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  1. 8 points
    Nightjar

    What Did You Do Today? #3

    OK, let me see..... Had a chill out session this morning which was much appreciated even though it seems impossible for me to ever relax completely. Played with mini lion who was literally climbing the walls with boredom because she didn't have her prompt play time in the morning. Showered. Managed to enjoy it for a change as was more relaxed after chill out time. Went shopping. Sorted some recycling, put out some rubbish. Evening DF session. Not a massively productive day but beneficial to my mood. It felt really nice to give myself a break and go easy on myself. Of course I have a to do list as long as my arm but I can honestly say today that I don't care, I feel better for relaxing.
  2. 7 points
    Bulgakov

    What Did You Do Today? #3

    Thanks to my incessant reading of DF threads, I know that 3 a.m. starts the "witching" hour. I looked on Wikipedia, and it said that in medieval times, women caught out at this time, without good reason, could be executed on the spot. Funny how rituals bind history. Women out late at night, currently, are suspect in some Muslim countries. Like Rattler, I worked as a network admin until my early retirement. Used to sub contract some of grunt work and number crunching at a CPA place I monitored, and so we used to do business with a company in India for that. Some times, the work went undone overnight, as the ladies in charge couldn't go out after dark, on the streets. That was fairly recent, about ten years ago. It does make you wonder though . . . why any female would need to go out alone, at 3 a.m.? Just kidding, I'll get back in line. Bulgakov the Male
  3. 7 points
    ladysmurf

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    duck, honestly that's the best thing!!! i cried for like 1 hour today, and then i said f*** this and went out to my favorite store..it was only for like 30-40 minutes, but still i don't care. it's better than nothing....this illness destroyed my life , but there are days when i beat her..and laugh in her face..
  4. 6 points
    JessiesMom

    Prepared to Check Out By Year's End

    @MarkintheDark - I have greatly appreciated you on this forum and I hope that you will be here for years to come. I wish there was something I could do to help.
  5. 6 points
    MarkintheDark

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    You've shared so much here about your love for your mom, I hope you can find something that suitably honors her.
  6. 5 points
    MarkintheDark

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    Took some effort, as noted this morning, but got out this afternoon with four - count 'em - of my friends I hadn't seen in weeks to do some shooting. 📷 And a pleasant breeze from TS Humberto well offshore even made the temps tolerable. Three Tylenol probably helped, too. We'll see if I can hold on to this. Either way, glad for the relief.
  7. 5 points
    Nightjar

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    Sorry to hear that tears_always. Do you think that you will adopt another in time? I'm not sure I have it in me to not have a cat in my life. They are such a big part of my life that I feel like they are an intrinsic part of my personality, if that makes sense, though I don't think it does
  8. 5 points
    Whenever I go to Panera, I fill up my cup halfway with their cold green tea and halfway with their lemonade. Both are marked "lightly sweetened", but they're plenty sweet to me.
  9. 5 points
    MarkintheDark

    Children of narcs refuge.

    I can't write a lot at the moment, but wanted to let you know I understand the conflicted feelings. I certainly went through it, for years in fact, as I drew away from the NM. Every time I hoped it would be better or I'd handle it better, only to then have her pull some unexpected sh*t. One of the last ones that I think I already related here was that when I was delayed by work for a day on a visit to her mother's, the NM took it upon herself to cancel the hotel reservation I'd made, not tell me about it until I arrived, and then insist I could sleep on the couch (as if I was a teenager). That was the last effin' straw for me. I rebooked my hotel and flew back the next morning. What I'd point out, too, is that you've experienced relationship losses that are bound to still be affecting you. Your world has been turned upside down. So, no wonder you're having second thoughts or are second-guessing yourself. fwiw, the pain was familiar. In some sense that's easier than coping with the unknown and/or loneliness. idk, maybe go back and reread your own posts in this thread just to give yourself perspective.
  10. 5 points
    sober4life

    What Are You Listening To? #4

    Soundgarden the Superunknown album
  11. 4 points
    Lady Mozzer

    What Did You Do Today? #3

    My Mom and I went to look at some furniture and she found some dining room chairs she liked and she`s thinking about getting them. We then went to Walmart and picked up some groceries then picked up some food for a very late lunch.
  12. 4 points
    Looking forward to riding the train again has me smiling.
  13. 4 points
    Floor2017

