help. I'm also glad that I'm now working with a new dentist who is compassionate and gentle. He understands what I'm going through with my phobia and anxiety and he's very patient with me. I hope in time we will build a trusting relationship. Right now I'm having a hard time trusting him due to my past bad experiences with other dentists. I want to trust him, but something in my mind is holding me back. I'm wondering if anyone on here has ever tried online therapy and how it worked for them. The site I'm using is a not real time messaging site where you can leave messages/posts any time of day or night for your therapist and they can reply back to you whenever they're able to. They try to reply back as soon as possible and don't usually go more than 24 hours without replying. There is also options for phone call sessions or video chat sessions for an extra fee. I don't feel comfortable with these and I'll only be using the messaging feature. The nice thing is that the first week (7 days) are free. There is no limit to how many times you and your therapist can talk during the day or week. I'm hopeful, but nervous about this. Anyone who has input on this please share. Thank you. JJ
  9. Tired and anxious. Couldn't sleep well last night because of my appointment with the dentist today. I'll be leaving soon and I'm a bundle of nerves.
  10. Feeling very anxious right now. Have a dental appointment tomorrow morning. I know this is with the dentist I started seeing who's really compassionate and gentle, but I still get really scared and anxious when I go to the dentist. I hope I don't have a panic attack while I'm there.
  11. Hi everyone. I've decided to try online therapy to help me with my dental phobia and anxiety. I'm not really sure what to expect, as I've never tried it before. I'm hopeful that it will help. I'm also glad that I'm now working with a new dentist who is compassionate and gentle. He understands what I'm going through with my phobia and anxiety and he's very patient with me. I hope in time we will build a trusting relationship. Right now I'm having a hard time trusting him due to my past bad experiences with other dentists. I want to trust him, but something in my mind is holding me back. I'm wondering if anyone on here has ever tried online therapy and how it worked for them. The site I'm using is a not real time messaging site where you can leave messages/posts any time of day or night for your therapist and they can reply back to you whenever they're able to. They try to reply back as soon as possible and don't usually go more than 24 hours without replying. There is also options for phone call sessions or video chat sessions for an extra fee. I don't feel comfortable with these and I'll only be using the messaging feature. The nice thing is that the first week (7 days) are free. There is no limit to how many times you and your therapist can talk during the day or week. I'm hopeful, but nervous about this. Anyone who has input on this please share. Thank you. JJ
  12. Feeling very anxious right now.  Have a dental appointment tomorrow.  I know this is with the dentist I started seeing who's really compassionate and gentle, but I still get really scared and anxious when I go to the dentist.  I hope I don't have a panic attack while I'm there.

  13. Hi all. Time for another update here. On Thursday, 3/24/16, I had to have an emergency dental appointment with my new dentist, Dr. C. My upper front, left tooth felt loose, has been hurting constantly, a throbbing pain, pain with biting or chewing and sensitivity to cold and hot and basically typical root canal type symptoms. This was my first time going to the office and meeting my new dentist so I was really nervous. They treated this like my new patient exam. The assistant took x-rays of all the teeth, especially the painful one. Then I met my new dentist Dr. C. and he did a full examination with special focus on the problem tooth. He gave me my treatment plan including, 4 crowns (1 with a post and core buildup), a good dental cleaning (possible deep cleaning depending on the hygenist’s evaluation) and a possible root canal treatment on my painful front tooth. No new cavities, so I was thankful for that. He wanted me to try an antibiotic first to see if it would settle the tooth down and then re-evaluate the tooth later. I arrived early to fill out new patient paper work (since it was my first appointment). It was only two pages and it seemed pretty thorough to me. The forms asked about things that not all offices ask about. It asked if I was nervous/fearful at the dentist. It asked if I'd ever had a previous bad experience at a dental office.I think my first impression was right and that this office is geared towards anxious patients and the doctor and staff are really focused on patient comfort.The doctor was very nice and thorough. He tried to be gentle, but he talked me through every step and told me what feelings to expect, which really helps me. A lot of the examination hurt, but that's only because my teeth are in bad shape.The loose, painful front tooth is a bit of a mystery. He said the x-rays of the tooth looked fine and I had no decay in it. He thinks that the tooth was injured during my braces treatment and it is acting like an injured tooth. He started me on antibiotics and when I go back for my cleaning on April 7th, he's going to re-check the tooth to see if it's better, worse or the same. If it's still feeling the same I will have a root canal treatment on the tooth that day. The condition the tooth has is called 'irreversible pulpitis'. I will have a