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  1. 6 points
    SoulSurvivor

    What Did You Do Today? #3

    Happy Birthday! .....It was my birthday yesterday.. and all I did was nothing as well.......
  2. 4 points
    evalynn

    What Did You Do Today? #3

    Happy Birthday @AloneGuy & @SoulSurvivor! May your year be filled with lots of good times.
  3. 4 points
    MargotMontage

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    It's ok, I know what you mean. I guess that life can be like a David Lynch movie in that way: Do you laugh, or cry, or both? Is it weird, or normal, or can it be classified at all? Life is Strange. (Don't sue me, video game maker. I only referenced the title, didn't steal it! 😉) Anyhow, I hope you'll be ok.
  4. 4 points
    MargotMontage

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    You're being a good friend, anxiousE. With these problems, that's all you can do. While you can point her in the right direction, she ultimately has to try and grapple with the symptoms herself. It doesn't hurt to have backup and support, (in fact, it's essential, and it's great that you're giving her what so many in her position don't have!) but you can't fix it. You can only help her with the process. You are DEFINITELY valuable in this situation! I know because all of us need a friend like you, but not everyone gets it. She's very lucky to have you, even if you don't always feel that way. But you do have to practice self care, and distance yourself if needed.
  5. 4 points
    anxiousE

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    I'm an idiot! (This was not my first thought, but it's better, maybe) Possible TW-friend needs help So I've been trying to help this young friend of mine. She's suffering from PTSD, bpd, bipolar, anxiety...and her biggest problem is crying a lot, being hypersensitive to everything and everyone. Two nights ago we had a nice long chat and she said I helped her. Yesterday and today she's talking about ...well, let's just say shit is getting too much for her again. (I think she's just too much in her own head). But I've been trying to be positive. It hurts me to see her hurting. She keeps worrying that everyone around her is going to die and she'll be alone. I can actually relate to that, but I don't let it occupy my every waking thought. I told her to keep the faith, like our favorite musician says. Ive suggested she join a forum like this (didnt say which one or that im on it though) I dunno what else to do! I feel for her but at the same time, I have to protect my own self too. Like, I mean I can't talk to her ALL the time and he'll, I don't even know just how much value I am to her sometimes. Like why put in effort if it doesn't matter? (Some of my own problems. Of course it matters, because I tried, right?) Anyway, sorry, I just wanted to explain my day.
  6. 4 points
    JD4010

    What Did You Do Today? #3

    I came to the office on this Sunday afternoon in an attempt to get a jump on the work week. Epic fail. I played around on my phone instead.
  7. 3 points
    Oscar K

    I don't know how to change

    Welcome new friend to our forum family. We are a caring group of people from all walks of life and all ages. I have a grandson your age. My approach to depression involves invoking clever and powerful metaphors. My motto is: Despair not/ REPAIR a lot. Keep posting your concerns and we will try to help you as best we can. Oscar
  8. 3 points
    Divinely Desolate

    Hi all

    A big thank you to everyone's support, i really appreciate it, <3
  9. 3 points
    evalynn

    What Did You Do Today? #3

    I got woken up at 4:30 am to my husband hopping down the stairs with Etta in tow because she threw up on my comforter. I had to take her out in the dark but she did her business quickly and went back to bed. Of course I couldn't, so I was with the sun. I dropped my husband at the bus stop, and then resolved to get more sleep in. It took a while but I finally got a few more hours. Since then, I've taken Etta on a couple more potty breaks and now I feel like I relax as she seems to be back to her normal self for the first time in days (I spare you the details of all her tummy troubles). Her Bark Box actually came in the mail today, so we'll make a video of her getting her new toys when my husband gets off work this evening. I have a mild stomach ache, so I hope that resolves it itself tonight too.
  10. 3 points
    JD4010

    What Did You Do Today? #3

    Happy Birthday!! Enjoy the burgers and/or tacos. Why not both? 🙂
  11. 3 points
    Monday is quickly closing in. The dread of the coming work week is bubbling up inside of me. If I was a caveman, I'd be thinking, "damn, I don't want to sharpen spears tomorrow! Everyone will see what a sh!tty job I do of it!"
  12. 3 points
    Floor2017

