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  1. Anxious, just want to come home and curl up with my dogs.
  2. Where's my bed Zzzzz....... Need a pillow I'm so tired
  3. Hi Bob77, You are so dawn right on the fact that many women are taking offence at the slightest provocation and yep! here goes the tantrum. Would I say there are childish or perhaps could they have lack of confidence in themselves. So my question to you Bob77, does your wife is happy with herself or is she doubting herself. I think that lots of adults who are acting childish seems to feel inferior toward others. Of course this is only my point of view and of course there is for sure men and women who will never grow up and act childish for the rest of their life. You mention in your post that between with you your wife is everything is OK but with your children It's totally different. Well are they respectful when addressing themselves to your wife and does your wife feel totally in control when she address herself to them. It would be good to discover the reason why between the two of you there is no flying emotions but between her and the kids there is. You say that you have learn, yes you learn to be the bigger one and not speak or react toward her emotions but your children's certainly don't have the approach and maturity that you have. Children's unfortunately sometimes knows our to push all of our buttons and send us to a out of control state of mind. Your wife could be doubting herself and so at the same time her authority toward your children's. Bob77 and I wish you the best.
  4. I tried to avoid his visit all week-end but unfortunately, there he was right in my face when I woke up this morning, is there a way to get rid of you, Monday. FRIDAY where the heck are you please come quick to my rescue. So... to properly answer the question on how to I feel .
  5. You never know when she is going to decide to strike you and how hard is going to be. Yep! depression can hurt pretty bad. Another bad think about depression, is that she always arrive without no invitation and you never know how long she will stick with you. She's always hard to get rid off. Depression is also invisible and unless someone had her visit they don't believe that it even exist. Yep! if only we good see our depression and kick her right in the face OMG! that would feel so good. Right now I'm not depressed, but I do know how it feel, so... for all of you who are struggling with it, right now, I'm sending you all my love and virtual support.
  6. Getting out of my comfy bed was quite an achievement, going to work was another huge achievement so... Do I get an award.
  7. I think I need a very long vacation work is crazy.
  8. Hello everyone, Personally I think that building a long lasting friendship isn't easy even for a very social person which I consider I am. I made friend easy I'm really easy going, easy to talk too, open minded, none judgemental and I could go on and on. I'm rarely alone and if I wanted could be surrounded with lots of peoples but... I would say that aside from my husband I only have one person that I would consider a true friend of mine. Joanne the person that I consider a real true friend is the only one that really knows me deep down and with her I can really be myself we have no secret. I consider myself lucky to have found a husband with who I can open up about anything entirely and to have also Joanne my best friend. Lots of peoples think that they have lots of friends but... do they really? Are they friends or simply acquaintances Yep! huge difference. What I'm getting at it's that if lots of peoples who think OMG! look at Eve she has so many friends but Nope this is not the case. I'm working in a job that I need to connect and communicate with lots of peoples all day I also play music and sing sometimes with local bands, lots of peoples knows me and are I would say attracted to an image have in their mind of what I am but... they honestly don't have a dawn clue of who I really am. Especially with peoples like us who are suffering mentally with our up and down emotions finding real friends that we can trust and open up too isn't an easy task to achieve. Mr. Shadow, I have read lots of posts from you and personally I think that your an awesome young men who's only 27, you are pretty dawn smart for your age and you have a great heart and open mind. Anyone would be lucky to have you as a friend but... never forget something though, do they deserve your friendship? You are unique and special and peoples who are smart enough to take the time and discover all your inner beauty, would definitely stand in line to become one of your friend.
  9. Hi everyone, this might sound crazy for some, but have you ever try coconut oil? if not, I swear to you that you definitely should it is simply wonderful and none costly. I've been for 3 years on Methotrexate which is a chemo pill, it might be way less damaging then the real chemo where you lose all your hair but still it's was hard on my system. One thing that really help me with everything was... YEP! coconut oil. Every day I was taking 2 tables spoon of coconut oil for boosting my system. I also used it for treatment on my hair and all over my body for my skin. Just Google it and see all the benefit that the coconut oil, you would be amazed. I attached two links for you to check it out. Even my dogs benefit from coconut oil very good for cats also. https://www.organicfacts.net/health-benefits/oils/health-benefits-of-coconut-oil.html http://wellnessmama.com/5734/101-uses-for-coconut-oil/
  10. Hi glass sky to DF, You are right pain does change a person, I know it to dawn well. I need to take killer pain everyday to ease my pain and I do mean ease my pain nothing so far can get rid of all the pain that I endure every single day. anyway life does go on and so do I. What really help me is of course the support of my great partner. Remind that special person that you're talking about in your post, how important she is to you. Physical as well as mental pain isn't easy but with the support of peoples that loves us and support us, it make our challenge easier. I've been fighting since I can't remember, physical and mental pains and will keep on fighting with the support of peoples that believes in me and loves me no matter the mood I might be in, Yep! even in my grumpy moments they are still supporting me.
