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  1. I can totally relate. One thing you need to keep in mind when interacting with bi-sexual or gay people is they have been ridiculed, persecuted and not easily accepted. It hardens you over the years. I know it's hard but try not to take things too to heart. Things will happen if and when they are ready to!
  2. I can totally relate. One thing you need to keep in mind when interacting with bi-sexual or gay people is they have been ridiculed, persecuted and not easily accepted. It hardens you over the years. I know it's hard but try not to take things too to heart. Things will happen if and when they are ready to!
  3. I want to make a documentary on what it's like to live with depression.
  4. Don't be embarrassed. We all have our moments. I tweeted mine today and told him off. Then I sent another and apologized. Several hours later I sent another being supportive. Lol he probably looked at it and thought, "Damn this girl is nuts"
  5. I had a change of heart and sent a message full of love to an old friend.
  6. I think it was wise to eliminate something like that from your life. It's never easy to do but in the end it's what's best for you that matters. Take this time to heal and relax and try to let go of all the negative things that were plaguing you. Now you can remold your life anew.
  7. Wow. Seriously, this really helped me more than words can ever say. I have been so caught up in the notion of being forgotten that I missed that whole concept. Thank you for reminding me what was really important. Brings tears to my eyes. No joke. :*) P.S. You really made me have a change of heart. So I sent one last tweet, it was full of kind and encouraging words. I hope that at least makes him smile. :)
  8. I carry pepper spray too, on my key chain. I don't know if it still works, though...I've never actually used it. It makes me so sad and angry that we don't live in a safe world. People should be able to go out without having to worry that they will be harassed or harmed. Ugh I know right?! What's worse are people who prey on the few kind and decent people left on the earth. When did people devolve back into such animals? Had I been in your situation with the nutter at the grocery store I would have spoken loudly so other people could here and said "You are making me uncomfortable and I think it's time you leave or I will call the police." If that only prompted her further, i would have pulled the rape whistle. Everyone in a ten mile radius would have heard it haha!
  9. Pitch Perfect. I know I know! Girly movie but so good in my opinion.
  10. I understand, Katerina. The beauty of being here on DF, though, is that no one will tell you to "get over it". Many of us have been bullied too and we know how it feels. Some people might deny it, but bullying definitely leaves scars. I'm still trying to heal from what I've experienced as well. Just feel free to vent as much as you like. Yes! That's one of the most beautiful things about posting here. We all know what it feels like to suffer therefore no one will ever look down on you or disregard how you feel. :)
  11. Eww.I know exactly what you are talking about. That's why I don't go out on my own anymore. To make me feel better my hubby bought me a serious High grade rape whistle and pepper spray.
  12. I'm hanging out with my awesome dog cuddled on the couch with a super blanket. I am not a fan of winter. It's restrictive and depressing. I'm also not that good with cold temperatures. Single digits make me crabby.
  13. Don't apologize! That's what we are here for. I'm glad talking to us helps you to feel better! We're kinda cool that way haha!
  14. You are not alone and certainly not invisible. People today are so caught up in their own lives they don't even think about how their behavior affects others. There's nothing wrong with you my friend. You just haven't met anyone worth being friends with yet. ;)
  15. Omg why, WHY?! I caved! I sent him a message on twitter. Now I keep going back refreshing the page as if he were going to respond. He NEVER responds to people. He may retweet but direct response? No way. What the hell am I thinking! Why I do this to myself I'll never know. I suppose I'm a glutton for punishment. Like he actually gives a or even remembers. Ha. I hate you Jared.
  16. I couldn't agree more! I have struggled all of my life and still do. I always will. I was born this way. But I always get jealous or envious of people who have been handed everything or walked on the shoulders of others to get there. It's never fair.
  17. I always felt awkward and unaccepted. I spent most of my younger years trying to be like other people I thought were awesome at the time. My parents all but abandoned me at the age of 12 so all through my teen years all I ever had was myself.
  18. I get hooked into video games. They are generally time consuming and excellent distractions, especially during those times you feel your most vulnerable.
  19. Any chance of getting back on the medication? Even a general practitioner or family doctor should be able to prescribe some anti-depressants.
  20. Yes! I think that's an amazing idea. I love the idea of the gift too. I know if it were me I would be so happy to get something like that. Especially if I was having a bad day. You have a kind heart, that means something in this sad world. She's lucky to have you in her life :)
  21. Thanks, that is a really nice response. But I'm just so convinced she doesn't want me to talk to her at all. I mean in terms of psychology if she feels totally unlovable and I keep telling her how much I do love her, won't that breed contempt on her part? Kinda like the way compliments can sometimes anger people with low self esteem because they so firmly believe the compliment is either a lie or a product of warped perception. I would do anything in the world to make her feel better. Even if that meant taking a huge step back. But when she effectively sobers up... Then what? Do I just keep texting without response? I don't think that it will breed contempt. When someone is that low and depressed emotions are generally irrational and amplified. My advice is if you really love her and want to be in her life then wait. Don't push and overwhelm her, just let her know you are there for her and if she needs anything all she has to do is call. After that, give her the space she needs and when she is ready she will come to you. It make take time, unfortunately there is no time frame for this sort of thing. The fact that she said she was going to seek therapy after Christmas is an excellent sign. Have patience my friend. I know that seems like asking a lot when you can't stop thinking about her, but trust me. It will all work itself out in time. In the meantime, feel free to stick around and chat with us. We all know what it is you are going through and you can always chat with us about anything you need.
  22. Yes, yes and yes! I don't think I would have gotten through my lowest times without my dog. He is truly my best friend. Flasquish is right. My dog can always sense when I am down or sad and is just amazing. He's let me throw my arms around him and just cry till I felt better. I would recommend a dog. I myself love cats but yes, cats can be unpredictable and quite a handful as kittens. I own a large yorkie (15lbs) he's not fat just big for his breed. But he is perfect for me. He's small enough to cuddle with and hold on my lap but large enough that I don't have to worry about stepping on him or him hurting himself jumping off of things. Easy to feed, hypo-allergenic so no shedding and just the most loving creature I have ever known. If you want low stress I too recommend an adult animal. Puppies and kittens are full of energy and require lots of time, patience and attention. Not to mention they can be frustrating because they tend to be destructive while they are babies and don't know any better. There are so many pets out there that need a good home. You'll know when you find your match. You feel that connection and bond in your heart.
  23. Thanks so much flasquish, means more than you know.
  24. Hi there! Thank you for posting this, I think it's beautiful. You love her. You are in love with her. There is nothing wrong with that. She loves you because trust me, if she didn't you would never have heard from or seen her again. It's obvious she is hurting and going through something that she is struggling with. The fact that she hasn't told anyone else besides you means she trusts you. I have been where she is and I'll be the first to tell you I have said the same thing to my husband of ten years! Why are you with me? You deserve better, go find someone who will give you a normal life and make you happy. But he will never leave because he loves me. And for that I love him that much more. The fact that you care this much and she sees it though her responses sometimes may not reflect that is a big deal. What you are doing although it's difficult says so much about you and she sees that. The thing about true love is that it is selfless. If you truly love her all you can do is support her and try to be there in any way she may or may not need. People who suffer from depression can be unpredictable and emotionally unstable. But that doesn't mean she doesn't care or that she doesn't love you. My advice is to give her what she needs. Be it space, help, love, time. When she tells you to find someone else because you deserve better, tell her you already found the best thing that's ever happened to you and that you are not going anywhere. Tell her you are here for her and you support her. But most importantly, keep reminding her whenever you get a chance to talk that you love her and are always here for her. That is such a precious commodity to have for someone who suffers from depression.
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