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  1. Well chances are I would say I'm just as crazy as I was when I was in school. If I showed up it would take a manic episode to get me there and who knows what I would say to them. I'm honestly at this point not afraid to face any of them and I don't even remember their names. I guess that's another big accomplishment not fearing the people from high school anymore. Maybe I'll show up drunk. Maybe the oh no I forgot to wear pants today dream will be a reality.
    9 points
  2. Hi everyone. Well, my final exam went well, and I don't know how I did it, but after 3 years, I reached 50% of the whole course, so I'm an "advanced" student now. I left soul, tears, health, mental health in the way, and lived with the minimum for the last 2 years. Time to get a job, and to work on myself, enough maths for now. I'm trying to reach out people. I'll go to a kind of (sports?) encounter tomorrow with a group of unknown students. Luckily for me, the only 2 friends (actually it's just one friend and I've seen once the other guy) I have here will come with me, so yeah, I won't be that weird that knows no-one. I've failed many times going to a place where I know noone, many times I just turned back at the gates of the event. Let's see how it goes.
    9 points
  3. I'm not sure how to explain how I feel at this moment. I feel blah. I'm just watching tennis as a deterrence to dealing with the blah blah blah blah feeling.
    9 points
  4. Its 6:30 am. I was up all night reading about disability programs. I am going to bed now. Have a pleasant day everyone!
    8 points
  5. I wouldn't be able to rest until I knew the answer. I don't understand people at all. Other people even if it's their job to get back to me about something seem to have no problem saying eh who cares I'll get back with this person some other day maybe by the end of the week. Me I would lose it and even go to the house of the people interested and say well do you want the house? Come on come on I need an answer right now! All I'm saying is believe me I know how you feel.
    8 points
  6. Argh. I'm pretty tortured at the minute. Waiting. Just waiting to hear from the agent. I'm trying to stop myself from calling. I don't want to call before he's ready I guess but it's all that I can think about. Praps I'll call in half an hour The viewing was 2 hours ago. I just want an update and a chat.
    8 points
  7. I wish you all the strength to battle that entire situation and I am positive you will have that mastered some day. You seem like you can do it. But the irritable part I sadly can relate to and do not know how to handle it either. It goes by the day. Some are fine some are bad. It is not that I feel irritated towards others - just myself and the situation I am battling for almost 2 years now. But sometimes there is a light and I latch on to the rays and cling on. ( I know it is just a said "thing" but that is what it feels like ). It makes me smile internally and create hope and faith for the next day.But the next "glitch" ...I find myself at square one. .. that is what sucks... every time
    8 points
  8. I feel good. Retirement has done wonders for my mood. That being said, I told my husband that I have been battling depression for almost 50 years. Those times in my teens and 20’s I was very depressed and suicidal. I feel good now, but man there were a lot of nights I prayed to God to take me. I would wake up in the morning and be pissed that I was still here. I finally found a good doc, and meds that worked and a very loving & supportive husband.
    8 points
  9. Tomorrow being Thanksgiving in my country I am going to have my occasional Diet Pepsi. What's that poem . . .I'd rather have a free bottle in front on me than a prefrontal lobotomy." Having my Diet Pepsi . . . that's going to be my Thanksgiving. Happy Thanksgiving to those who celebrate it or endure it!
    8 points
  10. Same with me. I am having four to five nightmares every night. I dragged my self to the mall today and had coffee with some friends. I arrived late but they were happy to see me.
    8 points
  11. I am proud of you for going for a walk. I have been hiding in my igloo for days.
    8 points
  12. I never heard of hob. It says male ferret as one of the definitions. It is good to get him clean I guess.
    8 points
  13. @nothing_man Congrats on your final exam. I too have turned around at the gate/door to many places many times. I learned to take one step at a time, I may turn around but next time I will make it thru.
    8 points
  14. That's one of the things that really depresses me about TV & movies. Characters that are supposed to be "regular people" are good looking and apparently have money falling from the sky so they can afford mansions and expensive cars. My life has never looked at all like the ones on screen. Yeah, it's supposed to be about escape but watching that stuff usually just rubs my face in the fact that I'm such an abject failure.
    8 points
  15. I got up showered and had breakfast at 2 pm. I inject myself with my diabetic medication. I am putting on Christmas blinds and Christmas decorations.
    8 points
  16. I'm feeling kinda ok today. I didn't wake up feeling good but I guess it got better. I was pleased that me and mom shared a little joke this am... I spend half my time anxious that she is going to attack me for something or other Ah well, I don't have to stay forever
    8 points
  17. I think they are starting to understand that nobody wants to be forced to say hi. The greeter at Walmart doesn't say hi anymore. I like it better that way.
    8 points
  18. I'm lonely too. I was thinking about loneliness this morning... It's not always about having people around you is it(?) I think it's more about feeling misunderstood and unheard. It's not that easy for us to be understood is it especially with our anxiety, ocd, depression etc
    8 points
  19. I have just enough left to pretend I'm ok for the ones I need to pretend for. That's about it. I need to control when they see me and talk to me and hope they don't show up out of the blue.
    8 points
  20. Hi guys, just a quick one while I have a minute.... Hope everyone is doing ok and better than I am.... I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired today.... At least I can have a moan here. I can't really anywhere else...... Please god, let this current breakdown eff off as soon as poss Have the best day possible everyone
    8 points
  21. I've been busy doing a bunch of stuff today. That's all life is going from one thing to the next fixing things and that makes you find something else and something else. I'm just going to sit here and watch tv the rest of the weekend. I do have to laugh. The rabbits tore up something and actually made it better than it was before so the hell with fixing it.
