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  1. I would have been in trouble years ago. Lol. My current CO is 67. I've always liked older men.
  2. I always wonder that too. All my relationships have failed miserably. And I don't think I can give up my CO for one. I am thankful for family and especially my best friend. I can talk to her about my CO and gush about him and show off his pictures and she does not judge me. There have been several times I thought of giving him up but my CO is too therapeutic for me to give up.
  3. Thank you for your replies. I do feel better. I guess all that matters is how I feel about my CO. And I think he's the bees knees. However I am going to take a break from posting him for awhile. Just let things blow over and just fawn over him in private.
  4. I had to share this. I use tumblr and have found out there are some really nasty mean people on there. I posted a goofy picture of my CO on there and of course I thought he was as gorgeous as always and I got this anonymous reply about the photo: "Hello there! I’m a fellow (CO) fan myself but seriously... the thing of (CO) you posted recently was tagged “good lookin” “sexy af” and “such sexy lips” or whatever crap. That picture is probably the ugliest picture of him I have ever seen. Like really? I would understand it if you said he was cute and funny but “sexy”????" This hurt me right in the feels and I cried. How could someone even say that?! Maybe I'm being irrational. I then posted how my CO really wasn't that great looking anyway and I felt horrible for even saying that. I spent a whole hour deleting all the captions and tags on all my CO's photos. I won't even post him anymore in fear someone will say something nasty again. I'm still upset about this and not just because the person insinuated my CO was ugly, but because I felt like they were calling me stupid for even saying stuff like that. This has made me feel worthless. I can't bear to read or see anything mean and negative about my CO. He is no Chris Hemsworth. He's short and on the goofy side but I find him so wonderful and beautiful and perfect.
  5. I was let down in the most horrible, terrible way possible yesterday! I wanted to almost **** myself. Today was spent putting pictures of my CO all over my room to help me feel better. My best friend is leaving my workplace, my baby quail died and my ma doesn't approve of my bible study lessons with my new Jehovah's Witnesses friend. And then this letdown of massive proportions. Could this summer get any worse? Sorry I just need to vent and cry!
  6. I am sorry you are feeling down. I know what it's like to see stuff on the internet that hurts you. Just now I came across a photo of M smooching some (not even pretty) woman when he got his star on the walk of fame. My heart clenched up and I'm upset! But I'm going to try and not let it get to me. The photo is three years old and he's still single. But I wanted to break my screen when I saw that. Why oh why do I feel so strongly for him?!
  7. Decado, I hope you are okay! Car accidents are no joke and very, very scary. Sending virtual hugs. {{{}}}
  8. My first ever CO was Captain Kirk/William Shatner from when I was 7. He's been an On again off again CO the last almost 30 years. I have heard about him not being very nice to fans and being rude. This really hurt me seeing that as I wanted to believe he was perfect. I've also heard a few stories about M not being very nice but most people that have met him says he's a real sweetheart. He serms like a decent human being. Coworkers don't complain about him, he hasn't been involved in any scandals etc. For the most part I'm happy with my CO. I enjoy looking him up and watching videos of him. It helps that he's single too. I wish everyone here was happy about their COs and not stressed or depressed over them. I know I was those things when a CO would have a significant other and I would avoid media at all costs. I wish everyone a well week. I'm by myself this summer as family has left for 6 weeks. I am sad and lonely but my CO is keeping me afloat. Thank goodness for him.
  9. I am sorry to hear that you felt letdown after meeting your CO. Oftentimes we have certain expectations when it comes to meeting our COs and more times than not, it isn't what we expected or wanted. I was on cloud nine after meeting mine but I also felt letdown and depressed because it all happened so fast and we had to part ways. I hope you felt a little something good when meeting your CO something you can look back fondly on.
  10. I think we all feel that way. We enjoy seeing pix of our COs and of course they look great in every picture. M could be very dressed down and I would still think he looks terrific! He sure knows how to rock a tux. Someone was saying he looks so good in his pictures that he makes the clothes talk. So true.