    Hi all

    Well, I'm sorry to hear about your break up and the depression problems that are causing you some problems. Hopefully, things will begin to get better for you and I'm looking forward to talking with you real soon, Be blessed my friend
  13. 3 points
    AloneGuy

    What Did You Do Today? #3

    It's my birthday and my wish is to do absolutely nothing at all today 🙂 Just staying home and relaxing. This afternoon my parents are treating me to dinner and I've decided we'll just order in. I'll probably use DoorDash to get some burgers or maybe some tacos. Oh my parents got me a new printer, which is awesome as my last one broke years ago and I never got around to buying a new one.
  14. 2 points
    Divinely Desolate

    Hi all

    I'm new here, just had a quick browse around the forum, and it looks like a great place for support, for everyone going through mental health issues. I'll start by saying i'm a male from the uk, and suffer from what I feel has been progressive depression over many years, at first, I felt like it was something i could control, as it didn't affect my day to day life, but now it seems like it has spiralled out of control. Probably because recently, I had a bad breakup with my ex and was with her for 9 years, and it also saddens me that she has already moved on. I don't think my breakup is the sole reason for my depression, because I feel in my life, everything has gone wrong, from friendships, to work and I feel more and more people have been distant with me, I just feel like i am at a point now where I feel so lost, and alone and really don't see a bright future ahead. I do hope being a part of this forum and reading all your stories and journey's fighting depression, can somehow inspire me to change and get better... thanks for taking time to read this x
  15. 2 points
    Atra

    Hi all

    Hi, welcome to the community @Divinely Desolate! Thats a lovely nickname, by the way. I'm glad you found us. It's a small, dark corner of the internet but it is populated by friendly and supportive people - and we actually do want to know how badly you're doing. As we're all fighting battles with our moods and minds, whatever version of you turns up today or tomorrow, we are ready to accept that person and provide you with understanding and compassion. I'm sorry to know that you've recently seen the end of a long term relationship. That can be very tough on one's spirit. I hope you'll give us a chance to remind you of your own resiliency, the strength you've mustered to survive 100% of your worst days so far. Life ain't easy getting through, tougher yet whilst struggling with a mental illness. So let's take a day at a time and try to ride the emotional waves together, yeah?
  16. 2 points
    It was a stress free day for once.
  17. 2 points
    The_Unwanted

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    My current job isn't 100% bad, but I can say with rational conclusiveness that ''oppurtunity'' to enjoy myself, most of the time, is not there. The collective lack of interest of these people for this job has been proven. This explains the other thing I'm going to point out. They have a ''mob'' mentality against me because it's a small, tight little workspace with individuals who, for the most part, lack interest for what they do and have absolutely nothing in common with me. Too many real-life groups of individuals are collectively making sure I do not get the oppurtunity to be productive in general and to grow as a person. Sadly, what I'm saying is one gazillion percent true. It's not everybody, but it is absolutely a large enough size of people. I cannot find the right crowds to hang with because no one wants to give me an oppurtunity to show them what I can do. Because of better finances, I have no difficulty whatsoever making myself happy, when I'm in isolation. But pleasing these others is impossible because they despise me when I'm in a bad mood just as much as when I'm in a good mood. It seems like I'm putting myself at a huge disadvantage agaisnt them, when the numbers are not in my favor. I feel like something had to be done about that.
  18. 2 points
    MargotMontage

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    I understand. There's no need to share anything you don't want to. Just knowing that others get it helps a lot. I do hope you can find appropriate help if you need it. It's important to remember that if you don't feel comfortable with the service you recieve, or have any problems with medications, you must stand firm in what you know is true about your situation, and don't let anybody push you around or make you feel small. The only acceptable help is when it actually HELPS you; not when people take your money for nothing. Remember that you're worth something, and keep trying!
  19. 2 points
    sober4life

