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About forgtmenot

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  1. Wow the response from your doctor was pretty harsh! Is this just a regular physician or a psychiatrist? If the former then I'd suggest seeing an actual psychiatrist who is used to talking to people with mental illnesses. Anyway, welcome to the forum! I really hope you are able to find a doctor that wants to help instead of just telling someone who is depressed to "stay positive". I bet you were thinking "If I could do that I wouldn't be talking to you about it now would I?" Geez... some people...
  2. Also I forgot to mention I have noticed that if I don't take the ritalin with it I am extremely drowsy and have no appetite whatsoever. Is that normal?
  3. Hey everyone. So I was put on (Fluoxetine) prozac 20mg about 2 and a half weeks ago along with methylphenidate (Ritalin) 10 mg. I am in college and last week and the first half of this week I had finals so I took the Ritalin every day to help with studying. Well in the last 3-4 days I have had a really bad stiff neck accompanied with headache at times. I thought maybe it was the Ritalin because it does make me clench my teeth when I'm on it so I figured maybe it was making me tense my muscles in general. When my doctor perscribed my meds to me she said to take breaks from the Ritalin occasionally to avoid dependence and to stretch out my prescription to make it last longer so I won't have to go to the doctor as often (I don't have insurance so money is an issue). Yesterday I took my last final exam and so today I didn't take the Ritalin because I didn't think I would need it and I wanted to see if the stiff neck went away anyway. Well it didn't and I'm starting to think it is either the Prozac or I have meningitis or something. When I say stiff neck I mean STIFF! and it hurts pretty bad too. Maybe it is just stress from studying for finals and everything lately I don't know... Did any of you experience neck stiffness on Proxac? Thanks so much!
  4. I don't know how much help I can be of but I will respond anyway. I have gotten back on anti-depressants after stopping on two occasions and they still worked. I would suggest to just wait and see and if it doesn't work maybe your pdoc can rx you something different. I have the same issue with mornings and the only thing that has helped is being on meds honestly. I would be interested to see how others respond because I haven't found a fix for it yet, Oh, and WELCOME to the forum!
  5. 53, I feel a little more than mildly depressed but I dont feel like my depression is anywhere near the worse it has ever been so I guess that's good.
  6. I have worked in call centers in the past and I found it extremely difficult due to my social anxiety. I was really good at the technical aspect of it and I enjoyed that, but I dreaded talking on the phone to people not knowing if the next person who called could be irrate and verbally abusive towards me. It was extremely stressful and I hated it. I ended up getting fired from the last call center job I had because we were required to sell a certain amount and I couldn't make sales goal because I had too much anxiety about pushing sales. Anyway, I can relate to how you're feeling, call center jobs basically suck. I figured out that I needed to do something that didn't put so much pressure on me socially. Maybe you could just look around to see if there are any job openings that you might be interested in? There is nothing wrong with quiting a job if you are miserable there. We spend so much of our lives at work, we might as well at least somewhat enjoy it!
  7. I've taken both zoloft and adderall in the past and actually those were the first meds I took after I was first diagnosed with ADD and Depression (I just started back on meds but take prozac and ritalin now).You could always try the adderall and see how it makes you feel. If after a few days or weeks of taking it you don't feel it is benefiting you, talk to your doctor about it. There is no harm in trying and what if this is the one thing that will make you feel better?
  8. A little background: I was diagnosed with ADHD (inattentive type) when I was 15 but it was suspected I probably had it from the age of 8. At 15 i was perscribed adderall and I took it for a few months. While it did make me feel more focused, I also experienced some of the zombie feeling with it and I stopped taking it. I also have taken several other meds but won't get into that. I am 27 now and in college and again was having issues with my ADHD so my pdoc perscribed that along with Prozac (for major depression). Well I took the first dose yesterday around 4:30 and I felt really good. I noticed immediately I felt like I could focus on one thing at a time and thoughts seemed clearer. I then started to get extremely sleepy within an hour or two but I believe that was the prozac. I went to bed early and woke up promptly at 6 am and took my first dose. Right now I am being told to take a half of a 10mg twice per day for the first few days and then I am supposed to work up to a full pill twice a day. Anyway after my first dose today I felt some tightening in my shoulders and I got a pretty bad headache. I haven't taken the prozac yet today because it made me so drowsy yesterday so I plan on taking it before bed tonight. I took the second half at 10:30am and again I got a headache. So I drank some water and got some fresh air. After that it mostly went away but I still have a mild headache with some tension in my neck. Is this going to go away with time or is this normal??? I did eat a decent sized breakfast after taking it and I drank 1 cup of coffee along with a couple glasses of water. Thanks
  9. I'm the opposite. I find night time calming and usually feel much better at night. When I wake up in the morning I feel overwhelmed with all that I need to get done for the day and depressed knowing I likely won't complete it all. Also I look forward to sleeping because then I don't have to think about it all.
