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ICanSpellThornwell

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  1. Sometimes the darkness feels comforting because you can't see the truth of who you are. 

  2. How can we get over hating ourselves on a level no one else can? 

  3. Has anyone ever found their true love on Depression Forums? I would love to hear some stories. 

    1. ICanSpellThornwell
    2. gandolfication

      gandolfication

      Cool question.  Love that you know of these people @CoolCat7

       

  4. How are the new ventures going? Miss seeing your encouragement on here. You started a new blog and Facebook page, right?

    1. RiverLight

      RiverLight

      Hey Thornwell! Awwww, thanks! I do have a new blog and Facebook page and both are taking off quite nicely! I've been spending a lot of time on them. And yeah, I haven't been on DF much over the last several weeks... too much going on IRL! How are you these days? Nice to see ya! =) =)

    2. ICanSpellThornwell

      ICanSpellThornwell

      I'm good. I accepted a new job so I will be very limited in time. I won't be on here much but that does mean I get to focus more on doing other things that will build a good foundation for me to build on in the future. Glad to see you and great to hear about the trajectory of your blog! Thanks for the update. 

    3. RiverLight

      RiverLight

      Congrats on your new job!!! :Coopclapping:Hooray for you!!!! I'm happy for you. =) =) And thanks so much about my blog, etc... I am having a blast with it! Take good care of yourself.... HUGS!

  5. As I was typing earlier this song came on my Pandora. Made me think of you. 

    Swing Life Away
    Am I loud and clear, or am I breaking up?
    Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck?
    Are we getting closer, or are we just getting more lost?
    I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
    Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
    Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words
    We live on front porches and swing life away,
    We get by just fine here on minimum wage
    If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
    I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand
    I've been here so long, I think that it's time to move
    The winter's so cold, summer's over too soon
    Let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow
    I've got some friends, some that I hardly know
    But we've had some times, I wouldn't trade for the world
    We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go
    We live on front porches and swing life away
    We get by just fine here on minimum wage
    If love is a labor I'll slave till the end
    I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand until you hold my hand
    I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
    Let's compare scars, I'll tell you whose is worse
    Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words
    We live on front porches and swing life away
    We get by just fine here on minimum wage
    If love is a labor I'll slave till the end
    I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand
    Swing life away
    Swing life away
    Swing life away
    Swing life away
  6. Your length of writing is perfect. Thanks for sharing. So glad you're here. Although I can't say I completely understand what you're going through I know you'll find a great group of people here who have been in that exact spot you find yourself in. There are so many caring people here and I would love to see your story develop and ultimately see you flourish even as your battling some pretty weighty stuff. Again, I'm happy you found this online family you can belong to.
  7. I found this the other day and thought of you. Not sure if I've shared this with you before. 

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    1. RiverLight

      RiverLight

      OMG! I LOVE THIS!!!!!! =) =) =) THANK YOU! That made me smile.

  8. “A man can no more diminish God's glory by refusing to worship Him than a lunatic can put out the sun by scribbling the word 'darkness' on the walls of his cell.” 

    C.S. Lewis | The Problem of Pain

    1. gandolfication

      gandolfication

      C.S. Lewis was one of the authors I probably read more than any other in my grammar and high school years...I took a class on him in college.

      Always an interesting writer and thinker.  When I was a Christian, I thought his apologetics--and more the way he wrote about them--were brilliant.  Though in time, I would come to dismiss some of what I saw as flawed or overly-rosy logic of it.  

      The lunatic is a lunatic because the rest of us can literally see, feel, test and experience the sun.  Not so with an invisible, silent deity.  In fact, those who hear voices (schizophrenia and the like) are indistinguishable on this point from the religiously fervent who hear god speaking to them.  Early cave men understandably were sometimes thought to believe their own inner monologues were the voices of gods speaking to them.  Don't mean to get into 'debate' here, but hopefully it's okay to share from my own journey.  (I remain open and humble and in many ways seeking, even if not finding, a higher power).

    2. ICanSpellThornwell

      ICanSpellThornwell

      Thank you so much for sharing your journey with me. I appreciate hearing how other people gravitate towards or away from faith in the God of the bible. 

  9. Hey Aly. Just checking in. Thinking of you lately. 

    1. Waffles

      Waffles

      Thank you for checking up on me I cant express how much it means to me. I am back from holiday now, father took me on a tour of the middle east (in between his business meetings) on the way back :flowers: 

      how have things been for you? I hope that we can speak on df chat some time soon, or perhaps pm.

