APFSDS

"Lux optata claruit" - Clemencic Consort

Trying to draw through a mire of anhedonia.

Being eaten by rabid anhedonia. Oh, and trying to draw something.

coffee and toast

listening to Irving Finkel talk

Trying to draw things, but have concentration issues. Can't focus at all.

Blackcurrants from the fridge. Tea.

L'homme armé, a modern interpretation by Karl Jenkins.

Star Wars: The Last Jedi, but that was back in december 2017 - haven't watched anything since. 3/5

A person without depression who is in the same position as I am has it definitely easier. That's how I view it.

My answer is going to be rubbish :( It really depends on your body and how it reacts to various doses and meds. I've taken SSRI (escitalopram) and it stopped working in seven months and was immediately put on SNRI (venlafaxine) and a NDRI (bupropion). They kinda work, but I still feel awful.

I don't feel better after showering. I do so usually every other day, but the longest I've been without showering due to depression is just under a month. I didn't brush my teeth for two months, though... I didn't give a toss.

In my experience it really depends what kind of anti-depressants(AD) you get and how they'll interact with your organism. The first AD did not make me feel noticeably better, but I improved and was more-or-less able to work until they wore off and lost their power due to increase in stress. The second AD did not make me feel better, but it probably saved me from self-termination. And it kept me stable for 2 years. The obvious things that ADs will make you feel are the side-effects. As I've come to understand, ADs don't make you feel happy, but enable (if correctly chosen) you to return to normality.

I have this. At work it's especially noticed by coworkers. "Y U LOOK SO SAD? :D :D :D" - a colleague

:)