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JD4010 last won the day on September 17

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About JD4010

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  1. JD4010

    How Do You Feel Right Now #8

    Ya. I gave up drinking entirely for this reason. I'd feel especially horrible the next day, and often the day after that too. The escape is nice, but very short term. And then you really pay for it. The price wasn't worth it any more.
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    Do you structure your "off time"

    I second all of that. I'm to the point where I won't leave my apartment unless I have to--work, appointments, chauffeuring my daughter to her job or whatever... I personally don't like the idea of a schedule for off-time. That makes it seem too much like "work". Deadlines make me very anxious. On the other hand, who knows? Maybe it would help me get out more.
  3. JD4010

    What's On Your Mind Right Now? (2)

    I don't know why people can't just mind their own beeswax. They seem compelled to get all up in your face about petty stuff. They don't deal well with crazy dudes like me.
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    What's On Your Mind Right Now? (2)

    The city I live in is chock full of festivals. I used to attend many of them. But over the last couple of years, I've quit going. I'm always disappointed with how people act. I've never been comfortable in crowds, either. Fun for me is now hanging out online in antique car groups or watching a movie on my old TV with my cats sitting with me.
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    Let us know what you find out. When I started citalopram, I felt like my brain was being squeezed in a vice. It was almost too much for me to stand. It went on for 3 weeks...and then suddenly was gone. I came so close to giving it up.; I hope they figure out what's going on for you.
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    "In My Garden"

    I had a bit of a breakdown at work today. I flashed onto the name of a daycare center near here. It's called "In My Garden". That sent me down into a spiral of despair and regret. When my daughter was little, probably 18 years ago, we made her a reading nook in the back yard. It was nestled in between some tall shrubbery, more or less hidden from view. We created a fairy ring/garden in the middle of it. She loved to sit in there, enjoying the refuge from "the real world". I loved to see her in there of course...knowing that she was insulated from the ugliness of this F'd up world. There are billions of kids in this world. A majority of them are dying of disease, starvation, and neglect. Others are being blown to bits in wars over greed and power. All kids should have a place in a garden of their own. I wish my daughter didn't have to grow up in such a sick mess that we humans have created. I'm so damned sad just thinking about it, to the point of despair.
  7. JD4010

    How Do You Feel Right Now #8

    I'm a bit energized. Just finished a performance review at work. I continue to suck, but I'm apparently making a little progress towards sucking less. I gotta pull it all together in the next 2 weeks or I'll get the bum's rush out the back door. As bad as I can hate the job, I desperately need the money (as we all do). Gotta keep that hamster wheel spinning.
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    So long self-esteem!

    Wow. I see many familiar themes in there. I'm on the verge of losing my position as the head of a unit too. Poor job performance. I'll admit to sucking quite badly. I have very low self esteem as well. I went bald at the age of 19, back when lots of hair was in style. Now I'm just this old bald guy who looks like so many other old bald guys., Anyway, I wish you the best with your return to work. Wish we could all win the lottery and be done with work.
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    How Do You Feel Right Now #8

    I wonder if we are of similar age. If I was a horse, I would have been put out to pasture long ago. In fact, I'd probably be glue by now. But in this wonderful society in which we live, we have to work like fiends until we die.
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    How Do You Feel Right Now #8

    Wow. I'm living vicariously through you here! I'm envious of your ability to ride big & fast bikes. They still fascinate me, even though I no longer ride. I enjoy the high torque engines like that Thruxton has. I frankly don't like the 9000 RPM shifts...even though that's where the power is made. Same with cars--I'd rather have large displacement engines that have a lot of grunt at low RPM, instead of smaller engines that you have to wind the whee out of all the time. My old minivan has a pushrod V6 in it. Great torque at low RPM--just the way it should be for a heavy vehicle! Sorry, I geek out with gearhead stuff.
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    The ogre that is my boss

    @DeeBear Wow! You recognized the car. Indeed it is a '56 DeSoto Fireflite ragtop. Everything is perfect about that car, including the color scheme! Knocks at the door trigger me as well. So does the ringing of the phone. I guess I like human contact to be on my own terms. And rare.
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    I hear ya, bro. I dream of being set afloat on an iceberg and freezing to death.
  13. JD4010

    Nihilist, part two.

    Yes, being an automaton seems appealing. Just let the frontal lobes shrivel so thinking gets minimized. I feel the very same way. I live with the constant notion that no matter what I do, it will be "wrong"...or at the very least, it won't make a bit of difference. This causes me to lock up like a computer with too many applications open at one time. I freeze...and then do nothing. I've been a nihilist since high school. And that was over 40 years ago.
  14. JD4010

    How Do You Feel Right Now #8

    I feel overwhelmed at work. As usual. Back when I applied for this position (9 years ago) it was far less demanding. Since then, we have taken on so many additional new projects. My boss has also become much more of a hard-@ss. I shouldn't complain but I'm dealing with severe burn out.
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    I'm on a combo of Citalopram and Bupropion (Wellbutrin). I got put on the Wellbutrin after losing all of my energy after starting Citalopram. It helped in that respect. I ran out of Wellbutrin once and had to go several days without it. That really sucked. I felt like climbing the walls. I guess the bottom line is that I find it effective. My initial period with it was unremarkable; I don't remember any ill effects. Of course I was already on Citalopram so who knows? Best wishes to you!