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Toy Story, The Truman Show

Toy Story, The Truman Show

Life ****ing sucks. I keep making the same mistakes. I can't change it. This is who I am. I see no light.

Life ****ing sucks. I keep making the same mistakes. I can't change it. This is who I am. I see no light.

Life ****ing sucks. I keep making the same mistakes. I can't change it. This is who I am. I see no light.

I'm very bored. That's why I texted this girl too much (like almost spammed) that I've been texting with and I think I blew it up :(

I'm very bored. That's why I texted this girl too much (like almost spammed) that I've been texting with and I think I blew it up :(

Hi,
I'm in a situation where I'm very depressed. I'm alone almost 24/7. I do go to a youth activity center three times a week, but I have not been able to make friends. And I don't know what to do with friends anyway. It's like the only thing is to get super drunk to have a good time in this country. I don't like drinking.
I have almost no interests. That's a huge part of why I'm depressed.
I have been thinking about going to a foreign country. I was planning a trip, but then a huge storm struck there so I'm not so sure. I am gonna go somewhere, but I don't know where. The people I was in contact with from that country aren't responding.
Basically I'm gonna maybe try to stay in the country I'll travel to if I like it there. But it is gonna be hard to get longer residence, so maybe I'm gonna have to travel back to my original country where I'm depressed as hell. I'm gonna have to live with my parents for at least a while in that case.
So like I don't know why I'm writing this even. It just seems like a hopeless situation for me. Advice or anything else is appreciated.

There's a Thai restaurant I go to every week which has good spicy soup and good food and there's a nice waitress there and she sometimes even gives me mini Kit Kat for free after I pay for the food.

There's a Thai restaurant I go to every week which has good spicy soup and good food and there's a nice waitress there and she sometimes even gives me mini Kit Kat for free after I pay for the food.

There's a Thai restaurant I go to every week which has good spicy soup and good food and there's a nice waitress there and she sometimes even gives me mini Kit Kat for free after I pay for the food.

There's a Thai restaurant I go to every week which has good spicy soup and good food and there's a nice waitress there and she sometimes even gives me mini Kit Kat for free after I pay for the food.

The Beatles - Eleanor Rigby

Better do something simple right, than something complex wrong.

Better do something simple right, than something complex wrong.

Some day I would like to move to another country so maybe I could be happy and not depressed. Also have kids.

The Beatles - Eleanor Rigby

Some day I would like to move to another country so maybe I could be happy and not depressed. Also have kids.

The Beatles - Eleanor Rigby

The Beatles - Eleanor Rigby

Some day I would like to move to another country so maybe I could be happy and not depressed. Also have kids.

Some day I would like to move to another country so maybe I could be happy and not depressed. Also have kids.

Music
 
Finding the right genre of music to really fit my mood, bad or good or nonexistent, on any given day can really give me a much needed break from my overactive self deprecating brain.  

When I have this little piece of dead skin on my lip...I bite it to pull it off...and then it pulls off a quarter inch of live skin and it hurts and bleeds like crazy for 5 minutes.  

Toy Story, The Truman Show