regular cleaning on April 7th and the hygenist will check my gums for pockets at that time also. If necessary I will have a deep cleaning that day. I'm curious to see if my gum pockets are the same or worse than the last time I had them checked 9 months ago.I took my herbal supplements before the appointment and my anxiety was actually manageable that day. I wasn't nearly as nervous or anxious as I thought I'd be. The doctor's manner and tone of voice really put me at ease. I really like him as a doctor and as a person. I think I'm on my way to building a trusting relationship with him. He also explains things to you, so even though he talks to his assistant in dental terminology, he still takes the time to explain things to you and show you on x-rays what he's talking about.I took my usual letter and packet explaining my anxiety/phobia to him, but I wasn't able to hand it to him myself. I think he could tell I was nervous (because I was very fidgety with my hands), but he was really good with me, very patient. At the end of the appointment I gave the packet to his assistant and asked her to have him look at it for me. I explained to her what it was and why I put it together. The office was very busy, so I don't think he would've had time to look at it if I gave it to him while he was doing my exam.So, I had my new patient examination and x-rays. Over all I'd say it was a positive experience. I can't explain it but something about the doctor and his mannerisms and bedside manner, just put me at ease. I started taking an antibiotic for my front tooth Thursday, 3/24/16 after my dental appointment. The antibiotic was Amoxicillin. I was supposed to take it for 7 days. The day after I started taking it I started to get pretty sick. Had a low grade fever, abdominal pain, nausea, fatigue and a pain level of 8 out of 10. My guess is that this was either an allergy to the medicine or the medicine aggravated one of my chronic health issues. It was a high dose of Amoxicillin, 875 mg twice a day. I have a digestive chronic health issues, called Diverticulosis. My diet has been good, so other than taking that antibiotic I haven’t done anything to aggravate the condition. Sunday, 3/17/16, I ended up going to Urgent Care after work and they referred me to the Emergency Room just to be safe. They weren’t sure if it was the medicine or Appendicitis and they didn’t have the equipment to diagnose me there. I went to the ER and was there for 5 hours. They did a CT scan and found nothing wrong other than the diverticulosis that I already know about. They did blood work and other various tests and I was on IV fluids. The doctor wasn’t sure what was wrong with me, but the diagnosis was ‘abdominal pain’ possibly related to the diverticulosis. The pain gradually got better. I think the antibiotic was just too strong for my body. I am very hypersensitive to foods and medications and my dentist knows this. I called the office today, to tell them that I stopped the medication and to see if he wants to put me on something else. The new office returned my call and the dentist called in a new medication for me, Azithromycin, a 3 day course. The tooth is still hurting also, so the antibiotic didn’t help even in the 3 full days I took it. It's been a rough couple of days. The reaction to the old antibiotic has passed. I finished taking the new antibiotic I was prescribed, Azithromycin, yesterday. It was a 3 day course and I tolerated it much better.My anxiety has been pretty high the last couple of days. On Wednesday morning, 3/30/16, I got a voice mail from my new dentist, Dr. C., saying that he wanted to chat on the phone. I wasn't sure what he wanted to talk about and if it was good or bad, so I got really anxious waiting to be able to talk to him. We played phone tag until Friday morning, 4/1/16. It was his day off and mine too, so it was the easiest time for us both to talk. I'm happy to say that the phone call went really well. Keep in mind that I gave him the letter and packet I put together at our first visit and I didn't know how he'd react to my anxiety and issues.He acknowledged that he'd read the letter and other contents of the packet and thought about it. He said that the anxiety I deal with is normal and nothing to be ashamed of. He said that he has other anxious patients and that they all deal with it in different ways. He's willing to work with me to do whatever he can to put me at ease during treatments. We went over my treatment plan again over the phone. He asked how my front, top tooth has been and I told him it's still the same symptoms and pain, even though I was done with the antibiotic. He's concerned about the tooth, but I have an appointment already set up on the 7th and I'll get my cleaning that day and he'll also re-examine and test the tooth at that time. It's still a possible root canal treatment. After that he wants to do one crown for me first, just to see how I handle the treatment and anxiety. Then we'll go from there.I'm so happy that we had the chance to talk. I feel relieved now. He's going to help me through all this and he's willing to let me take breaks as needed or stop during treatments to ask questions. He said it's up to me if I want to be told step by step what's going on or if I prefer not to know. I think I'd rather be told, but we'll try it and see what happens.It's just a load off my mind that we've spoken now. I was so afraid that he wouldn't be able to work with me, but I'm really glad that he's willing to.I think my first impression of Dr. C. and his office was correct. I think we're on our way to developing a trusting relationship together.Thanks for listening. I’ll keep you all posted. JJ
