MrNab,
I'm so sorry to hear both of the passing of your dad, as well as your current depressive time. I lost my dad about 10 years ago, and it is really something that affects me to this day....while it is true that time heals, there is absolutely going to be a time for grieving, which is different in both time, and degree of affects. The only counsel that I can offer is:
#1. Allow yourself time for the grief to work through your system
#2 Give yourself some slack....each of us handle sadness/grief/anxiety differently, so
there is NO standard for that.
#3 Talking/sharing with others is VERY therapeutic....if you try to compartmentalize
your grief, it will only simmer, affect you for a longer duration, and continue to
negatively affect your personal relationships with friends and classmates...so maybe
take a leap-of-faith in sharing with your classmates (ONLY if it feels right).
#4 If you are struggling with your emotions, PLEASE seek-out a professional. I would
have never imagined myself sitting-down with a Clinical Social Worker, but it was
truly the best thing I have ever done for myself. DO NOT believe the old stigma
of "If he's seeing a shrink, there really is something crazy about him." That is
krappe, and those who think that are ignorant of the benefits of talk therapy.
I hope this helps, and I am sure that others on this site will chime-in as well... Just know that you are not alone in this, and posting here / expelling the inner-pressure, will benefit you, in my humble opinion. I wish you inner peace & wellness - CD