  11. That's good that your CO episode is improving. I still look up pictures and vids of M all the time. But so far there is no negative effects . I do have a thing for a Marvel villain. Lol I won't say which one though. I was curious if anyone else has a comfort object of their CO? I do and I often have it with me especially in times of stress or unhappiness. It brings me solace and just makes me feel better. I bring it with me on trips or for rides in the car and I keep it next to me at night. I know that sounds crazy but it really is therapeutic for me. I have had a comfort object for each of my COs. My family knows about it but are very respectful to me about it. I used to keep a picture in my car of my CO but I stopped doing that because a few times I loaned out my car to someone and forgot about my picture. It was embarrassing. I do have to admit that I loathe my CO's ex. They were together for a long time and whenever I see her, I get so jealous of her even though it's been over 20 years since they were a couple. I guess it doesn't help that I absolutely hated the show she was in. A very popular show in its time that I found so stupid. I never liked her anyway even before M was my CO. But I am relieved that he is currently single. Not like I have a chance with him but it helps further the fantasy in a positive way.
  12. I was watching a well known movie on Netflix (I've seen it lots of times before) but this time when the main character came on, my heart just fluttered like crazy especially when he kissed the girl in the movie. He's made my heart flutter before but not to CO status until now. I love how quirky he is and his curls. Lol And he is a very versatile and talented actor. But sadly underrated. His movies range from comedy to dramas and he is superb in each one. He's played good guys and bad guys and I've enjoyed all his performances. He is just the bees knees! I don't know if I could say I have a certain type. But I have never had a CO on a current mega star. I've had megastar COs but not during their time of huge stardom but afterwards if that makes sense. Though MK has consistently been making movies the last few years and has another one coming out in 2019.
  13. Hi everyone It's been awhile since I last posted here. I see some familiar faces and new ones. My CO obsession is still very strong. I got to meet my last CO two times and get his autograph. While he isn't my main CO anymore, he still holds a special place in my heart. I have a new CO, MK, who has been on my mind a lot lately. His pictures cover my bedroom walls as did my last CO. I really want to visit his Hollywood Star which is only 300 feet from my other COs. I'm able to function normally in life and work but my CO consumes all my free time. All I do on social media is post about him. I even tell my coworkers that I have a bf named M. Most days I can get through ok but some days I cry because I can't ever really have him even though he is single and not seeing anyone right now. Oh well. A girl can dream.
  14. Hi everyone! I finally got to meet my CO on Saturday May 7! Not only did he look GREAT! but he put on an amazing show! Of course when I got to meet him finally after 26 years, I froze and couldn't think of anything to say. We got our picture taken and then he said thank you to me. And I was able to say thank you back. I wanted to shake his hand but it was too late as the line for photo ops was moving pretty fast. I am hoping maybe to at least see him in San Francisco in December for a sci fi con. On a good note, the picture actually came out great. I look so genuinely happy in the photo. I usually hate how I look in pictures, but meeting the man of my dreams was enough to make me look halfway decent. This is a moment I will treasure forever!!!!
  15. I have stopped posting here for several reasons but I had some big news to share. I got tickets to see my CO's show in May AND I am going to meet him and get my picture taken with him. This is a dream come true. After 27 years of him as my CO and I have the opportunity to meet him!!! I'm so happy!
  16. This is going to be my last post here. I won't go into details as to why. It's a moot point. I just wanted to say how much it hurts when one of your COs passes away. You lose a part of yourself. And you will never be the same again. It is like losing a loved one. You have an empty void that will be with you as long as you live. That is all.
  17. I would like to express an even greater sorrow than the news of David Bowie's passing. Exactly four years ago, the world lost a great man. This man had many faults and he was far from perfect but he was still a good man at heart. He was generous towards others and put much care into his job. He fought many demons. And it was finally anger that consumed him. But he was still a good person. I miss him terribly. That man was my father. Even after four years, it is still painful for his loved ones. One of my greatest sorrows is that he never got to meet and know Jonny, Nevaeh and Cameron, my newly adopted younger siblings. And my dad was the one who got me hooked on many of the shows that I found COs from, big and small.
  18. I am sorry you are having a meltdown. It isn't pleasant to feel down all the time. Being depressed is very taxing. I sometimes ask myself why did my dad get me hooked on Star Trek? And why did I fall so hard for Jim Kirk? Many girls have been head over heels for Jim but how many have been in love with him for 26 years??? One day I hope that we will find our Prince Charmings and live happily ever after.
