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So today was finally the first day of my program! Everything went pretty well I guess. Theres about 20 people in my class ranging from the young to the old so thats nice. I didn't really get a chance to talk to anyone but they all seemed decently nice. All of my counselors were very helpful and professional. Besides that it was a little boring doing some of the exercises they instructed us to do but I guess that can't be helped. Overall I think it is a really quality program that will help me a lot in the long run.

I can relate to a lot of what you wrote. Honestly I could of wrote parts of it myself. I don't have any big advice for you but others are going through similar situations so you're not alone!

I'm so so sorry to hear that happened to you. What you just described is my worst nightmare and its the reason why I'm so scared to open up to people.

I got an email back from my counselor and apparently the new start date for my program is June 10th. Also I have an appointment with a dermatologist tomorrow to address some of my old self-harm scars. I'm really really hoping the doctor doesn't just dismiss me and tell me to just wait for the scars to heal. I knows theres various treatments for scars and hopefully the doctor is willing to explore them. This is actually really important to me and I'm hoping it goes well. If I can somehow get these scars to fade a lot more it will go a long way in boosting my confidence in social situations as I won't have to constantly wear long sleeves or worry that they'll be staring at my arms the whole time.

I can't stand the taste or smell of bananas! They're just so disgusting to me!

Thank you for sharing your story with me!

Thank you for your response, it was immensely helpful! Hearing that someone went through the exact same thing as me is comforting. I'm glad you were able to overcome it!

Correct me if I'm wrong. but I thought you were doing better? From some of your post around the forums I thought you were taking your life back and making positive changes? Sorry to hear you're still struggling.

Seroquel helps me sleep at night

I ended up putting the air conditioners in the windows this weekend. It's just in time because this week it's suppose to get up to 80 degrees Fahrenheit.

Yea I'm anticipating the program being incredibly stressful on me. But who knows, I might enjoy it! I highly doubt that though lol

I think the delay is partly my fault. I was suppose to mail some forms back to my counselor who is helping me set everything up, and I took a while to mail it to her.

Well, I went to the facility today and I was told that today wasn't the day I would be starting the program. He said I would have to wait for them to call me which could take a few more weeks. Ugh, I'm so sick of waiting.

I'm starting an office training program tomorrow that will teach me basic office skills: typing, microsoft excel, etc. The program will run for a few months and will conclude with an internship. I got into the program via vocational rehabilitation which is a program that helps individuals with disabilities find jobs. This is something that has the chance to elicit real change in my life and possibly open up many new paths for me. I'm hoping it goes well and I will keep you guys updated on my progress.

I've had this same exact experience with Rexulti. My pdoc tried to prescribe it but my insurance refused to pay it. I hope you have better luck than I did.