Hi, DeeBear! It's been a while since I've checked out the blogs but, I was thinking about you and hoped you'd left a blog post. You were one of my first "depression buddies" here on the DF and you helped me so much as I went through my worst & first bad days of a major depression. I just wanted to thank you! I'll be forever grateful to everyone who helped me and became my cyber friends when I first joined the forums. You've helped plenty of others over the years, too! It's something you can feel good about, for sure. I'm so sorry to hear about Buzz, your cat. I know my pets feel like family members and to lose one is a real blow. I'm not sure why some of us lean more to negative thinking at times in our lives. I've tried to change my thinking and I've made some progress. I've stopped isolating myself so much and have co-workers & friends that keep my busy, help me vent and often, make me laugh. I'm not always "happy as a clam" but, I'm coping. My always supportive husband is my steady voice of reason and encourages me to find and live on that middle ground where life is solid & sturdy (if not always happy). He can't "make" me think more positive, of course, that's up to me. All we can do is keep on trying, do the "one step at a time" thing, focus on the good and try to be the good in the lives of others and in our own. Whoa...a philosophical rant, huh? :rock: Good to talk to ya, Dee. Take care of yourself! (I'm holding good thoughts for your cat.) Hugs, Aerial