ahiddensmile

Feeling somewhat hated. So not well at all. Confused and alone.

:rock:

Empty inside. I don't feel much of anything.

I have realized over the past few years that I do enjoy making other people happy, even if that means overloooking my needs or feelings in life. At first, it made me feel like a better person to want to better others, but now it is just so taxing and I don't even know what makes me really happy anymore. I feel as if the whole gaming ordeal is just a way to pass the time until the next day. I am able to live the life of someone or something else for those few hours a night virutally, and forget about my problems, only to have them come right back the next day. I have had many people ask me what makes me happy, or what do I want to do in life, and I just don't know anymore. @Unsure119 I can relate to this a lot the feelings of what makes me truly happy. I myself don't know no more. I do however help others a lot and make there days. In a way it helps me but not all the time. Might take me more time to find my happiness or joy of life.

Going get ready to watch 3 movies I have not seen. Movie day!

I have to agree with Laury took the words right out of my mouth. There someone out there for you if not her and if she moved on. You never really forget your first love. And always in some way feel that special feeling with them. (my opinion) But there someone else out there for you. Who knows when you'll meet them. Maybe they'll find you. Stay strong my friend.

If she seems interesting in you then I say go for it. Rejection can suck I know but there always someone out there for us if it dose not work out. Hope it goes well for you.

I had toast with some milk.

Well I would feel sad if you'd vanished. -- Alright though a tad bit lonely and sorta lost.

Sleep and wanting to talk to a friend on here.

When people you think will be there and be real with you end up being a whole different person and leave.

On here posting some after my little break I had from the computer. Planing on what to do today. Wanting more sleep. :/

Alright Fine for the most part curious

If I'm liked on here or anywhere. Then there is a point I don't get with myself. Why I fight hard for others at times but not myself...

Proud I spend time with my older sister today and we laughed like we used to when we were younger. I really missed that..