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  1. Thank you for the support guys!!! Still not feeling great but I know I will feel okay again soon x
  2. Hey! I have the same type of problems as you. I have been on various anti-depressants for 2-3 years and always suffered the lack of motivation and tiredness. The main medication I have been on was Prozac, however, have had this supplemented at different times with Wellbutrin, Modafinil, Vyvanse (ADD med) to try and give me energy. Nothing really works!!!! I was on Pristiq for a short time and did note that I felt quite switched on and motivated, however it was making me really hungry and sweaty so I went off it. I thought Effexor worked on your dopamine levels, and I know that Wellbutrin does, so I am not sure that is your problem. However, I have no idea what it is, and don't know what mine is either. Let me know if you work it out!
  3. Yes, I have had it undiagnosed on and off most of my life since being 13. I am now 33. It saddens me also as I used to be a very smart and bright child. I was elevated a year at the start of high school as I was ahead of my peers. Then it's like the depression started eating away at my brain. I became extremely self-concious, developed an eating disorder, became anxious and depressed and had no motivation to study or find a good job. I feel like I lost a huge part of my life and opportunities because of this disease, and like I cant explain that to anyone who has not had chronic depression or mental illness.
  4. 1. Will these medicines cause problems during pregnancy? I do not know about those particular medications, however there are medications available (eg. prozac) which are shown not to cause problems during pregnancy 2. Will these medicines result into birth of abnormal child like with down syndrome or any other symptoms No they will not cause down syndrome. Usually the effects of anti-depressants on an unborn child is that the newborn is addicted to the medication and will cry more and maybe not sleep as well as it does not have the medication in its system anymore. 3. Can she be a normal mom? YES! 4. Is there a chance that she can be taken off her daily dose and live a normal life without medicines? I am afraid that her condition may get worse after marriage and post pregnancy. Yes. But she may also require medication for rest of her life. It depends 5. Can she pass her illness to children? Diseases such as depression are often hereditary
  5. Today: I started working on this application for a promotion at work; I did my washing; I went to the gym; I re-joined these forums; I made dinner
  6. Hi all So about 3 months ago following my p-docs advise I went off prozac as it was making me really tired. He told me to go and see him after a week off it, but as I was feeling so good at that time, and it is so expensive to see him, I did not go back. For about 4-6 weeks I felt on top of the world. I had so much energy, I felt happy, I felt better then I had in all my life. I thought I was cured. Fast forward to now. I feel more depressed then I ever have in my life. I am so tired I can barely move or talk or smile. I used to be a person that smiled alot. I have alot going for me in life, but I feel so depressed. I have had some form of mental illness since I was 13. I have made the decision to go back on medication. I can now see the huge disparity between the medicated me and unmedicated me. I am so paranoid off my medication, and not a nice person to be around. I cant wait to get back to where I was before. Anyway, I just felt like posting this to see if anyone can respond as I was feeling so lost. x
  7. Thanks for the reply Siegfried. I have been on it for about 6 weeks and definitely lost weight. I havent weighed myself in a few weeks but I had already lost 3kg, and today my dad commented I had lost weight, and he never notices things like that. To be honest, I started taking it because I have no energy and the prozac seems to **** it even more. Isn't wellbutrin meant to be some kind of stimulant too? I feel like sleeping all the time even when I take this, I don't know what is wrong with me!
  8. Hi all, after trialling many diff ADDs and generally feeling tired and fat on all of them, I talked my psychiatrist into prescribing Zyban for me! For some reason in Australia, Drs are extremely reluctant to prescribe it. My GP said it wasn't even on the market anymore as they pulled it due to seizure risk. Obviously he is uninformed as my psychiatrist has presribed it and I am taking it. I was on 150mg or first month and 20mg prozac, and now I have upped to 300mg full dose and lowered prozac to 10mg. So far it's really good :-) My psychiatrist was concerned about me drinking any alcohol on it due to the seizure risk, but I assured him I wouldn't, Also do people know if it has the weight loss effects the same as Wellbutrin? It seems like its the same drug. I have lost a couple of kg on it as it has reduced my appetite, but definitely expected to lose more as I gained 7kg whilst on different AD's over the last year. Maybe reducing the prozac will help that too
  9. I too am on this combination of 20mg prozac and 150mg wellbutrin *high five*. I was on Prozac for close to a year though, and it was causing me to be quite tired, plus I put on 5 kg from stopping exercising and binge eating all the time (I had a binge eating problem before the Prozac). Then I asked my psychiatrist to let me add on wellbutrin and he did. Only the first day today. I am hoping I can have some additional energy and maybe lose a few kg. I took it this morning and feel no different. I even just had a big nap in the afternoon. We will see how this combination goes
