I feel like a burden to my family and friends. What really sucks is that I don't even know if my feelings are rational or not.
In social situations, like last night when a few friends were visiting for a Summer Solstice cookout...who would want to hear the thoughts of a lonely, ill, depressed guy?
So I kept my mouth shut for most of the night. I wasn't very social last night at all. It's hard for me to be sociable when I feel so awfully down.
I was polite, of course, but not at my "social best".
We did make a cool bonfire last night...and it really should have been fun for me.
But I just mostly ended up staring into the fire and thinking about lots of things...
Anyway I'm rambling again so I'll stop typing for now.
Thanks for reading and have a nice Sunday.