  11. Not bad actually for a Monday morning, so far it seem that it's going to be a great day.
  12. Hi LeighChan to DF Sorry to hear that you are suffering with depression, please note that you're not alone in your struggling, here you will find support and understanding from other members. I remember as a teenager having a very hard time expressing myself and get my message across especially when it was about my emotions. Have you thought of writing it down instead of taking about it? one good thing when you write down the way you feel instead of telling it out loud, you won't be interrupted and this way you can really let the peoples around you know, exactly how you feel deep inside. Another think don't be upset if peoples don't seem to understand you, It's hard for none depressed peoples to clearly understand someone who is depressed. I also agree with the response of Tungsten Aromatic and K Pluto you certainly don't need to blend in, being yourself is way better, you are unique and that what makes you special and wonderful. Sending you lots of virtual hugs
  13. It's Monday and you know my story on Monday's unless it's an holiday of course, I simply HATE MONDAY'S.
  14. Hi Daniel the nerd, Nope you are definitely not alone, I'm also quite resentful toward society. I always feel that to be able to fit in with society you need to wear a mask which for me is insane, if you don't act, talk, or look a certain way Yep! you are sure to be judged. After all who are those individuals that make all the rules on how a person should look or behave, we are humans not robots that are program. I don't like fake or put on a show type of peoples. When society look's at me they probably say OMG! this women need help, my reply is no I don't but they do. In my view we are the normal peoples not the general full fake society, peoples suffer, peoples have emotions and can become stress or depressed etc... I dare to take off my mask in society and if peoples want to judged me that's OK because deep down I judged them also. I rather be like the way I am, and share with other peoples my emotions then have to put on a big fake show to society. I'm happy to have found this Forum and be able to speak with peoples about who I am without being judged. All of you for me are the normal peoples, who are not afraid to acknowledge your pain, anger, frustration and more, this for me is being normal. If normal for society mean being fake well no thank you, I rather be abnormal.
  16. I have 2 dogs, one is a small GoldenDoodle, his name is BillyBee and the other one is a Chinese Crestepoo, his name is SmokeyBear. They are a big part of the family. The kind of animal that I would love is horses ( I use to own one in my younger years ) and all kind of wild animal if only I had a huge place to accommodate them. I would love to have wolfs, cougars, and all kind of birds such as owls, falcons, eagles it would be a dream come true.
  17. Hi duck, So sorry to hear that you are struggling with your emotions and that your doctor who should support and understand you 100% doesn't take you seriously and acknowledge the fact that you go to see him asking for help. I've been in your situation more than once yep! Apparently. I'm smiling too much and how can someone who smile like I do be suffering with her emotions. The answer is purely simple, because I put on my social face. Society literally force us to put on a mask just to fit in and be accepted. Duck my prayers are with you, I know that deep inside of you, you will find a force that will pull you trough this bad moment in you life, so please remember that you are not alone and that peoples care deeply about you. Have you told your doctor about your suicidal thoughts, he should definitely be aware. Don't be afraid to put your foot down next time you go to see your doctor and tell him straight to his face, that the reason you are going to see him is because you need emotional help, not his judgement. OMG! that makes me so angry when doctors look at you and say you seem OK, well excuse me if I was OK I wouldn't be here in front of you seeking for help. You have the right to feel better and put a big smile right back in your face so if this doctor doesn't realize it, go seek the help of someone who will. Don't give up duck, it's your right to be happy, you deserve it 100%. Wishing you all the best
  18. Just cannot wait for the weekend. I need a break It' s crazy lately at my work.
  19. Hi ColtsBlue, I'm also on Celexa, my dose is 20 mg, I will soon start my 4th month and so far I would say that for me it as been so beneficial. I started to see improvement after I finished my first month so after 30 days. I take it in the morning before breakfast because at night I take Trazadone when I need it. Since I start taking Celexa only twice I took Trazadone, so I would say that for me Celexa is working like a charm. I which that it will work great for you as well hard to say now after only 12 days. Hope to see more post from you and welcome to DF
  20. Very Grumpy it's Monday, I'm at work and I don't feel good at all.
  21. Not sure how I feel, sort of anxious for the last tree months I'm on anti-depressant 20mg citalopram, it help a little bit but... my husband had a surgery before Christmas to remove a 5 centimetre tumor in his bladder which we learn last week was cancerous. He will need to undergo treatments at the hospital, I said it before and keep saying it today I rather be sick myself than having one of my family members being sick.
  22. Wish that I could say that I doing good but it would be a lie I'm absolutely discouraged and devastated, my husband is not well at all and the job is pure hell so... Yea!. I just want to hide somewhere and scream and cry.
  23. Hi Smad, I'm so sorry that your mother have too much power over the way you feel and I understand you 100%, my mother was the same way with me. The best way to deal with it, let her know how she make you feel. Let her know the next time that she behave abusively or tell you some unpleasant things that you don't appreciate it at all, especially from her who as your mother should be way more supportive. You need to stand your ground toward your mother, let her know that you love and respect her and that you expect the same in return from her. Believe me I know how hard it is when you own mother put you down all the time, my mother was really controlling and abusive, until the day that I stood my ground and told her if you don't change your tunes toward me, don't expect to see me anymore. Yes, It took a while for her to digest, what I had just told her but eventually she started to speak to me with respect and also show me more appreciation. Best of luck and take care
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