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    This no fear attitude works. I found someone to help with the 2 dead trees and I figured out my mower situation. It's more of me bartering my way through life but it works with almost anything.
  20. 2 points
    evalynn

    Exercise! #2

    Did about another 2 miles with Etta today so far. I have a bit of stomach ache, but I plan to do some zumba if I feel better later.
  21. 2 points
    JD4010

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    Yes. People who have never experienced the kinds of depression and anxiety we do have no idea what it's like. It's like trying to explain 60 degrees below zero weather to someone who has never left the tropics.
  22. 2 points
    🎆🌜Lunar New Year🐀🇨🇳
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  24. 2 points
    Oscar K

    I am so depressed

    It is always possible to reinvent oneself. We all have a vast tool box of powerful metaphors. Powerful and clever metaphors can be invoked to change course and redirect your life. Instead of cutting yourself try to metaphorically cut every bad habit one at a time. We must be stronger and smarter than Old Man Depression. Please Despair not/REPAIR a lot. We are here for you. Oscar
  25. 1 point
    Charlee

    I am so depressed

    I'm so depressed and everyday it seems to be getting worse. I'm just so sad and miserable and I cant see any way out of this. Its been 9-10 years since it all started and i'm like wtf do I do? I cant keep living like this, I cant carry on, I cant do it. I cant work, I can hardly leave the house I cant live life like this, and there seems to be no way out. I'm stuck, i'm cutting, not eating, smoking too much weed, taking too many Benzo's. I cant cope and I can feel it in my bones that my life will end by my doing, it feels like I wont make it to 30, I just cant carry on, I cant do it. I think about things I could do to help myself, like trying to get out of the house at least once a day, go walking or running, making an effort to eat healthy, join groups to make friends and meet people, but the thought of doing any of that scares the shit out of me and I cant make myself do anything so I just sit in my sadness and wallow about my lack of ability to do anything. Everything feels so hard rn, even taking a shower is hard. Hope its better for you guys. ❤️✌️
  26. 1 point
    Mental health issues are nothing to be ashamed of, we didn’t do anything wrong. It can be treated with medication, therapy, counseling and many self help therapy. Don’t be afraid to try things like religion, spirituality and other methods to help you to cope with mental health. It breaks my heart to see people that are afraid to come forth and to get the necessary help that they need to be able to go forth with their life. Please look for alternative ways to treat your mental illness. Be blessed my friends and fellow sufferers like me.
  27. 1 point
    An excellent post, my friend. Ours is kind of an "invisible illness" that doesn't get the attention that some other illnesses receive. I will say that I've seen some billboards along the highways advertising suicide hotlines and the like. That is encouraging.
  28. 1 point
    ladysmurf

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    i dont know why when i give advice or my opinion to others, they say it's great, and thank you, but then when i think about me, like i want to try something new, i'm afraid i am going to fail, or why bother, you are a loser....yet last week i was telling a girl who is older than me to not give up on her dream, and i'd help her if i could with anything that i know and can .. i think it happens to many of us, like we give better advice to others but when it comes to us, we have our own self-doubts, i don't get it. how am i supposed to convince myself that i wont fail, that i wont like a fool trying something new, .....any advice you guys have would be appreciated...helpful..thanks
  29. 1 point
    SoulSurvivor

    What Did You Do Today? #3

    Thank you Altra!
  30. 1 point
    SoulSurvivor

    What Did You Do Today? #3

    Thank you Nightjar !
  31. 1 point
    Atra

    What Did You Do Today? #3

    Pizza, hot wings, salad and donuts with bestie and mom this afternoon. Nobody needed dinner after such a lunch. I favored the mushroom pizza because pepperoni plus hot wings invites a digestive crisis. Lent my ear and shoulder to my pal who's sadly enduring an emotionally abusive divorce. When I got home I finished writing the letter for my school application and sent it to my career coach. Somehow, my comments never were saved and are lost (thanks google docs) but that's not a big deal. Took a 2 hour call from my friend who is struggling with severe trauma from an assault last year and they are not coping well; dissociation, nightmares and flashbacks. That is not something I can make go away, it will require a lot more than a friend. But light conversation while sharing a laugh now and then plus some encouragement was sufficient for now. Wishing them some peace tonight and hoping they'll benefit from compassion in support group tomorrow..
  32. 1 point
    Etta seems to be healing whatever stomach bug she's had the last few days. I was able to cancel her vet appointment tomorrow.
  33. 1 point
    boxerjoe

