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  1. What you need help with? Give us a little bit of your story so we know where to start.
  2. Well if your relationship is not good for you then you have to move on. Staying and going through the same thing over and over again is not going to help. Where are your kids and how often do u see them? You need to make a plan on how to improve your situation. Make a list of things that upset you and think of ways to fix each of these individually. It will not be easy but over time you can accomplish a lot.
  3. My anxiety is worst in the morning too. I generally feel better as the day goes on.
  4. I ruminate as well. It has driven me to depression because it makes me second guess thing and makes me feel like I am a bad person. I just started paxil and have some s***ty side effects, but do not seem to ruminate as much right now. Hopefully it is working.
  5. What kind of stuff are you having trouble with. We are all here to help, but it would be beneficial to you to seek out a therapist no matter what you are dealing with. It can take awhile to get an appointment so the earlier you schedule one the better. Until then you are in the company of others here who can understand where you are coming from.
  6. Ok, no big deal. What matters is how you feel about it. What is about your alternate lifestyle that contributes to your depression and anxiety?
  7. I am curious as to what alternative lifestyle means for you. If you really do not want to say then don't, but everyone here seems to be very understanding. I am sure there is someone else on here who can relate to or understand where you are coming from.
  8. I have constant bad thoughts running through my head as well but was told I have OCD. Anxiety causes OCD which has lead to depression in my case. I guess I lucked out because I really like the therapist I am seeing and she is my first one. There are great therapist out there. It may be frustrating but all of the work to find a good one will pay off when u do.
  9. I stated taking paxil friday with half pills. First night was fine, second night was not very good and the third night was awful, probably only 3 hours of sleep off and on. 4th and 5th night we like the second. I am now taking the full 30 mg pill. So far I have experiences the following side effects: shaky hands, restless legs, sweating, headaches, and nausea. I take the pill a couple hours before bed and see most of the side effects at night or in the morning.
  10. Well you have been sober for a while, that is quite am accomplishment. I am trying to set a daily schedule to get me from just laying around all day. Set some goals for yourself. Start with some small ones and work you way up. You are young and have a man who loves you. You have plenty of time to help yourself and have a wonderful life. Start by doing something small today to address one of your issues and keep working on it. Write it down and keep track. I will be looking forward to your future posts.
  11. I went up from half pills to the full 30 mg last night. I slept ok but not great. Now I have horrible nausea and my muscles seem to ache. My hands are also shaking again.
  12. I am willing to wait it out, It is just difficult sometimes as you all understand. I want it to work and hope I do now have to switch meds several times to find something to help me. I started the Insanity workout program today. I haven't worked out in a long time so I was only able to do so much. I do feel a little better having worked out and hopefully it will help me sleep better at night. With my OCD I keep going over and over things in my head and I start to question things about myself. When I am more level headed I can put those thoughts to rest, however it always seems those thoughts creep back in and make me feel terrible about myself again. I just want to be happy and enjoy my family again.
  13. I am new here as well. I by no means an expert, but if you had success dealing with depression in the past, maybe you should try to make a plan to deal.with it this time. It may be easier said than done, but give it a try. Don't beat yourself up if you struggle with it a bit. I am just starting meds and am having side effects. I am hoping it is just like this as I start the meds and will get better with time. Were you having problems as you started out or did you take them for a while. Hopefully this page will help. From what I have seen here so far everyone seems really helpful.
  14. Where to start, I have been depressed for a while now. I feel like I am in a deep dark hole that I will never escape. I went to seek help for the first time and found out I have anxiety, Depression, and OCD. Mostly it involves me thinking about things I think I did wrong in the past. I have been taking paxil for about 3 days now. It is disrupting my sleep and makes my hands shake. I am a mess. I just don't know what to do anymore. I hate feeling like this. I have a loving wife, but she also deals with depression as well her small business and our 2 kids. She tries hard but I know she is frustrated with me because I cant bring myself to do much around the house right. I just want to feel better and will do whatever I need to to to get there
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