watts320

Hi guys. Me and my partner have been together about 6 to 7 months on/off. She suffers from depression quite badly, I mean she can go weeks up to a month with being happy, then 2 weeks of being depressed, she always tells me Ill never understand how she feels when she has depression, but I will point out she doesnt want to see me when shes feeling low, due to her feeling low and that she cant express her love for me cos she just doesnt have it in her. So she doesnt let me see her, she doesnt let me be there to help her, she always always puts herself into a state that she just doesnt care, she could lose an arm and she would just sit there and think oh well, she never has any motivation to get up and do something. From my point of view, sometimes it kills me. Cos i cant be involved with it when I wanna be. It hurts me that she is like this but she is on tablets which her doctor a couple of days ago has took her dose from 20mg to 30mg along side betablockers i think they are. I love her so so much and she knows it, depression gets in the way of letting her do what she wants to do. But I need some help, I cant sit n talk to her even when she is fine because Im scared it would bring her depression back at the thought of it. She has suffered from it for along time now, because of her ex that had put a massive downer on her life. She moved away from him to come up to were I live, and we met on a dating site, and then facebook. Thats how it started for us. She had told me about her depression and her life, but i never really expected it to be this bad. I honestly do not know what to do anymore. Specially when she is feeling low about herself and when she gets like that. Its best to keep away, but im her partner. I shouldnt have to keep away. I wanna be there to help her. I see her when shes low maybe like once every two weeks. When shes fine, i see her alot more then that. What can I do?