crewneck

Trying to just be and remind myself that I am more than just my depression and anxiety. I think I tend to forget that. I've had anxiety for all my life that I think it's part of my personality when it's not. I also had a big cry earlier about nothing. I'm just so exhausted....

If you don't mind me asking how did it make your situation worse when you took it the first time? Exercise has always been at the top of my list for things In want to do to help manage my depression. I've always had thoughts of wanting to work out but I have the worst gym anxiety ever. I'm scared of making a fool out of myself because I don't know what I'm doing. I wish you good luck on your anxiety/depression journey. It's definitely not easy.

The weather was not in my favour. The moment I had to step out my house to get to work, it started to rain and thunder super hard. I was going to take the bus but I didn't want to risk being drenched all shift so I decided to take an Uber. Shortly after I got to work it stop raining and the sun came out. Really annoying for the broke...

I want to sleep because tired but I'm also hungry. But, I'm too tired to get up to eat...But I also can't sleep when I'm hungry. #firstworldproblems

Nothing shocks me anymore when it comes to hearing about Amazon taking over the world.

Any season other than winter brightens my mood. Unfortunately spring doesn't last very long where I live.

I've been feeling uneasy. I wake up with horrible morning anxiety. Literally the moment I wake up my heart is racing like crazy. I don't know why. I've been having a hard time lately so I guess that suffering is showing up in this form. I guess I'm going through an anxiety attack...not fun. I question if meds are the way to go. I'm tired of feeling held back from life. They tell you to go at your own pace but 10 years goes by in the blink of an eye. How has it been a decade already? I've barely achieved within this time.

On days where there is nothing to do my depression gets to me the most. I feel so bored and unproductive. There is too much time to think about how much of a failure I am.

I live in Canada so the weather is pretty different. It's interesting to hear about the differences we face when it comes to the weather. We barely have a summer. It's here for 2 months out of the year and then its just cold all year round. Also I have never heard of a swamp cooler before. I had to look that up.

I'm mentally in a weird place right now. I'm not good with change but lately I've been trying to take more accountability for my happiness. So I started to regularly meditate and practice gratitude. I've always been more of a pessimistic person but I never realized just how unkind I am to myself till recently. I feel scared and lonely going through this journey of trying to better myself. It's very hard for me but I know it's for my own self-improvement so I can't give up. If I give up I will have already failed and I'm tired of failing at everything in my life. I feel like crying myself to sleep at times when it gets too hard but I'm trying not to be so tough on myself and just go with the flow.

Empty. Very empty.

I have living relatives but I'm not very close to them at all. The only intermediate family I have is my mom and brother but I'm only kinda close to my brother so in my eyes I don't really have family I connect with anyways. I definitely can relate to feeling lonely. I've been struggling with that more recently as I get older and my circle gets smaller and smaller (it was already pretty small to begin with). I don't have any advice since I'm also struggling with that. But I'm always open to making friends if you ever want to talk!

Wondering why there are so many bad people in this world. Life feels pointless to live.

I'm a manager at Taco Bell. I love the people I work with but lately I've been hating life a lot. So I'm not sure if I can say I'm glad to be there.

My friends making me laugh even when I'm literally going through a mental breakdown.