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  1. It is abominably hot today, I am having difficulty breathing cuz the air feels so dense. What even is this
  2. Not at night, but during the daytime I have the heater or air purifier running, or I listen to white noise track on my computer. It's probably awful for the ears but it blocks out a lot of unpleasant things...
  3. Same. I'm supposed to live another 40-50 years on the very slim chance that something good might happen? Nothing's going to make up for all the trauma I've dealt with, I am so tired of it all.
  4. My family is beyond exhausted dealing with my older brother. Lately he says threatening things to my dad and then my dad urges him on, tells my brother to attack him. My dad is at his wits end but he still won't kick him out because he doesn't think he can care for himself. Everyone is terrified of my brother but he's just a coward...he's nothing but a coward. Too scared to live alone, expects everyone to do his bidding...he's garbage personified. But that's an insult to garbage. I wish someone would exorcise that demon out of our life.
  5. My brother's birthday is soon and mine soon after that. Mid-30s now and at this point I feel I've wasted my life entirely. I finished my final assignment for a class I'm taking - an assignment I've spent a ridiculous amount of time on - and just said to myself, "That was stupid and meaningless. No one will see this besides your teacher and he'll forget it right after he marks it. This isn't important work, it contributes nothing to the world. Why are you wasting your time? Why are you here?" So that's where I'm at...as if I'm so important that I deserve a hero's story or something. And then I remembered a depression test I had to answer in high school. I lied on that stupid test to seem not depressed and I STILL tested positive for mild depression. Meanwhile my friend got not depressed at all. Nothing changed for me, I just lie less about it now...
  6. I hear they're making a 4th SG series but I'm not falling for it I haven't watched Firefly but I also hear that's getting rebooted on Disney+. Everything old in sci-fi becomes new again!
  7. I watch very sad movies. If my depression is bad, even that won't help. I think it has something to do with not having compassion for myself but having it for others. Like it's wasted tears on me, but it makes sense to cry for people who are "worth it".
  8. The show that made me stop watching SyFy for 10 years because I was so angry they cancelled it
  9. Yay! Yeah, it has been nice to watch and take my mind off things too, I haven't had many "laugh out loud" moments the past year but I've done it several times with this show. Harry is relatable, and as the show goes on even the seemingly normal people do "abnormal" things. It seems to be settling down now and I really enjoyed episode 5, even the other characters get better.
  10. Trying to take solace that I will die eventually, whether I do anything or not. And if I'm lucky there will not be any garbage to deal with like an afterlife or reincarnation and I'll just be done. So I just have to exist until I'm dead. And that's something I can do
  11. For sure check it out! I know I sound a bit down on it, but the parts that I like I really like and I've watched the first few episodes a few times already.
  12. Resident Alien. Alan Tudyk is great and I love the alien-masquerading-as-human trope, but everything else is meh. Plus it's on SyFy so they'll probably cancel it
  13. It's hypervigilance. Not just your mind, but your body is so used to being on alert for the next high-stress situation. My previous therapist told me I need to self-soothe mentally (tell yourself there is no danger, watch a calming video, listen to some nice music) and physically (figure out what part of your body is reacting and soothe it, so this might include stroking your chest, hugging a pillow, curling your toes). I am terrible at this, but maybe it will work for you.
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