  10. Well I am a young single person, so I do go out sometimes with friends, and many of them enjoy drinking. Unfortunately I find that drinking is horrible for my anxiety and depression. Pre anti-depressants I would be so anxious and low the day after drinking. I was almost suicidal. Now that I take anti-depressants, my reaction the next day isn't so bad, however I find that it makes me really tired, flat and like crying for days after. I think I need to make the decision to stop drinking,. It is hard though when it's such a common thing to do with young people. Previously when I have had nights out and decided to abstain, I always get quizzed and people put me down because I am not drinking! Frustrating
  11. Women do love confidence, you are right. I believe that men also love confidence. The thing with confidence is that it is really easy to fake it. I am sorry to hear your confidence has taking a dive. Mine is also bad at the moment due to the fact I have gained a bit of weight and feel really unattractive. If you don't have confidence, you can fake it, and you can also work on ways to instill more confidence in yourself and self-esteem. Have you ever received feedback from these girls about why they stopped messaging? It may have nothing to do with you ,and might be their own issue. I know it does suck as I have had it happen to me too. But I have done it to guys too, and not necessarily because they have done anything wrong, just because I am unstable and don't like people I hardly know or who I have only dated a few times see me like that. I feel like I will be alone forever too. I actually alike being alone as it is so much easier. I was invited on a date tonight with a guy I went on with a couple of dates before but then I was in my head for ages thinking about whether I really saw a future with him, and how I felt fat. I am taking steps to overcome this fatness feeling, I have enrolled in this thing at the gym which I am motivated to go to and cant wait to start. Maybe you need to find that thing that will help you restore your confidence too?? What are your hobbies, interests? What attracts you about the opposite sex? Strive to have the qualities you are attracted too, and then you are more likely to attract someone of those qualities and be like that yourself :-)
  12. It is a hard mind field Lauryn for us with binge eating problems! Do I eat it, do I not. I wouldn't worry about drinking a milkshake if it didn't then go on to form a binge. The problem is not eating chocolate or milkshakes, it's when you beat yourself up about it and then go on to full binge mode. <- Trying to teach myself this at moment. Maybe we need a 2015 beat the binge post
  13. Hello all I have spent a bit of time wondering if I am actually 'depressed.' In 2013 I had been diagnosed by two GPs with depression, as I was having troubles sleeping and have binge eating issues. Subsequently I was put on anti-depressants. In the last 14 months or so I have been on 4 or 5 different anti-depressants as I was getting side effects with every one I took. So, my brain has been stuffed around alot this year. Am I sleeping better? Yes Is my binge eating better? No Do I actually have depression? I do not know I was seeing a psychologist on and off from 2007 to 2013 for my eating disorder, and she did not think I had depression. Also in 2004 I was diagnosed with Bipolar by a psychiatrist, which has since been refuted by several GPs and another psychiatrist. My current GP thinks I have OCD also and whenever I complain to him about my side effects he thinks I am obsessing over them and complaining too much.' I actually think I have Narcissistic Personality Disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder as I meet the DSM critera for that. It is hard to tell if I have depression as my mood has always been up and down and all over the place! I have a bit of a low mood sometimes and other times I am completely "high". I think that's just the way I am though and that does not mean that I have a mental illness. I think my eating disorder and personality disorders attribute to that. Sure the medication numbs me, and makes me more stable, but since I have been on them I am not seeing improvements in the quality of my life. In fact I have gained 6kg, I have lost my motivation to do things like go to the gym and cook dinner, and I am so nonchalent I no longer care what people think at all. I do like the fact that I no longer have to worry about falling asleep as I sleep better. But I am still quite tired and feel unmotivated. I think I had more 'up and go' when I was not on them. Sure I think I have chemical imbalances in my brain. But do I really need to be on medication to try and fix them and put up with side effects, or can just learn to live with my personality traits. I don't know what to do anymore. My GP says I can come off them if I want, but he thinks I will just end up back on them again. Also another thing, I feel that I cant have a relationship whilst I am on the meds as my libido has gone, also I am emotionless and no longer care about much. I am 33 and would like to get married one day, I cant see myself meeting anyone and opening up myself when I am so emotionally numb.
  14. Hello Odie and thank you for your reply. I am sorry to hear of your struggle also! They say that in the future there will be better treatment options available for depression then anti-depressants. I know they work for a lot of people, but for me, the side-effects make them intolerable. I would like to start 2015 well and really make an effort to look after myself, but when you are lacking energy it is hard! It is like being on a merry go round. I hope your sleeping improves too. I am always 'in my head' and thinking about things, this is why I have trouble sleeping and falling asleep. On medication, I fall asleep easily and could sleep for 10 hours, but I have so much trouble getting out of bed in the morning. Before ADs I would sleep 5 hours in a night and wake up feeling fresher then when I have slept 8 hours on medication. Life isn't easy! But it could be worse hey :-) Hopefully our symptoms improve in 2015!
