Hey, I am new here as well, and similar to you was reluctant to join a forum such as this. But I think it is definitely helpful. Also, I can relate to losing the majority of my friends, sadly. Looking back over the past few years, I can understand why and I know now it is not because I wasn't a good friend. I simply became so distant and secluded myself with my disorder. Hope you find helpful support here :) Thanks so much. I think it's nice to know there's other people out there who are experiencing similar things!! :)