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  1. Interesting. I tried reading Silvia Plath and though the same about her style [impenetrable], but I really like Solomon's writing. I also relate to so much of what he is saying and he expresses some of my personal thoughts so well, even though my experience of depression is completely different. I even wonder if it is so severe and physically expressed when it hits you out of nowhere. I know I have had depression for so long and it was situational, that it kind of sneaked on me secretly.

    I have barely read 10% of the (e-)book. I've had it for a while, but what made me read it was his TED talk: http://www.ted.com/talks/andrew_solomon_depression_the_secret_we_share.html

    Same - Unlike most videos I've watched, I found his talk resonated strongly with me, so I picked up the book. His history and breakdown are completely dissimilar to my experience, but I find his abstractions of depression very meaningful. It's interesting the book was a New York Times best seller. I wonder who the average audience was/is.

    edit: some of his language are just things I was taught to dislike in scientific literature. After all the commas, semicolons, dashes, parenthetical and tangential comments, I just want to see something expressed perfunctorily. It wouldn't keep me from recommending the book to anyone.

  2. As I recall, the forums have had a few one-time posts suggesting people try CES along with recommended purchase links, and a couple anecdotal stories of people trying it and reporting no effect. Personally, I'm suspect of anyone purporting a cheap, effective panacea, especially one without significant clinical study and support.

  3. The portrait you paint is of an abusive, overbearing boyfriend. All his actions are his own choices, and any blame for the things he does begins and ends with him. If one of my peers told me the same story, I'd advise they remove him from their life entirely, and good riddance.

  4. I'd recommend you see a psychiatrist, if medication is the route you'd like to take. There are a lot of potential medications, and my feeling is that a GP isn't as qualified to make the best determination of what is appropriate for you. Some psychiatrists also offer therapy and would probably be fine starting right away rather than waiting on a medication to be effective. The advantage of therapy with a psychiatrist is there's a lot of follow-up visits to see how the medication is doing, or whether a change is needed.

  5. It sounds like grief - the perfectly normal experience of emotional suffering when losing something of value. I'm suggeting there's nothing embarassing or unusual about it. It's a fuzzy line between grief and depression, though, and I won't presume to know when someone is experiencing one and not the other. If it interferes with your ability to carry on the responsibilities of daily life, it might be time to talk to someone about it.

  6. Similar. In social situations, rather than saying my "subconscious takes over", I feel as if some nebulous and ill-defined third-party assumes control and I'm watching from some nameless place far behind my eyes. Afterwards, it feels like the social event was experienced by someone else, and I'm always inexplicably exhausted.

  7. Saros - risperidone for thought disorder... interesting (it sounds strange from apathetic person huh). How is your thought disorder? Blank mind or something different? Because if I talk to someone I suddenly get stuck in conversation. Thought blocking is a common symptom in schizophrenia... I know that schizophrenia simplex is deleted from DSM-IV. Sorry for my english if I made a mistake.

    Confusion and trouble concentrating, in gradations from an everyday nominal level to rarely mildly psychotic episodes.

    So, the psyhiatrists in holland actually are aware of the facts that

    1. anhedonia is an important sympom for patients

    2. the wokring mechanism of most meds is likely a dulling of the emotions

    and they utilize this knowledge in a sophisitacted strategy to achieve an optimal balance between contorl of dpepression/anxiety and retaining emotional capacity of patients? if this is the case i am impressed. Where do you find these people? I live in holland too btw

    Are you suggesting 1) most anhedonia is onset only after AD medication, or 2) that there's a balance point between treating depression (and concomitantly, possibly an organic anhedonia) while avoiding provoking a secondary, medication-induced anhedonia?

    I ask because, in my own case, anhedonia preceded medication. I had not considered there might be a Goldilocks point between treating existing symptoms and avoiding the fostering of new symtpoms that mimic those I'm trying to eliminate.

  8. currently 300mg wellbutrin + 3mg risperdal;

    wellbutrin for ~9 months; anhedonia seemed to break first week after starting. That benefit shortly disappeared. Tried going to 450mg, but no perceived improvement over 300mg, so returned to 300. Overall, wellbutrin improved physical mobility and got me off the floor, so to speak.

    started the risperdal (@ 1mg) about two months ago for thought disorder. The first few days after starting had some breaks in anhedonia; anhedonia shortly returned. Was fighting risperdal-induced drowsiness for a month (has since dissipated). The past week, some cursory interests have begun to appear. Curiously, they are not the same from before onset of MDD. Have had a few laughs at television, but wouldn't say I've experienced "happy" or "sad".

    To wit: after about two months, risperdal (prescribed for thought disorder) seems to be suggesting a break in anhedonia.

    edit: to be fair, some other aspects of my depression seem to be in remission in response to risperdal. I cannot say if risperdal is a direct agent responsible for a break in anhedonia, or perhaps anhedonia retreats when the umbrella of other MDD symptoms is reduced.

  9. I moved around every six-ish months for about five or six years. I felt much better the first couple months after a move. Afterwards I would decay back to a depressive state. I learned in my case I couldn't move away from depression.

    If I were in a toxic situation, I would probably try moving. I don't know how to clearly define a toxic situation.

    The therapist might be wonderful in your eyes, but maybe said therapist could give recommendations for a new therapist based on what she knows about your wife. It doesn't sound like she's interested in going back to the current.

    A change of scenery might help jump-start revisiting a therapist - but the energy (for me) wouldn't last, as I said before.

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