    Do You Matter

    Well, life has it’s up and downs and sometimes you begin to wonder do I really matter. Is what I do significant to what others do and think 🤔? I’m sure that all of our lives matter in some way or another. The Question is how does it matter. We spend a life time trying to be relevant to the people around us. I hope in this that we can all begin to see our self worth and value to the world as we live on a daily basis. Enclosing: You are somebody and you do Matter
  14. 4 points
    I am an only child twice over. I did not inherit siblings when my mother remarried My biological father died of MRSA after years of being bedridden with a stroke brought on by agent orange, which also presumably caused my spina bifida. So there was a while when my mother didn't get much help in parenting, and this affected me greatly (though I'm so glad she didn't rush into marriage just to give me a father figure again. She waited for the right guy, and has been married to him for over 20 years). My mother and I have a difficult, draining relationship. We just have varying styles of communication. That's all. Good intentions all around, but my tolerance for differing styles of conversation is low. My mother has a great relationship with her family, particularly with her only sibling, her brother, my uncle. I envy that. It makes me wish I had a sibling growing up, but my mother keeps saying the first and only time was the charm. I had trouble making friends growing up. I was always the only disabled person at school, and in high school, I moved around, attending 4 high schools in 3 states. And to this day, I still have social trouble. I wish I had siblings (two max, I think). They could be neutral bodies during arguments with my parents.
  15. 4 points
  16. 4 points
    SailingSoul: First, congratulations on your school accomplishments. Well done. This represents alot of hard work. I wish your family was more supportive. Your family does not show care for you in a way that is supportive. This must be draining and I can see why you would feel depressed or sad or lonely (or all three). I hope that you find the support you deserve. Tim
  17. 4 points
  18. 3 points
    Rattler6

    What Are You Eating? #3

    Pepperoni pizza.
  19. 3 points
    JessiesMom

    Alone for another homecoming

    I'm sorry that you are suffering so. My recommendation would be to be honest with your parents, so that they can get you the help that you need. High school sucks for everyone. Let me say that again........high school sucks for everyone. Whoever said that high school is the best years of your life is seriously disturbed. It is not real life and sometimes it is just something that you have to survive. I have two sons about your age. One is a junior in college and the other is starting at community college in the winter. Neither of them had girlfriends in high school and I don't think that either of them even went to a school dance. Have you tried out some school clubs to try to find your people? That helped my eldest when he went away to college and fell into a depression. Eventually he found a close group of friends who would support him. In high school, the robotics team helped out quite a bit, since the people there (although they drive him nuts) were people like him. There is so much life to have after the hell of high school and so many different kinds of people that you will meet in your life. Don't give up before you have even gotten to the fun part.
  20. 3 points
    nojoy

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    Vitamin C works great. I work with young children and used to suffer with every bug they brought to preschool. I began taking one a day this week and if I do get a cold I take one in am and one in pm.
  21. 3 points
    I'm very proud of you! I've always had a lot of faith in you and believe you are a very strong person. I also believe you will be a wonderful mother! I know how you feel about family. Now that mom is gone there is no love or support whatsoever from any of the other family. Nobody would even know we were related unless I told them. There's nothing. No love no support no caring at all. You're always left with that empty feeling because you always wonder why they don't care or even seem to want you to succeed. I know how you feel.
  22. 3 points
    SailingSoul

    Do You Matter

    everyone has worth and value. I just wish people cared more so we'd truly realize that.
  23. 3 points
    I keep trying to watch the new season of Scream on Netflix but I keep walking away from it and doing something else so what does that say?
  24. 3 points
  25. 3 points
  26. 3 points
    APFSDS

    What Are You Eating? #3

    Cheburek with lamb meat.
  27. 2 points
  28. 2 points
    Travelling on the train for the first time in years, the journey was a little tedious however I had a lovely half hour chatting with the tanned young lady who was sat with me at the table 😊 , she was from London but also lived in Australia for a while and had Irish connections.
  29. 2 points
    Nightjar

    Children of narcs refuge.

    Me too. I don't know the answers. I try one way and I hurt. I try the other way and I hurt. At the moment I'm thinking that if I allow myself to be abused and see them at least I can say I did my part and didn't abandon them. Perhaps this is what helps me sleep at night. OK, it might make us tragic, Mother Teresa type characters but hey, someone has to do it, it may as well be us! 😂
  30. 2 points
    This is true. I know from experience.
  31. 2 points
    Floor2017

    Do You Matter

    I’m so proud of you and your many accomplishments on this forum. You are a inspiration to me
  32. 2 points
    I"m a middle child both in family of origin and a step family.
  33. 2 points
    SailingSoul

    Feeling like a failure (Rant)

    Thanks. Im gonna try to re-read this whenever i feel down.
  34. 2 points
    sober4life

    Do You Matter

    I haven't given up on myself. The people in my life have given up on me if they ever cared. I should be used to it I guess but I have a heart and it's almost always broken.
  35. 2 points
  36. 2 points
    My crazy vamped up mind is thinking of devoloping my own martial art style. Simultaneously I am pondering on the effects and possible consequences of quantum indeterminacy and non-locality. As I said on another thread or perhaps it was this one I am fffckin EVERYWHERE! And it feels awesome.
  37. 2 points
    watalife