  14. Hi all. Right now I'm feeling a mixture of excited, tired and anxious. I'm excited to be in my new job and on a new schedule. Just feeling tired physically and emotionally. I'm anxious because now with my new job and new insurance I can finally get my health back in order. I have to see my regular doctor for a few things. I need to get a new pair of glasses, because this prescription is getting fuzzy now after a couple of years. The biggest thing is my dental health. I'd put it on hold due to finances and lack of insurance, so now it's time to get going on that again. Still need to get 4 crowns. I'm having to see a new office now. Never met the doctor, but I go in on April 7, for my new patient exam, x-rays and soon I need to get a cleaning. A lot of anxiety right now. A lot of bad memories are re-surfacing. I just hope I do ok at the appointment and not be overly anxious or fearful. I hope everyone is doing well. JJ
  15. Hi everyone. I see it's been awhile since I've been on here. I have some updates. So, in regards to my overall health, I got over strep throat recently. Had it for a couple of weeks and it's better now. During the same time I was diagnosed with Acute Thyroiditis, which is a complication of the strep. Basically the strep infected my thyroid, so I had to take a steroid medication in pill form to get that back under control. Over here we have a lot of pollens, so now it's allergy season. They're saying it's one of the worst on record in several years, so everyone has seasonal allergies right now. I think I told you about my new job awhile back. I'm working at a hospital right now. Started there on October 24, 2015 and was a contractor until March 4, 2016. I'm still at the same facility, but now I'm a permanent employee, as of March 6, 2016. I'm really excited. I love this job and the people I work with and our patients. As for the dental side, all is well right now. No problems currently with my teeth or gums. My new insurance through work kicks in on March 20, 2016. I'm planning to schedule a dental appointment in early April. I had a bit of a rough start because this is a new dental office. I've never been there before and never even met the doctor. I re-scheduled one appointment already, due to work. I missed another appointment just due to my own fear and anxiety. So, I'm not calling them yet until I know for sure that I can and will go. The good thing about the new job is that I will have some week days off and work some weekends. That will definitely help my anxiety, as I won't feel rushed during my dental appointments and have to rush back to work after. So, right now I'm feeling nervous. My first appointment with the new office will be a new patient exam. Then I'll have to schedule a cleaning. Then the real work begins. I still have 4 molars with root canal treatments that need crowns. I also will have to ask the new doctor about my other issues, like the external root resorption in 2 or 3 teeth and whatever else he may find. I'll have to find out if I’m still in early periodontal disease or if it's gotten better or worse. So many unknowns really make me nervous. The good thing is that with my new job, I'm a federal employee, so the benefits I signed up for will really help with the cost. I have a high amount with my dental insurance, so they will cover half of all major work (including crowns) and the annual maximum allowed is high. So many things I've been waiting to do, but I was waiting on this new job and insurance. I also have to get my glasses prescription renewed. I'm near sighted, so I can see near, but not far without glasses. My current pair is two or more years old, and I can tell the prescription is getting fuzzy now. Time for a new pair. Oh, also I really researched my insurances before I chose them. My new dentist who I want to start seeing, Dr. C., is on the insurance approved list and if I ever have to have root canal work done or re-done my endodonist, Dr. G., is also on the insurance approved list. That was one of my big worries was that I wouldn't be able to continue seeing them both. I think that's all for the update. It's really just dental anxiety and fear starting to build up again. I hope you are all doing well. I'll have to read your recent posts soon. Thanks. JJ
  16. Hi everyone. Sorry I haven't been on in awhile. Emotionally I've been doing well recently. Went to Urgent Care last night and got diagnosed with strep throat. So, today took a sick day, because the doctor insisted I stay home from work and rest. On antibiotics, at home resting today. I hope everyone is doing well. JJ
  17. Hi everyone.  Sorry I haven't been on in awhile.  I've been doing well emotionally recently.   Went to Urgent Care last night and got diagnosed with strep throat. So, today took a sick day, because the doctor insisted I stay home from work and rest. On antibiotics, at home resting today.

  18. Mixed feelings right now. Just found out that my ex is dating again. I'm still alone, so I'm upset about that. Not sure if I'm more upset with him or myself. Then I think back to my more recent relationship (different ex) and realize how I let myself get abused. I still haven't come back from that. Some things I wish I could forget forever. JJ
  19. Been feeling really tired and sick all day. I feel dizzy every time I stand up, but I don't know why. Ready to turn into bed early tonight. JJ
  20. I finished my first week of work at my new job. Feeling really exhausted right now. JJ
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