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My internship starts tomorrow so wish me luck!

I think it would be really healthy to eliminate people from your life who you feel don't reciprocate your love and affection and only drain your energy.

The interview went well. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I think I answered all the questions thoroughly and sufficiently. I will have another interview with the person who will be my actual supervisor later this week. I think this interview will be a little more intense.

I have an interview on Monday for my internship. Hopefully it goes well.

Yesterday I had to give a PowerPoint presentation in front of the people who are in the job program with me. Everyone has to present something and we can choose whatever topic we want. It's really to get us more comfortable talking in front of people. I was pretty nervous for it and I didn't think I did that well. My presentation was on the parts that make up the inside of a computer and just providing a brief overview of what they are and what they do. I was surprised to find out several people found my presentation to not only be well done but actually informative. One person even said I was a "natural public speaker" which is something I would NEVER EVER in a million years think someone would say. I'm always nervous when I have to speak in front of people so I never thought I could possibly be good at it. That's one small victory for today!

First things first! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAILING SOUL! Second, I just want to say I'm sorry you're going through so much now and I hope things get better for you!

back mike! We're glad to see your back... well, actually not totally glad because you coming back means your depression is back... but you know what I mean. Please fill us in as to whats troubling you and I'm sure someone will have some sort of advice for you. Best of luck!

Your argument seems very well thought out and researched. I can only hope the moderators read your post and reconsider there position.

Yea I would check to see if your school has free counseling for students, I know my school did. Anybody would be stressed if they were in your shoes, you are dealing with a lot right now.

I did end up enjoying my vacation thanks. I had a brief moment of feeling emotionally overwhelmed but I just went to the bathroom like you suggested and calmed myself down. Everything else you say is absolutely true. You seem like a very wise man. Not connecting with certain person isn't the end of the world, and it doesn't mean I am somehow indadequate. I will try and remember it.

Not spreading other people's business is an admirable quality not something to be ashamed of.

What your describing Resistor is called depersonalization, the feeling that you are an outside observer to your thoughts, feelings, and or your entire body.

But you do. You're stuck at a job that constantly undermines your sanity, you're responsible for paying for a house you don't even live in, for a woman you're not even with anymore, all while being in perpetual debt yourself. And yet, day after day you do what's required of you and persevere! I'd say you're pretty damn strong!

Glad everything went well.

Hey Charlee, I'm so sorry to hear you're feeling so hopeless and sad. The weight of depression can feel almost unbearable sometimes. I'm glad you decided to get help for your depression, both in writing your problems here in the forums and seeking help in therapy. I hope your therapist is able lighten your burden and feel you with joy again. And don't worry about your message being "too depressing" this is the depression forums, this is where we come together and discuss our illness and how to get better. Never apologize for being yourself here and letting out all your thoughts and feelings. Also, I wanted to ask how you were able to tag your post with "depressed, anxious, depression, etc"? I don't know how to do it.