  15. Hello everyone! I don't know what to do anymore. My history of mental illness includes: Binge Eating Disorder, Insomnia, Mild Anxiety, Chronic but mild-moderate Depression, slight OCD and NPD I am 33, and most of this has been going on since I was 15. When I was in my teenage and early 20s I would self medicate with partying and recreational drugs. I have seen psychologists, had CBT, had group therapy, psychiatrists and the like. In 2013 after visiting GPs for insomnia, I was started on ADs. In the course of 13 months, two GPs and the consulting psychiatrist have prescribed the following medications: Cipramil 3 months - Fatigue, sleep issues Cymbalta 2 months - Constipation Prozac 6 months - Fatigue Topomax 1 month - Fatigue Pristiq 2 months - Weight gain, voracious appetite and now, back on to Prozac to circumvent the Pristiq withdrawal symptoms. I have been taking it for 3 weeks. Prozac is my favourite AD out of all of them, however it makes me SO tired. I can barely walk up the steps in my house, and I have to leave work early on occasion to sleep! I just don't know what to do anymore. I feel like I cant talk to my GP, as he thinks I am OCD and complain too much about the tiredness of the pills. He just tells me it's normal. I don't think it is 'normal' as it is effecting my day to day life and even my work. I have blood tests done and I am fine. I had another GP I was seeing, but he has moved interstate .I don't really want to start with another GP again as I just feel that I am chasing my tail. I don't even know if I should be on medication. My insomnia is better, but I am tired quite often anyway. My binge eating is no better, in fact my weight has increased. I am less anxious now and my mood has improved a bit. Prior to meds I was going to the gym more, I was cooking dinner more often, I cared what people thought .I would be prone to anxiety and insomnia though. My anxiety was never that bad that it made me locked indoors, only on the occasions when I could barely sleep then I would get heightened paranoia, it was more just compulsive worrying about what people thought of me. My depression was never suicide idealation. Another thing I am worried about is that the medication has killed my libido. I was dating a man this year but my desire for sex was so low. Now i Just prefer to be single as it is easier. I am 33 years old and want to get married one day, I dont want my lack of libido to get in the way of that. Now I am at a crossroads. I re-started the Prozac 3 weeks ago to wean off the Pristiq. I want to stop the Prozac now as I am so tired. My GP wants me to try Effexor. I don't want to try another AD. Maybe I can try to fix myself through healthy eating and exercise?. This is harder then it seems when you have an eating disorder though. But I have to do this, as I cant continue living like this. GPs and Psychiatrists just want to keep prescribing medication without worrying about the side effects SORRY about the long post, I hope someone reads this :-)
  16. That is an interesting method of trying to meet the opposite sex. I doubt that your looks had anything to do with it, but rather the medium for which you chose to do it on. There are many sites and applications that people generally use to meet people on, but Twitter and YouTube generally aren't the ones?? If you must do it online, why not try RSVP or Tinder. Also liking what someone is doing on youtube, and then messaging them. How do you know YOU are actually even going to be interested in these girls? Havec onfidence in yourself and things that make you happy, and that will attract the right people in your life, rather then going out in search of them.
  17. Jennifer Lawrence's character in Silver Linings Playbook & in the same movie, Bradley Cooper 's character has schizophrenia I love that movie.
  18. So you'd prefer to have a partner that works out, but you will go out with a curvy girl too?? Isn't that like the tall man preference? ;-)
  19. Ok I will weigh in again here as this situation is happening to me. I have a guy who is interested in me and he is probably a very good match for me. He has been interested in me for about 5 years! I have been out with him a couple of times to see if I could be interested in him.... but I am not. I am not attracted to him at all. I thought about if I could kiss him after one of our dates as I knew he would walk me to my car and want a kiss, but I couldn't even bring myself to kiss him. I don't find him attractive, it's not that I don't think he is good looking, but more so I am just not attracted to him in the slightest for some reason. Just like I am not attracted to my brother. He is a great guy too and he is good looking, but I am not attracted to him! I don't think there is anything shallow about not being interested in someone because they are not attractive to you. Attraction feeds evolution. If we do not want pro-create with someone then how will we have children with them and continue mankind.
  20. Thanks for your post. I am feeling better again. I felt crap because I was treating myself like crap. So now I have started eating healthy and exercising, and although I am still 10kg up, I am starting to feel better about myself again.
  21. This is a good question and one I asked myself. I guess it depends what you are taking the anti depression for. I never knew how bad my anxiety was until I started taking an anti-depressant and my thoughts slowed down somewhat. I still have looping thoughts but they no longer go on a downward spiral into deep depression like they used too. I am able to sleep better also. And if I am having a 'bad day', I can still get through it, whereas pre anti-depressant it was a huge struggle for me.
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