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JD4010

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    JD4010 got a reaction from sober4life in How Do You Feel Right Now #10   
    I was doing pretty good in spite of not sleeping last night. But then one of my coworkers told me something the boss said/did before I got to work this morning. I'm becoming increasingly aranoid because of my boss. All of the evidence points to the fact that he has it out for me.
    Wage slavery sucks.
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    JD4010 got a reaction from sober4life in How Do You Feel Right Now #10   
    Well, of course you deserve a happy ending, especially given the vast amount of crap you have faced over the years.
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    JD4010 reacted to evalynn in How Do You Feel Today? #33   
    Ok, I'm calm.
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    JD4010 reacted to evalynn in How Do You Feel Today? #33   
    like a failure, ugly, disgusting, bad, like there's something inside me that's bad that will never be good or clean or right. i want to lie down and never wake up.
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    JD4010 reacted to Handon Frypan in How Do You Feel Today? #33   
    Had a very good medical appointment yesterday, which was a welcome surprise. But now I'm dealing with a conflict with my mother regarding that. At 43. I'm just tired of it.
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    JD4010 reacted to AloneGuy in How Do You Feel Today? #33   
    I hope you get through the meeting okay.
    Yeah when I'm really tired and foggy, specifically from not sleeping well, coffee just makes me feel worse.  I get all jittery and anxious.        
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    JD4010 got a reaction from CoffeeAddict103 in How Do You Feel Right Now #10   
    I was doing pretty good in spite of not sleeping last night. But then one of my coworkers told me something the boss said/did before I got to work this morning. I'm becoming increasingly aranoid because of my boss. All of the evidence points to the fact that he has it out for me.
    Wage slavery sucks.
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    JD4010 got a reaction from CoffeeAddict103 in How Do You Feel Right Now #10   
    Well, of course you deserve a happy ending, especially given the vast amount of crap you have faced over the years.
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    JD4010 got a reaction from AloneGuy in How Do You Feel Today? #33   
    Same here. We had several lines of thunderstorms move through here overnight. I love listening to storms but my cats got nerved out by them. They were jumping on and off the bed every few minutes. I don't think I slept more than 30 minutes straight.
    I'm supposed to attend a heavy duty meeting in an hour and I'm not sure I will be able to function at it. All coffee is doing is making me jittery.
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    JD4010 reacted to Handon Frypan in How Do You Feel Today? #33   
    I feel overscheduled. Plus, I have some anxiety bout my next phase of life. 
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    JD4010 reacted to AloneGuy in How Do You Feel Today? #33   
    Had a rough night and I'm really dragging today.  Heavy brain fog.  Just gotta get through the day and hopefully sleep better tonight.
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    JD4010 reacted to CoffeeAddict103 in How Do You Feel Right Now #10   
    I have no drive. No appetite for this life anymore. I wish I was exaggerating.
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    JD4010 reacted to sober4life in How Do You Feel Right Now #10   
    I feel pretty good today.  I have an opportunity coming up in my life on August 5th.  I need to get myself to my best on that day.  I'm willing to try as hard as I can at least until then.  It's something to keep fighting for.
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    JD4010 reacted to sober4life in How Do You Feel Right Now #10   
    I've always seen you as a strong person a force to be reckoned with.  I always have and always will have faith in you.  You need to look in the mirror and see the person I see.  However things go stop being so hard on yourself.
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    JD4010 reacted to RiverLight in How Do You Feel Right Now #10   
    I had a really tough interview yesterday and feel really discouraged. At my level in my field I get test questions and case scenarios and it's only just gets harder the higher you rise. A lot of the knowledge I've gained has slipped through my fingers over the years. I don't know what I am going to do. I feel very stuck. I should take another certification course, I haven't in a couple years and I worry I don't have the energy.
    Not only that, but I asked my boss to take social marketing off my plate, and I think he's angry. But at the same time, he kind of dumped it ALL on me when I expressed interest. 
    I wish work was easier for me. I am really down right now. 
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    JD4010 reacted to Rattler6 in How Do You Feel Right Now #10   
    Oddly relaxed.  Contractors broke their toys again but I get to charge for standby.  I was hoping for at least 40 hours this week but no.  I was kind of pissed these last 2 nights about going home early but that is not going to get me more time on the clock. 
    So a bit disappointed. 
     
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    JD4010 reacted to sober4life in How Do You Feel Right Now #10   
    I don't know.  What it comes down to for me is I'm just too damaged from life I think.  I've been through too much.  Like I've said before I'm like a puzzle and every time I fall apart I put the pieces back together but another piece is gone each time.  I think about half the pieces are missing at this point.  It's a miracle I'm even able to function in society anymore.
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    JD4010 reacted to MarkintheDark in How Do You Feel Right Now #10   
    I'm tired out from the heat and some unexpected activity, but in a good way.
    A photo opp came up out of the blue midday Wednesday, so a few of us made up a kinda ad hoc group to participate.  Considering I hadn't been out for ten days, it got me back in the swing of things.  Short term, that cleared out the cobwebs.  We got to see each other and have a good time.
    Personally, I think I overdid.  I'm not in such a great space tonight, despite having a lovely afternoon with the guys.  I'm feeling tired and fighting off an anxiety attack.  Given the afternoon, I'm confused about these feelings...and don't even feel like examining or talking about them right now.
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    JD4010 reacted to Soarsie18 in How Do You Feel Right Now #10   
    how are we ever going to be alright again 😞
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    JD4010 reacted to nojoy in How Do You Feel Right Now #10   
    🎈🎈 Congratulations!!!!
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    JD4010 reacted to Devlinkyla in How Do You Feel Right Now #10   
    Today my heart and body hurts
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    JD4010 reacted to sober4life in How Do You Feel Right Now #10   
    Nirvana, Soundgarden, Johnny Cash, Hank Williams, Amy Winehouse all summed up my life very well.
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    JD4010 reacted to CoffeeAddict103 in How Do You Feel Right Now #10   
    I am like morrissey. Without the talent, good looks, and wit of course. He is my hero. Without his songs and lyrics I don't know if I'd survive. It's like my life is being written about and put into songs. Love kurt too. 
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    JD4010 reacted to sober4life in How Do You Feel Right Now #10   
    Music affects me more than anything.  It's more powerful than any drug I've ever tried.  I almost always have it on the entire day.
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    JD4010 reacted to sober4life in How Do You Feel Right Now #10   
    I know how you feel.  I feel the same way.  My life keeps getting better as well but I never get better mentally.  I could win the lottery and still feel like I'm at rock bottom emotionally.  I'm like Kurt Cobain.  I had a dream for myself but once I got there I decided I didn't like any of it.  None of it made me any happier.
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