  19. I hope everyone had a nice Holiday and New Year. Mine was pleasant enough but I am very depressed as I always am this time of year. And it was my birthday on New Year's. Another year, another year older. :(. But my friend at work gave me a signed picture of my CO for my birthday!!! It was one of the best gifts ever. And it was a picture I had never seen before. Oh how my face lit up and I hugged the picture and gushed a big thank you and I didn't care if I was standing in the middle of the breakroom!!! I was so happy. I scanned it and put it on my wall and phone and computer!!!
  20. Yes, some of them are about my alter-ego...actually, I would say most of them are. But I wrote myself into a few of them, too...a bold step for me in a way. All of my stories are on my computer (password protected!!) It's been a very long time since I've written anything on paper, not even a grocery list (LOL!!) It's just easier to grab a device that's handy....usually my iPad or my iPhone and open up the Note app or the Pages app and start jotting something down. That sucks that you lost one of your stories though. That's one of the drawbacks to having stuff on your computer if you haven't backed up everything. Back in September I fried my MacBook by spilling something on the keyboard...even though all of my stories and documents (and spreadsheets, photos, music, etc.) are stored in iCloud, I was antsy to find out if everything was OK. It was all still on my iPad, but I was worried about getting it all back on my Mac....I was worried about trusting the iCloud thingy (plus I back up everything with the Time Machine thing too, every week.) The good news, when my Mac came back from repair the hard drive was still in tact...nothing was lost. But I was so worried anyway. I know I probably didn't need to be, but I was. Do you like writing stories that aren't CO related? In my case, I only have motivation to write when it's about a CO. Otherwise, I lack the inspiration.I have written stories CO related but I definitely can write stories that do not involve my CO. I haven't written any stories in a while as these days I only have time to read. But I want to get back to writing. People tell me I write like a pro and should move on to become an author!!!! Nice compliment to hear!
  21. Hi Uncommon. You needn't feel like a weirdo. Here is a safe place. The sudden feelings towards someone can happen rather quickl, even with real life persons. I have had crushes on characters and celebrities starting at age 7. And I would get feelings for a CO really quickly, sometimes overnight. Maybe you feel emotionally attached because you are trying to fill an empty void in your life. Many of my crushes have been on celebrities and characters whose shows or music I grew up on and grew up on in my childhood but I didn't start out with romantic feelings towards them in the beginning. But when those feelings did show, I thought back to all the joy and happiness I felt when watching or hearing these crushes. Some of them got me through some hard times too. Maybe you relate to the character in some way. Please feel welcome to ask questions or share your feelings on here. You have our support. Hugs.
  22. And that is why I admitted it wasn't very nice to say about someone I didn't know. There is something about this woman though that is kind of slimy. She isn't slutty or anything. Far from it. But she rubs me the wrong way. But I do think some of these feelings we feel do stem from jealosy.
  23. I still keep up with an ex CO through fan groups on FB. I do not have any romantic feelings toward him any more but I get so mad when I see pix of him and his significant other. For some reason I really really despise her. I just want to puke when I see her. She is not that attractive and skinny as a rail and really pretty plain. Maybe not a nice thing to say about someone I do not know. But she is not famous at all, except for being his wife. How did some ordinary, unattractive woman get to be married to him and have four children??? It boils my blood!!! Matt Damon's wife is not that famous and is not in the limelight and seems average too but it doesn't bother me. But I think it's because I have no romantic attraction to Matt. But my loathing for this woman is so hardcore. Every time I see her picture, I want to scream at my screen "I hate you *****!!!". Why do I feel this way if he's not my CO any more??? But even before he was ever a CO, I loathed her. I loathe her more than my current and longtime CO's significant other. Sometimes feelings are weird!
  24. If it's any consolation, I'm only a few years older than you and I don't have someone. It is hard as H*** for me to find someone to fall in love with. By this age, I was hoping to be settled down with spouse and kids. But I have failed. All I have is my CO. I understand some of your troubles and do hope that you will find someone who will make you happy!!! And yes keep turning to Jesus for help. He is there to take your burden off your shoulder but a counselor or therapist would also be a big help too. I found one through the local county clinic and my insurance covers it. All the best of luck to you. Hugs.
  25. I wanted to add that I love to sing and always sing to myself. I think I sound like crap when I sing so I don't sing in front of others. But that doesn't stop me from singing by myself.
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