  10. Glad you're here Shadows. You're in a great place and we are glad to support you any way we can. It's a great thing to hear that things have improved, even if it's just a bit.
  11. I'm so sorry you're in this position. It must be extremely difficult for your marriage to constantly be pulled from both ends. There are so many resources out there that I think can help you. I'd like to give you some information from various sources but to do so here would be seen as soliciting. Since I operate from a Christian worldview I would say you should google something like "christian counselors" or something similar. What I'm not saying here is that spirituality will heal everything. There may be something medically wrong here that should be diagnosed by a doctor. I hope the best for you and pray that you are able to find what you're looking for.
  12. You've come to the right place, Vosty. There are so many great people who will be more than happy to connect with you. Get in there and mix it up in the chat rooms and find out who's on the same track as you. There are a handful of users, much like @GSpolar, who are always super helpful in making new people feel welcome. Glad you're here. I look forward to seeing your story unfold and hopefully in the end you can find healing for what ails you. God bless.
  13. I'm so sorry, Penguin, that you've been treated as you have been. Without taking sides I can see where your roommates come from. It may be because they misunderstand depression completely or they may be using your depression as a cover to get out of an odd situation. In either case, or whatever else is going on, I hope you find a place where people are are comfortable with your diagnosis and willing to walk with you through it instead of exploiting it for their own good or using it as a scapegoat to blame all their own problems on. It's hard having that label placed on you because that's the only thing some people ever see. They don't realize how great of a person you are or how hard each day is for you to get through, they just want to say "oh, she has depression, best leave her alone or she might try to off herself if we offend her". Praying that you find some peace and joy apart from those who label you. Hang in there you are worth it.
  14. SonofTom, I know exactly what you're going through. Losing a friend is like having a piece of your heart ripped out, even more so, when it's been built up over time. You are losing a friend to what seems like other gains for him/her when the whole time you feel like the floor has just fallen out from underneath you. I spent so much time pouring into Sarah, spending so much time with her, learning her personality and character, trying to dissuade her from self harm and though we shared an unspeakable bond, she refused to ever let anyone close. Of course she's not the only one but when it comes to friendship and being close she's the one that continually comes to mind. I'm so sorry you're going through this loss and would love to see your story evolve and grow as you find beauty and joy in the fact that you're worth it no matter who comes or goes.
  15. It physically pains me to read your story, @Bipolarkitty. I could feel your anguish and grief as I read your post. I am so very sorry you have been through so much on your own. I know there are so many people here who want to surround you and just love on you during this time. The people here, and the community created, remind me of something C.S, Lewis said in his book, Surprised by Joy. “Nothing, I suspect, is more astonishing in any man's life than the discovery that there do exist people very, very like himself.” I hope you are able to build up joy in the midst of your hardships. I pray that you will be able to find a reason to grow with excitement for your future and that you will continue to surround yourself with those who love you. God bless!
  16. I get it Grounded, I'm not a man of many words either. There are so many amazing people here you can connect with who have been in the same boat as you. Looking forward to engaging with you and having some great conversations as you move towards hope and healing.
  17. Hey Nashville! Glad you're here. I hope you find some people to connect with who can really get behind those feelings creeping in and help you get rid of them. There are so many good people who know exactly what you're going through and can help. Looking forward to seeing your story blossom and unfold as you find light in the midst of your darkness.
  18. “Those speak foolishly who ascribe their anger or their impatience to such as offend them or to tribulation. Tribulation does not make people impatient, but proves that they are impatient. So everyone may learn from tribulation how his heart is constituted.” Martin Luther
  19. “The torture of a bad conscience is the hell of a living soul.” John Calvin
  20. Haven't heard from you in a while. Missing you over here!

  21. Sean, I can't imagine what you're going through. I would be at a huge loss to see my wife going through depression. Have you guys considered group counseling? I think her being able to open up to others in front of you may help your relationship. It couldn't hurt, right? I hope you are able to walk with her in the valley so that you can help her climb the mountain of joy on the other side. This darkness does not have to last forever. Praying for you and your family.
  22. Thank you so much for being here and for literally pouring yourself out for the DF family to come alongside you. You've been through so much and though I can't relate personally, I know there are going to be people here who have been exactly in your place. I look forward to seeing you grow and thrive as you interact with the people here. God bless.
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