    I don't know how to change

    I made a post addressing my experience on a subreddit, and I kind of just wanted to vent, but I didn't really get any advice, so here's that: As I said, this is my first time on the sub. I'm 15 and going to high school right now. I haven't been officially diagnosed, or I don't know, but my therapist says I have depression and I'm on 20 mg of fluoxetine right now, which I'm kind of skeptical about. My parents are pretty supportive about it, but I'm not very honest about my mental health with them to be honest. I don't think they even know I'm depressed they just think I have social anxiety, which I probably do. I guess what I'm kind of looking for advice on is this: I'm very socially awkward, and I have friends who I can be very talkative with, but it takes me like upwards of three months to warm up to anyone. I find it incredibly hard to talk to people, or will myself to do anything. I spend my time at home watching the same episodes of The Office over and over again, and masturbating. I have no motivation. When I have to do work I just sit there and watch youtube, or something and play some pointless game in the background because the youtube isn't enough of a distraction. I want to care, I really do. What really bothers me is I have no idea what the **** to do. I don't know how to change, or will myself to do anything. If I tell myself to talk to a girl, and fire myself up to do it I just don't do it. It's the same with the homework thing. I just don't do anything that I don't have to do. I know I shouldn't worry about relationships, being only about to turn 16, but I feel like I'll never be in a relationship. I've literally never been friends with a girl, not because I don't want to. I'm scared I won't be able to function as an adult. I'm scared I'm never going to get a job, or even be able to make it through college the way things are going now. I try to get absorbed in hobbies, like I'm trying to learn the guitar right now, but sooner, or later I know I'm just going to lose my motivation. I can't explain it, but I really just can't do anything unless I'm asked to, and I usually don't even do it then. I know I have it a lot better than so many other people, but I just kind of wanted to vent I guess. I don't really have anyone to talk to. My friends only invite me to do stuff every once in a while because they feel bad for me I think and I think they're embarrassed being seen around me. I just feel really alone. I haven't cried in like a year, or had a good day for as long as I can remember. I feel like a ****ing creep. I do weird shit like not brushing my teeth for a week. I just want to change, but I can't make myself do anything. Im really thankful for this sub, that's all I really have to say.
  34. 1 point
    Floor2017

    Is this normal with depression?

    I don't know because everyone feels something different but I do suggest you go the doctor if you have not already gone because it could really be something major going on with you. I hope everything turns out well for you. Be blessing
  35. 1 point
    sober4life

    Exercise! #2

    I finally got back on the treadmill today for 5 miles.
  36. 1 point
    Apparently it's raining iguanas in Florida.😲
  37. 1 point
    Atra

    What Did You Do Today? #3

    Facilitated depression/bipolar support group, moderately large turn-out though I was anticipating even more. Of course, my depression-mind is eager to assign meaning to this: I suck at facilitating, they're avoiding me. Ridiculous, narcissistic even. 🤷‍♂️ A couple of our group attendees were hospitalized this week for trying to end their lives. Hearing people share about that is activating, my own memories and feelings to account for in addition to irrationally feeling somehow responsible for everyone else's. One member shared about an assault that occured last year and I was super proud they did; they'd kept that to themselves, therapist and me. Unfortunately the cost of disclosing was reliving it and they needed extra care and attention due to PTSD flashbacks. Went out for coffee and socialized with group members. Did some shopping and shoved a sandwich in my face before talking on a video call with a peer from my Ketamine group. Then I worked on my grad school application letter until 2:30am. It's 3/4 done, needs editing and ya know what, I kinda dig it.
  38. 1 point
    shio

