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JD4010

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    JD4010 got a reaction from AloneGuy in Instrumentals.....   
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    JD4010 got a reaction from 20YearsandCounting in Instrumentals.....   
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    JD4010 got a reaction from 20YearsandCounting in Instrumentals.....   
    Well, you asked. 🙂
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    JD4010 got a reaction from 20YearsandCounting in Instrumentals.....   
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    JD4010 got a reaction from samadhiSheol in Uniformity...what is that?   
    @Natasha1 This made me think of something I've noticed over the years. I'll be sitting in a meeting where staff are expected to "contribute". There seems to be plenty of give and take, with people understanding what the others are saying. But when I reply, the conversation quickly grinds to a halt. People stare at me as if I just spoke Martian. The only conclusion I can make is that I am not on the same wavelength as everyone else. It's disconcerting as hell, as if I am not understanding what people are saying. I don't want to join in as a result.
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    JD4010 reacted to Natasha1 in Uniformity...what is that?   
    EXACTLY! @JD4010 thats totally what i go through. Or i am ignored. Or im given a response that totally goes off the topic i brought up. or the response shows they arent really listening (or they are too dense to get what i am saying,). 
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    JD4010 reacted to Natasha1 in I hate you   
    No idea
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    JD4010 got a reaction from Natasha1 in I hate you   
    Wow. I don't like the sound of that. Not one bit.
    You OK?
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    JD4010 got a reaction from watalife in Futility and void   
    I discovered my purpose long ago: it's to absorb bad luck from the universe so that other people can lead happier lives. 
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    JD4010 reacted to samadhiSheol in Zeit   
    Ah.
    It's a detail from an illustration from Dante's "Divine Comedy", the Ninth Circle of Hell I believe, by Gustave Dore. The Ninth circle was the "traitor's "circle(I think).
    I would be in the seventh circle.
    That's for the violent ones. Suicides etc.
    I don't believe hell is place you end up in when you die. It's a state of mind in the here and now.
    When you are dead you are dead.
     
     
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    JD4010 got a reaction from samadhiSheol in Zeit   
    Apropos of nothing, I like your background picture above. 
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    JD4010 got a reaction from 20YearsandCounting in Wait, I Have a Legit Excuse Now...   
    Ouch! Hope it heals quickly.
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    JD4010 reacted to samadhiSheol in Futility and void   
    I'd settle with purpose to be honest. Well-being..I am not even sure what it means any more as I doubt everything and every meaning of everything... Haha.
    Part of the problem if you can even call it a problem is the realization that I have, in effect, lived in a lie. I have lied to myself all my life.  I want this or that, I want to spend time with these people or doing whatever. In fact It would seem my whole life is fundamentally skewed. As to why I haven't done anything according to my true feelings or inclinations..I am lacking in that respect. I don't know what I want. I don't know who I am. I have never known. I seem to be  a set of biological functions and that's about it.
    Now I stand at a junction of what was, The Lie and the road of emptiness (more lies?),  or perhaps my True North. If it even exists.
     
     
     
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    JD4010 reacted to samadhiSheol in Futility and void   
    ...Ahem..just wanted to say that though all the above is true enough, I tend to go overk ill when my mind goes on a tangent breaking orbit into the great unknown.. and I am truly sorry for the negative outbursts. Sorry @Depressedgurl007. You deserve better than my puerile explosion.
    Season's greetings and all that. I mean it boys and girls, I hope next year will be better for all of us.
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    JD4010 reacted to Depressedgurl007 in Demons   
    I love your way with words thank you so much. I really don’t believe I’m the light though. But you’re right, time is an illusion created by us.. I should focus on what I have now in the present, thanks for making me realise this 🙂 
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    JD4010 reacted to Depressedgurl007 in Demons   
    And we are supposed to embrace our stupidity, our selfishness and our arrogance cos without them, we will not know how to be selfless and kind. But it just makes me feel sad that the world and we humans exists this way. I just wish that I don’t have any feelings and emotions at all. 
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    JD4010 got a reaction from Depressedgurl007 in Demons   
    Ha. You could well be channeling me with those first five or six sentences.
    I loathe myself, completely.
    I'm very sorry you are suffering through something similar. It's horrendous. I hope you are able to get out of the rut quickly.
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    JD4010 reacted to Natasha1 in The Man who Sucks Infinitely   
    Dear JD, i am so sorry. From what i remember, you were given no reason whatsoever. Just bocked out. Thats not right and you are quite possibly wrong about this. All i see from you is a kind and caring person. And she is missing your wonderfulness. 
    I know what that thought process is like. I hate that you are going through that. We all love you here. Please try not to let this hurt you further.
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    JD4010 got a reaction from 20YearsandCounting in My Mental Attitude..   
    Me three. I'm sitting here thinking how ridiculously absurd much of what I do at work is.
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    JD4010 got a reaction from samadhiSheol in God, redemption and everything   
    Absolutely fascinating. Something I need to ponder for a bit (a long bit, given my slow thought process). 
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    JD4010 got a reaction from Depressedgurl007 in I can’t do this anymore.   
    Happy to be there.
    The little things are what keep me afloat too. This morning, the alarm went off and I realized my cats were snuggled up close to me in bed. I ignored the alarm for awhile and just lay their thinking about how wonderful it was. One of those moments of unexpected bliss that make it seem worthwhile.
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    JD4010 reacted to Depressedgurl007 in I can’t do this anymore.   
    Just reading n hearing my words is enough..thanks for sharing my pain with me. Being grateful for what little things I have is all I’m holding on to. 
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    JD4010 reacted to Gisele in "You have to love yourself." What BS.   
    When greeting cards and fridge magnets salt fertile minds, pop psychology is what we get. Self-worth and self-love are not the same thing. Self-worth is the thing that won't let you take no for an answer and try again, tomorrow, to be a genius. 
    All love is respiratory. Breath love into what you do and love will come back. Sometimes we have to re-learn this. 
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    JD4010 got a reaction from Depressedgurl007 in Still hating myself   
    Wow. He's something else. But you knew that already.
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    JD4010 reacted to Depressedgurl007 in Still hating myself   
    That’s the problem. When I enter this house, I’m able to travel back in time by centuries.. It’s so ridiculous and I quietly take all this in while I’m still able to endure it..till I get a house of my own.
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