  10. I can relate to many of the things you talk about in your post. Mainly when you talk about your high school years. You are not alone! Welcome to the forum, I'm new here too. Erica
  11. I haven't completely dropped out but I have put off finishing for several years. I'm now 27 and just entering into my sophmore year soon. I went part time most semesters and some not at all. I finally got financial aid and went full time last semester and took even more credits this semester. I did have to drop one because of my procrastination on homework and studying and I would have failed the class anyway. I'm hoping with some treatment I can finally get this over with and graduate. I get really good grades when I put my mind to it, it's just putting my mind to it that is the issue. I will put off homework essays so long that I have to wake up at 5am to do them for my 8am class! It feels better to hear that other people deal with the same things.
  12. I've had depression for a long time so no it didn't trigger it. The anxiety came much later. I believe being in college has triggered it. I have ADD and tend to procrastinate my school work which then causes me to have a panic attack. When I panic I cry, hyperventilate, and I feel like my heart is racing. It feels so awful sometimes I just want to die. I am not really dealing with it as I still have panic attacks sometimes. I also worry constantly in general about dying, other people dying, having a disease (most recently I've been worrying constantly about having HIV which I most likely do not have but am too scared to get tested haha I reaize how insane this is). I also have social anxiety and I have very few friends because of this. Anxiety runs my life pretty much.
  13. Sorry I forgot to mention a couple things. I have over the last 4 years repeatedly tried to "self medicate" with opiates mainly and alcohol at times. I was briefly addicted to pain meds for a few months but I quit cold turkey. I will never allow myself to get completely absorbed in drug addiction because of anxiety I have of over-dosing. I still occasionally use opiates, maybe once a month recreationally. The only time I really experience true happiness is when I'm experiencing the euphoria of the opiates. I'm not physically addicted to them, but there is a mental addiction there. I could not tell you that I will never touch them again, because that would be like saying I will never see a sunset or the ocean again. It's like seeing the light after being consumed in darkness for weeks on end. I'm hoping being on anti-depressants again will allow me to see that light without opiates.
  14. Hi I'm new here, but not new to depression. I am a 27 year old female and I was diagnosed in an inpatient facility with depression at the age of 15. I had an incredibly rough childhood with 2 severly traumatic experiences which I think triggered the depression. At that time I was also diagnosed with ADHD. I was perscribed Celexa and Adderall at the time. After I was released I took the medication for several months and they did help, but I started to feel like a zombie and I refused to take them anymore. 5 years later I was married and my husband at the time (ex now) was very abusive. After one of his abusive incidents sent me to the hospital I threatened to **** myself and was commited for about 2 weeks. During that time I was told I had "chronic depression" and would probably need to be on meds for the rest of my life. I was put on Celexa again. They also tried several anti-psychotics in combination to enhance the effects of the anti-depressant, but I had bad reactions to each of them, the worst being Risperdal which I ended up being allergic to. I then refused to take any anti-psychotics because of the effects. So I got discharged with just the Celexa. After the 2 weeks in the hospital on Celexa I finally relized I needed to leave my husband. I atribute this mainly to the anti-depressants finally kicking in. So I left him and went back to live with my mother in my home state. I didn't try to find a doctor close to me and stopped taking the meds again. That was the last time I was on medication and was 7 years ago. Since then I've suffered from depression but just put up with it because I no longer have insurance. I've finally gone back to college, and the adhd has returned as well as the depression has gotten worse and I now am having panic attacks occasionally. I am very capable of doing well in school but tend to procrastinate until the very last minute on assignments, once I get to that very last minute I freak out and start having a panic attack. The last really bad panic attack I had, I said enough is enough. I called a psychiatrist and asked them how much it would be to be seen without insurance. It's going to cost me $400 up front and $100 each visit following. It's a lot of money, but I just can't take it anymore. I have a wonderful life now, a boyfriend of 4 years who loves and supports me, we are financially stable and life is good. Logically I know my life is good, but I can't appreciate any of the things I have. No matter how hard I try I only see the bad in my life and I dwell on the past continuously. I've also gained about 20 lbs in the last year, I was always thin before and would actually not eat when I was depressed, now it has turned into the opposite and I eat when I'm upset or bored. I have few friends and I don't allow people to get close to me. I also am incredibly shy and have been my entire life, I think there could be some underlying S.A.D. there too. Anyway,.my appointment is tomorrow and I'm extremely nervous as I've never talked to anyone outside an inpatient facility. I don't know what to tell her or what she will ask. I'm worried to be seen as pill seeking so I'm worried I'll say the wrong things. I'm excited about it, because I feel like this could change my life for the better, but I'm also so scared. Sorry this post was so long, but I felt like I needed to talk about my background a little bit. Kudos to you if you read the whole thing! If anyone has any advice as far as talking to the doc it would be much appreciated! Erica
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