    What Did You Do Today? #3

    I attended my niece's funeral. I avoid going to such events however I was asked to do the eulogy. The way I've been feeling I felt no one took notice nor understood. Except for my cousin who told me i did a great job 😊 He made my day.
  39. 1 point
    Epictetus

    What Did You Do Today? #3

    The baby cockroach I rescued has grown and I felt sorry for it living in the little enclose I made for it, so today I made a bigger enclosure and made it as "cockroach friendly" as I could with the information I have about the species.
  40. 1 point
    sober4life

    Exercise! #2

    What changed my mind about shoes. I went in to a popular store as well naive and said I'm going to buy the best shoes because I'm really into this. The salesman was a psychopath that was a rail thin runner type and I tried to say how much walking and running I did and he chuckled at me and I got up in his face and said a couple of words to him let's say they rhyme with buck shoe and left. Ever since I've been buying the cheapest shoes I could find and they work just fine. It's absolute nonsense to buy expensive running shoes. If they fit and they're comfortable that's all you need.
  41. 1 point
    anon22ae

    The Post Anything Thread #4

    "Keyboard not detected. Press any key to continue." And I thought that was just an urban legend... 😂
  42. 0 points
    twotone

    low and scared

    Feeling low, scared and lonely today. It felt like a December of pressures, and it feels like I've been swimming against the current fo r some time. Over the last few days I can almost sense changes in brain chemistry. Scary time, feel v. vunerable at the mo. Seeing doc tomorrow.😢
  43. 0 points
    watalife

    The Post Anything Thread #4

    Oh my goodness, this is my head also 😮😔
  44. 0 points
    adamrparr

    How Do You Feel Right Now #11

    Man, you make a great point about afflicting others. Despair sets in when you realize that in order not to burden another person with this sh!t, you have to leave them alone. A very lonely feeling indeed. With respect to the girl incident/issue yesterday, I ended up being 1,000% right. Everything that she did & said to me, especially Fri night, was a lie. I was completely deceived. Asked her what I did to deserve this. Here was her response: ”You don’t deserve any of it. That’s why I’m a coward. I love how attentive you are and the fact that you sent me pictures of flowers bc you couldn’t give them to me is one of the sweetest things anyone has ever done. You love to read, maybe more than me and have even written a book. That’s impressive. You can express your feelings like no other man I’ve met! Essential in a relationship. I’m a coward bc I can’t give this a shot. There just wasn’t a spark for me and I’d be wasting both our time if I didn’t tell you.” (Which she didn’t do until I coaxed it out of her). Yes, we did spend a good bit of time together irl. So yeah. This is exactly where my feelings on this entire issue come from. This very kind of experience. I think I have the right to be cynical. The cynicism does NOT come simply because of one experience with one person, but a series of similar experience at the hands of multiple women over a number of years. A clear pattern of the complete absence of empathy & compassion. As I said earlier, the rest of you can have it. I don’t want anything more to do with it. You know what? It feels really good when you stop hitting yourself in the head with a hammer.
  45. 0 points
    Oh my god Kobe Bryant is gone!😭
  46. 0 points
    lancer123

    Is this normal with depression?

    I head feels like I have minor pressure on front and both sides of head. My head feels heavy. It doesn't hurt but feels weird. In addition, when I am watching TV, etc. I tend to start zoning (just empty stareing at the TV). I am starting my 3rd week of not feeling like myself. I know it can take time but getting inpatient. Thanks for your responses in advance. Lance
  47. 0 points
    The expensive item I waited 2 months for is already broken. I knew it was a bad sign when he kept lying and putting me off week after week for delivery. I should have known and walked away from the get go. But he was saying you can trust me I wouldn't do that to you. He bad mouthed the other companies and said ours is better, but I've never had an issue like this with the other brand. What kind of world do we live in when we pay thousands for junk. I can't wait for the end!
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    Feeling kinda poorly
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