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Dpchick

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  1. On top of that I'm hating my life. I should be in college partying making new friends and enjoying life yet I'm stuck in a board and lodge with nothing to do all day and I'm getting more and more depressed
  2. Antipsychotics have me 100lbs overweight. I'm really depressed about it. Even getting suicidal thoughts. Just need ppl to make me feel better
  3. So in the corner of my eye there is a purple dot/floater/sparkle and below it there is turquoise one. They change colors often going from blue/pink to light green/orange. Are these things indicators for my sexuality? Bc every time I focus on the purple one I react and do things (mainly in body language and voice tone) that indicates that I'm sexually attracted to boys but when I focus on the green/orange I repell guys and I don't even remember what I say but they seem weirded out and the most important part is that ON THE BAD GIRLS CLUB SOME LESBIAN GIRL WAS LIKE "yeah that girls deff lesbian she deff she's two blue balls"...... *** DPEA THAT MEAAAANNN????????????
  4. Thanks everyone I guess what I'm trying to say is why would anyone want me here? I don't feel like I'm a good part of anyone's day no ones excited to see me. I don't even understand the point of life I guess it's just simply to live but I don't see a point in living if I'm gonna be living a life that I don't want to live... I want friends more than anything. I want ppl to remind me that I'm important and give me attention. I don't like the idea of a therapist bc it's a person being paid to care. It feels fake.
  5. Guess no one cares. Shoulda already known. Everyone's too busy worried about themselves and their own agendas. Life isn't for people like me..
  6. Convince me otherwise. Gimme a good reason why I should stay. Loved ones? Never had any real friends. Family only cares about money. I live life on a loop doing the same thing everyday. I'm broke af in debt actually. I'm fat. I hate life and I wanna go to a place where all I feel is happiness and joy for forever and NEVER relive this experience
  7. I'm really sorry and I hope things get better. Try seeing a psychiatrist, get you some good medication, and a therapist! Take care. Much love
  8. I'll be your friend. And don't worry have a little hope and you'll find friends! Much love (hugs)
  9. I'm really sorry that this is happening to you. No one deserves it. Been through it myself. Please find a psychiatrist and a therapist. There is therapy that can help you become more mindful and experience things in a way that feels more genuine and real. Above all try to stay positive. Much love.
  10. I would look up the symptoms of bipolar AND see a psychiatrist. Feel better buddy. Much love
  11. Sorry to hear your roommates have betrayed your trust. Gossip is a sad facet of human behaviour. I hope you find some better friends soon. Don't let one group of people sour you to humanity. (((hugs))) Lauryn Thank you so much
  12. I don't have much to say but I really hope it works out for you guys!!! And btw your English is awesome! French is my first language too but I learned English when I was like 2 so I'm way better at English now.. Anyways totally unrelated best of wishes to you and your boyfriend
  13. Watching videos of cute cats and dogs especially the ones with them interacting with babies or small children
  14. Yes everyone does. Can you take a step to say hello to some of the people at college? A simple hello every time you see the same person? Something small, something to get the ball rolling. It's going to take some effort on your part though, are you willing it give it a go? -yes I am :)
  15. Not having friends is making me really sad. I get sad that my college years are almost half way over and I still don't have a close knit group of friends. I haven't experienced what I thought I'd experience. Since my family isn't close at all I wish to create my own family with friends but it seems like I'm all alone. I'm super lonely. No one I can trust to talk to about this. no one to laugh with. No one to be silly with. I know it'll come eventually and I just need to be patient. But patience is how you act while you're waiting for something.. So it is bad that I'm sad while I wait for some genuine people to come into my life? I went through the same thing when I was your age and you can make friends but you have to force your self to go out of your shy shell and talk to people. I'm now 50 years old and I have made friends that lasted 30 years. But, just like life, friends come and go over the years. You have to get out there despite your reservations and actually connect with people. Talk to people in your classes. Join a club. In the end, you can't wait for people to come into your life--you have to reciprocate. Go out there and get it! Best wishes! :-) Thanks
  16. Not having friends is making me really sad. I get sad that my college years are almost half way over and I still don't have a close knit group of friends. I haven't experienced what I thought I'd experience. Since my family isn't close at all I wish to create my own family with friends but it seems like I'm all alone. I'm super lonely. No one I can trust to talk to about this. no one to laugh with. No one to be silly with. I know it'll come eventually and I just need to be patient. But patience is how you act while you're waiting for something.. So it is bad that I'm sad while I wait for some genuine people to come into my life?
  17. Maybe try getting into something you enjoy like drawing or singing or some kind of physical activity. That'll give you some joy but as to connecting with someone else I'd say that has to do if your energy synchs with theirs and if you have similar perspectives and opinions (but not always). But the energy has a lot to do with it. You should probably soul search and really find yourself. That's what helped me talk to people. Gotta start with yourself.
  18. So me and my roommates were getting along great until recently. They've been talking sh!t behind my back and it's really annoying me. They'll be all buddy buddy with each other and then make comments about me in front of me to each other. One of them is just a straight b!tch. It makes me feel bad cus I told them about my schizophrenia and opened up to them about other things. I hate that I felt like I could trust them. They aren't my friends. They are b!tches. Thinking about it last night made all these bad feelings sink in like that I won't ever find true friends... Im getting signs that tell me stay positive but for now I wanna be sad about it. But idk when enough is enough. When should I stop feeling bad and go back to having a positive outlook and try to make friends. From now on I'm avoiding them. I don't wanna talk to people who talk badly about me and especially behind my back. I haven't felt bad like this in a while so I wanna keep anyone who makes me feel like this out of my life
  19. Sometimes I feel like I'm super masculine like with the way I sit or I feel like people see as a masculine person but I dress really girly. Sometimes I pretend I have a d**k so I can get a bj from a girl. And when I watch porn I always pretend I'm the guy having sex with the girl never the other way around. But Its not like I'm uncomfortable with being a girl. I enjoy being a girl I just think about being a guy sometimes. These thoughts started like two years ago after my first psychotic episode. I'm 19 now. Can anyone else relate?
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