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You can. And you will. I know it. I know it.

So sorry to read about your dog, sober!!! Big hugs, my friend!!!

My daughter is in the hospital in her college town of Guelph, about 2 hours from here. She is 18. She has told friends that she wants to **** herself, and so, they called the university mental health people and they sent her to a hospital. I knew this was coming. It's been like a slow motion train wreck. I am going up to see her tomorrow and, damn it, I am bringing her home if that's what she wants, last exam be damned. I feel I'm going to need some good thoughts for this one. I think we can save her. I just hope I know want to do!

Not true. Floor, and so many others on DF have been a major help for me!

God, you don't know how happy this clarification from sober was for me at this hour. I actually laughed a smiley, audible laugh that scared my cats! LOL I thought you had made plans for spring - as in PLANS, sober. I have seen such growth in you, Sober, through your mother's passing. Such strength too!!! Amazing strength!!! Vanish, if you must, but still be!!!! Still be. And still be with us, here!!!

Guilty!!! I blew my son off tonight. We were supposed to see a movie. I was anxious and lethargic all day with major sinus trouble, but I feel bad. He hasn't responded to my apology. I also feel bad about asking a friend if he's listened to my podcast yet. Douche move. Leave friends alone. I can be such a d**k!!!

Odd day. Anxiety through the whole thing, though I managed to get some work done. One of those days where you don't get a moment of relief. Usually, it comes and goes.

I'm not feeling capable of a response to this beautifully written, yet totally heartbreaking (for us pals of WOTL) post. Nothing feels adequate. Certainly not what I am going to say, which is: "WOTL, I know, I know, I know. I can so feel how much pain you are in right now!!!!" I could say that it will pass, and it will!!! But sometimes Hallmark card phrases are just pain s.h.i.t!!! So, I'll just say, "I know."

Like life is a riddle I'll never solve.

I'm sorry Mark. We all know how that feels. I hope tomorrow is better for you!!!

Woot!!!!! Not surprised, though. I know you have living a purposeful, creative life in you. I feel it happening. Maybe as a nurse? Maybe as a rocket surgeon LOL? I don't know, but to all of us on here, we've always known that you, sober, have the capability to achieve inner-confidence and inner peace. Tomorrow, may, or may not feel different to you. You have been through terrible tragedy, so please remember that and give yourself permission to ebb and flow. But always remember what you did today, for both yourself and you're mom. You ARE becoming your full self. You are letting yourself be heard, out there in the real world, not just on here to your faceless friends! Well done!

Everyone puts on an act of strength, sober. Even Presidents, Popes, Prime Ministers and reality TV stars. We are all soft and vulnerable in the middle. We are 60% water, after all LOL! And we are all different acting people in different company/situations. The "act" you put on is, in fact, still you. It is you rising to the occasion and being a social-human-being, and this is good! It's funny, I had this very thing happen to me today: a co-worker who downloaded my podcast asked me who was the real me - the potty-mouthed opinionated prick on the podcast, or the polite, smiley, old man co-worker at the store I work in? I literally said to him that both of them are me. And they are.

I want to like this 6,000 times, but it only allows one like! Drat!!! I think @sober4life would be a wonderful nurse!!!

I am so sorry my friend! So terribly sorry. You, Sober, were stellar! I honestly don't think I could do what you just did through this process!

You are doing great, Sober!!!! Such a loving child your mother is blessed with. Remember, you can't fix her. It, nature, is out of your control, or mine, or anyone else's. All you can do is accept the present as it is, comfort her and bring her dignity, like you have done your entire life! So hard to read this, sober. Biggest hugs! Brian