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I agree, if you get into the process it can be quite therapeutic.

I feel like I want to go to psych hospital, but I'm afraid my home will burn down while I'm away. It's an intrusive thought I keep getting every time I leave the house.

apple juice

At the moment not too awful. Bed time soon, I hate it. It always takes so long to fall asleep without sleeping pills.

Jens Egevad - The Warrior With His Lyre on youtube

Tea, I think it's herbal tea... no idea whats in it though

I feel strange. Not good. Like feeling drunk for no reason; must be the meds .

My elder brother called me. He has no concept of mental illness. "Think positively! Snap out of it! Get active!" Why do people do that? How do I feel? Sh*t.

As depression gets worse I find it increasingly harder to draw stuff. Haven't drawn anything serious for years.

I dreamt I was taking the bus to the capital. I sat next to a woman with a very short haircut. She asked if I have cancer. I didn't answer, so she assumed I did indeed. Was I on the right bus? Not a disturbing dream, but definitely weird.

Unable to sleep. I hate the process of going to sleep. I'm in the dark room with my dark thoughts. Feeling like sh**

Cats. Meow meow.

Honestly? Not too bad. I'm sloshed. Really honestly? It doesn't work. I feel terrible.

John Wick Meh.