Can anyone relate.. I've gone so in on myself that I don't know how to be more 'me'. I feel so low and not worthy, and there's so much I want to say but I can't say it. I've spent so long unhappy and stuck that I am unhappy and stuck. I'm not sure how many of you remember, but I had a fall out with a friend last september. Today we spoke and made up, and everything felt normal. I was so anxious and shaky to begin with. I'm still racked with guilt, but I asked her about it and she said we're talking, we're normal, there's nothing to talk about.. (I guess I'll have to talk about it on monday to my counsellor). But yeah, being friends with her made me happy and funny, I felt more alive than I ever had done. Then when I lost her I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't move on with my life, not without her. Well now I feel like I've f*cked myself over. I'm not me. I want to cry and I want to scream. I don't want to be me :( I'm so tired of being me. Shy, boring, troubled. I want to quit but I don't want to disappear forever. I feel like everyone has problems but no one feels the way I do.