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WW78

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  1. I feel the same way everyone else feels who responded. I also feel sometimes like nothing is getting better and what's the point. I wish I could make you feel better, but when the depression hits you hard it's hard to get up and dust yourself off. All I can tell you is to take one day at a time and just know that you are worth being here. I know that i can't make it better for you, but just take it one day at a time.
  2. Wow! I'm sorry about your friends suicide and divorce. Your life sounds pretty good to me, but I know that's easier said. I guess compare to me it is good. I hope you feel better and everything works out.
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    Thank you Hotaru for your kind words. There is a lot more problems that involve my family, but it's so much that I wouldn't even know where to start. The biggest problem for me is that I love my family very much even though they hurt me and don't really involve me in their life. I'm always the one wanting them in my life. I love my mom so much, but I don't think she wants to hear my pain. I have told all of them in the past how much it hurts me, but nothing works. I do tell my husband about how I feel and he has been in the middle of all the problems with my family too. I feel like I don't want to push them away but what else can I do to keep them from hurting me? I just feel so caught in the middle of loving my family and loving myself more. Why is it that it seems like such an easy choice, but for me it seems like I can't choose me.
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    Thanks for replying Newbie. My depression started way before my marriage. My parents have always been in my life. We have always been close. My mom is actually the problem. She doesn't love or respect me the way she has my other siblings. I have a different father from my siblings. I have always been the odd one. I am hispanic and all our family is, well was, really close. They come over on the weekends, my parents and siblings, and have dinner on our family nights. We haven't had that recently so that's why i'm going through a very tough time right now. The funny thing is that my mom or sisters haven't even called to ask what is wrong. I really don't think they care.
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    I am new to this forum so forgive me if you have already discussed this, but what do you do when you give 100% to your friends and family and receive nothing in return? At this point I have given all my energy and time to both and now I have decided to push my family away. I haven't talked to my mom and siblings for a week now. That might not seem like much, but going from talking every day to nothing, it is making my depression worse. I have a daughter and a husband who love me very much so I have to keep this happy face on for them so I don't bring them down too. I just wish I could take this fake face off and reveal the real one that hides inside. My heart aches for answers from my loved ones on why they treat me the way they do when I am always the only one to be there for them. I keep having to buy and prove my love to them, but It doesn't seem to work. I am tired of trying to buy my way into their hearts. I will never get any answers because all they ever say is that I am crazy or I am the one with the problem. I feel myself going downhill.
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