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  • Birthday 06/15/1958

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    Boise, Idaho, USA
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    Pets, animal fostering, horseback riding, dog agility, sheep herding training, writing.

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  1. I'm not a doctor, j_Eliz, but to me it does sound like you're depressed. Depression can steal away your energy and motivation and fill you with self-loathing. They're all symptoms of the disease. Have you tried talking to a psychologist? A good therapist might be able to help you work through some of the issues you face and give you some coping skills for when you find yourself stuck and unable to move forward. I know how it feels to be frozen with fear of the future and filled with despair, but I also know how it feels to have that feeling of worthlessness lift when you get the proper treatment, whether medical or psychological. Once that veil lifts, it's amazing how you can look back and see how wrong your negative thinking was. You're only 39. You're still young and have so many years left to follow a different path. On DF you'll find many suggestions for ways to deal with depression, from getting exercise and eating right to breaking down the challenges you face so you only focus on one tiny step forward at a time. Fear can be paralyzing. You've taken a huge step already by admitting to yourself that you might be depressed and by reaching out for help. Celebrate that progress and think about what other small steps you can take that will help get you where you want to be, hopefully someplace other than in the back of a box truck. Sending positive energy your direction tonight.
  2. It's good to 'see' you KS.  I hope you are doing well!

    💓

    ~Lindsay

  3. kstours

    Wellbutrin questions/Bipolar

    Hi, ClearSkiesAhead. I take Bupropion XL but I'm not familiar with Buspar. In the past I have taken Lexapro and other SSRIs. I find that Bupropion helps me feel emotions more normally than Lexapro, which seemed to just dampen them all, so in that sense I am more emotional. I will occasionally cry on Bupropion, or have an off day. I can't say I've experienced seething anger or pronounced mood swings on it. I have read that if you are also taking Chantix anti-smoking drug with Wellbutrin it's been known to cause anger and hostility, and if you search google for wellbutrin side effects and anger you'll fine other posts about people experience this--known as hypomania. You might want to mention it to your doctor. It's been a while since I was in the startup phase but I remember the positive effects of it seemed to kick in pretty fast. In fact it was almost a kind of euphoria it made me feel so much better than I had been. As for anxiety, yes! Bupropion has helped a LOT with my anxiety, which is a little contrary to what you'd expect. It's made a huge difference in my life that way--I can actually enjoy activities without worrying and obsessing about every little thing that could go wrong. I never noticed any change in acne related to the meds but acne is a recognized side effect. I hope these meds work for you and that you start to feel better soon.
  4. Awesome job, Steve! That's wonderful that you could be there for your family, and you should be proud of what you accomplished with the Black Beast breathing down your neck. I know your family was very grateful to have you there. Once when I was going through a bad period and felt at a loss for dealing with the logistics of getting my car repaired, getting a rental, getting a ride, etc., I managed to figure it all out and it gave me this amazing feeling of accomplishment. Like I had found someone I could lean on... and it was ME. It gave me a tremendous boost of confidence. Sometimes we underestimate ourselves and it takes a challenge to show us just how strong and capable we really are. I'm so glad that some good came from such a horrific week.
  5. kstours

    Wellbutrin & Migraines & more

    I'm so glad this is a good week for you too! I hope things continue to get better for you.
  6. kstours

    Wellbutrin & Migraines & more

    Hi, Tam. I'm so sorry to hear about your husband and all you're going through. I've been on Wellbutrin XL for I think about 8 or 10 years now. I've had migraines for over 30 years, and also suffer from SAD. My doc put me on propranalol to reduce the frequency of migraines, and it has helped. I didn't notice any uptick in the frequency of migraines after starting Wellbutrin. The frequency of migraines for me has always been a little erratic and unpredictable. I used to get them with my period but also at other times. Has the propranalol helped with your migraines? How long have you been on it? I've had to increase the dose a couple of times over the years to keep them under control, it's possible that raising the dosage could help you. As for the crying and exhaustion, it sounds like you have an awful lot you're trying to deal with at the moment so it's no surprise you're feeling stressed out. One of the things I like about Wellbutrin is it doesn't seem to turn me into a zombie like some of the other meds--I can still feel. It's so kind of you to think of how an absence might affect your co-workers, but you have to take care of yourself first before you can help them. It's like on the plane when the oxygen masks drop and they tell you to put on your own first before you help others. If you need some time to focus on yourself and your family and you have the ability to take family leave, that sounds like a pretty sensible thing to do. I hope things in your life level out soon and give you a chance to recover.
  7. AREEN!!!! I was so thrilled to see I had a comment from you! Of course I remember you and it's great to hear from you. I'm doing well and I hope you are too.

  8. Hey kstours! Remember me? :) Just passing by, and I saw you just had your birthday. Happy belated birthday to you. I hope you're doing well. Take care. <3

  9. Thanks, SW. That's sweet of you. I am well, thanks. Another year older but still kickin'!

  10. Happy Birthday! Hope you are doing well :)

  11. Thanks, Trace! Same to you! I'm doing good. Life is still uncertain with the house, finances and work, but the Black Beast hasn't visited me for quite a while now, thank goodness. Hope you're all doing well.

  12. I hope you had a fantastic day :)

  13. kstours

    I Don't Think This Is Ever Going To End

    I'm sorry you've had it so rough lately, charis. There could be many reasons why you've hit another rough patch. Yes, it could be the meds. I'm also on Wellbutrin but a very low dose because when I increased the dose I got severely depressed. Ironic but true. It's definitely worth talking to your doctor about how you've been feeling. It could also be the weather, or the economy, or something someone said to you, or something you saw on TV, or a cold... sometimes the strangest things can trigger a negative thinking spiral that can be hard to break. It's hard for people who don't suffer from depression (family, friends) to understand. They don't get why we can't just snap ourselves out of it. And that distance can make you feel even more isolated and alone. I'm glad you'll be seeing your therapist soon--I'm sure that talking through your feelings and frustrations will help you feel better. Until then, hang in there and know that we're all pulling for you.
  14. Thanks, all! I'm doing really well. Hope all of you are too. Hugs to all of you. I care even if I'm not a regular on here any more. Love ya!

  15. Happy Birthday. I hope you are well.

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