APFSDS

Mum died. I don't feel particularly bad. Maybe even relief that she doesn't have to suffer any longer.

Not good. Anxious, sad and useless with a drop of guilt.

I dreamt my female friend (to whom I haven't spoken in 10 years) was badly injured in a vintage autogyro accident when it crashed into suspended electrical cables. Rather upsetting dream.

Sad. Very tired. Helpless. Guilty.

Oops! Forgot to write about my own dream. - I dreamt I was a "poilu" on leave from the front lines. Kept trying to find a place to sleep in the dream.

were you Henry V ?

Tired and a bit ill.

Depression warps the mind and may make you think things which aren't true.

Tired.

I'm taking lexapro and abilify with wellbutrin now, but in the past I've taken it with Effexor and it definitely worked. Effexor(venlafaxine) and Wellbutrin probably helped me out a lot; however as I got better I started noticing side-effects that made my job difficult (working in cold and warm places interchangeably) and I sweated sea-tanker loads. So I went back on lexapro.

Not too bad considering my situation. But I AM on loads of meds, so I wonder... if I weren't. Heck!

A sci-fi movie called "Prospect" may be coming to theatres. Previously it was released on some festivals or something. I'm emitting a "HNNNGH" of expectation.

Rolandskvadet (Song of Roland) by Trio Mediaeval, on youtube

Mum's surgery failed. I feel shattered. Not because she's going to die, but because she'll continue to suffer.

watching/listening to a video about Schizoid Personality Disorder on youtube.