    The Post Anything Thread #4

    Nobody puts Baby in a corner! Cat🐱Power🐾🐾
  38. 2 points
    evalynn

    News of the Weird

    Breathtaking photos show 'purple sunset' gracing Florida skies in wake of Hurricane Dorian ALEX LASKER, AOL.COM Sep 5th 2019 2:45PM As Hurricane Dorian traveled up the eastern coast of the United States, it left behind at least one pleasant effect in its trail of destruction. Skies above multiple cities in Florida glowed a lovely purple on Wednesday night as the storm passed by the state, largely sparing it after ravaging the Bahamas for days. Residents of the sunshine state have since shared mesmerizing photos of the phenomenon on social media. Amy Pope-Latham, LCSW @coastalBtherapy Purple skies after #Dorian passed by Jacksonville today. Do you think there’s a chance Dorian was a fan of Prince? This type of celestial spectacle happens when low-level clouds, such as the ones caused by Hurricane Dorian, distort ultraviolet light from the sun as it sets, allowing cameras and our eyes to pick up on the typically unseen violet color, according to First Coast News storm expert Steve Fundaro, who compared the effect to "looking through a filter." "You're seeing a sunset normally, but you have low clouds underneath from the hurricane that are distorting the [normal sunset] colors to make it seem purple," he said. Amy Pope-Latham, who lives in Jacksonville, Fla., told CNN she sat outside and watched in awe on Wednesday night as the sky transformed from gray to a brilliant, vibrant purple hue. "The sky was definitely a pleasant reminder that we must have hope and if we only believe in the sun when it's shining we will never get through the night," she told the outlet.
  39. 2 points
    This morning, the teacher I work with led the class into the hallway where the other 2 preschool classes and mine sang happy birthday while looking at me. Only problem it is not my birthday. My lead teacher looked at the wrong staff roster. But it did feel good to be remember and seeing 40 little faces smiling and singing made me smile.
  40. 1 point
    Lady Mozzer

    What Are You Eating? #3

    I just had a Teriyaki flavored veggies and white rice.
  41. 1 point
    Saprkzz

    Away from home

    What's your relationship like with the other people in the house, any cool people that you could ask to go to a local bar and sit and watch the world go by. When I am alone, I grab a mate and head on to a café which is down by the river and sit and have a coffee and just chat for an hour. People watching and chatting comfortably does amazing things for my head. It will break the week up as well. Its perfectly normal to have a couple of nights in by yourself in front of the TV but you could try exercise as well?. I find getting home from work and doing an hour activity like tennis, cycling, jogging and by the time you've had a shower, eaten its already bedtime. Keeping your mind busy will keep spirits high!
  42. 1 point
    Christmas Snow was the best character on the show by far. Once Suzanne Somers left the show should have been over. They tried to bring in other characters to fit her role but none of them were good at all.
  43. 1 point
    hocico

    What Are You Listening To? #4

    My little empire - The manic street preachers
  44. 1 point
    sober4life

    Children of narcs refuge.

    Yes that's exactly the way I think. We are good people for thinking this way. I need to do my part. They don't have that need. I try to be the good person. They dread every time they see me and had no intentions in ever seeing me again but will make me feel guilty for not coming around more often. Grandma lives 4 miles from here and in 3 years she's been here once. In 3 years I've been to her house hundreds of times.
  45. 1 point
    sober4life

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    I don't have to work tomorrow but I'm going to pick out mom's gravestone. That's when the real madness begins.
  46. 1 point
    Helping the same elderly lady I met months ago carry her shopping again ☺️
  47. 1 point
    I'm the oldest by 5 and a half years. I have a younger brother. I never acted like an adult. I guess I acted like a teenager my whole life so for a while I seemed real smart but now at 40 still a teenager mentally everyone things I'm a big idiot.
  48. 1 point
    The news. They are trying to make us think vaping is the worst thing in the world lately. I wonder who's behind that?🙄The cigarette companies have killed millions of people. According to them vaping has killed 2 people. Do I have to say more?
  49. 1 point
    We actually have the same birthday if you have the right one here.
  50. 1 point
    sober4life

    Children of narcs refuge.

    Yes her sitting outside in the car is pretty disturbing for sure. It would be fun to just leave her out there sitting in the car but if we were to do that it would just be stressful for us wondering what they're doing in the car. We would be in the window the whole time until they left. Sometimes it is better to keep your enemies close so you can keep a better eye on them. Yes it's dangerous but sometimes it's the way you have to do it. If I keep him in my life I know what he's up to. If he's out of my life paranoia tells me lies about what he's up to.

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