    7 points
  22. I called them. Lol. I accepted an offer but now I'm waiting to hear back from him again to get it confirmed I will update when/if I get confirmation
    7 points
  23. I hope everything goes well.
    7 points
  24. Wish I could do the same! But the lack of income would be a problem. I wish I were one of those "discouraged workers" who don't figure into the official gov't unemployment stats, yet can somehow live. How do they do it?
    7 points
  25. got the feeling. Hang on another day, maybe it gets a bit better tomorrow. By now just survival mode .
    7 points
  26. Sorry to hear. What feels wrong? It's my bedtime now so I'll say goodnight and pick up the chat in the am
    7 points
  27. Thats true all are interested in their own matters. Nobody really cares.
    7 points
  28. I went to town too. I had to finish holiday shopping so I said I'm going to use my 5 dollar Rite Aid coupon spend 25 dollars and get 5 dollars off so I did and I got another coupon for 5 dollars and said well I'll go to the other Rite Aid and spend that. Now what's one thing I got today? Can I name one thing? Well yes I got a 5 dollar coupon today. I did mention one thing right?
    7 points
  29. I dragged myself to town also.. Glad I did. It made me feel more human in spite of my awful night's sleep. I managed to get some make up, though not quite what I wanted
    7 points
  30. Morning duck! It's good to hear you got some cleaning done. It always makes me feel better when the house is clean
    7 points
  31. I was voted most likely to dress like Big Bird which they got wrong. The costume is way too big. I had to get a smaller bird costume.
    7 points
  32. 7 points
  33. I've just woken up. At least I had more sleep. It was patchy but it was there. Fingers crossed I should feel better today
    7 points
  34. Truth is that you've overcome many obstacles, scaled mountains and crossed oceans to get to where you are now (metaphorically speaking). ... The guys at the reunion likely had to climb a couple of hills in life. And that's it But, yeah, of course, we just grunt and shrug when people ask what we've been doing. Because it's just not socially acceptable to live a life much outside of 9to5 and 2.4 children. That wasn't our path. We are in the advanced class Leave the children to have their little party
    7 points
  35. A bit rubbish- really need to motivate myself to get up and eat something.
    7 points
  36. A bit eurgh. Ug. Bored. Tired. Longing for good times and good friends... It's been a long time. Isn't it crazy that we may never be able to be around people without fear of covid again(?) I couldn't be around family for long today but I managed an hour or so.. Ug. Bored.
    7 points
  37. I'm proud you. You're doing a great job. Believe me your strength gives me strength too. I was cleaning out the building today that I was going to let go until spring.
    7 points
  38. I had a busy afternoon. I went to the carwash and used the heat thing to thaw my car. I was able to remove most of the ice. Then Walmart, Co-op food store, Wendys, McDonald's. Later I changed my basket type furnace filter. It took me 45 minutes. I am currently cleaning the humidifier that is attached to the furnace. I have some pain in my neck prolly from tension. I also have some back pain and hip pain on my left side. Hugs for anyone who needs one.
    7 points
  39. Well, yep, at least I managed to get my chores done. I so didn't want to and really could have done with a rest. But the house is looking good.. Bathroom is sparkly. Bedrooms are sparkly. Garden is tidy. Kitchen is clean enough.. If I've got time I'll scrub the kitchen sink and hob before the agent arrives tomorrow. Then hopefully I can hand over the keys and leave the rest to them
    7 points
  40. Today I spent most of my day at home , on the computer. Not really inspired to do much. I spoke with my therapist the other day, it was not that useful. it's hard to find a new one with all the stuff that's going on right now...so im just kind of stuck with that person.. I am still waiting to hear from my insurance and doctor about TMS ...and I will let you guys know too about my experience with it. Basically from what I've read some people find relief and others don't. It's pretty much the same as medication.
    7 points
  41. LOL. If they're still working, what are they doing, as greeters I mean, do they nod or anything?
    7 points
  42. The other night, I watched the movie The Starling. It's about healing from grief, and someone recommended it. I couldn't get past wondering how the main couple (supermarket worker and grade-school teacher) could afford a house on acres of land and months of inpatient mental health care. The treatment center where the husband stayed was gorgeous. He had unlimited time to stroll around the lovely grounds (Is this really what people think it's like?), and was able to fool the staff by hiding the meds under his tongue. Opposite of my experience years ago. Would be nice to think that a place like that existed.
    7 points
  43. Not with us though hi wata
    7 points
  44. Ergh. I almost went with betterhelp too... But after reading some reviews and having bad experiences with online services in general, I decided against it. Apparently, they don't have to be qualified(?) and you are tied in with payments (?) In my area I did manage to find an in person counsellor... So far, I feel its gone well. We've had 3 sessions. She's got the gist of my story now so maybe we can begin to do some work. It's not easy, but I think beneficial.. As long as I don't get bad vibes I'll keep it up I think.. I wouldn't be best pleased if I had to start all over again because she decided someone else would be better suited to help It takes a lot to open up to someone. Sorry you've had that experience.
    7 points
  45. This year I have gotten back into crocheting' I have 5 large notebooks of free patterns I got online. And I hope I will have enough soft baby yarn to make baby blankets, booties, mitts & hats for a couple of family support groups near me. Crocheting, especially a complex pattern helps to shut off the negative thoughts that creep into my head very often.
    7 points
  46. These are a few things that bring me joy and happiness: It makes me happy when people respect me for simply being myself. I'm happy when I have inner peace and joy that comes from God. It makes me happy to see others happy and loving themselves and others. It makes me happy when people are thoughtful toward one another. It makes me happy when there's order in my day and I accomplish my goals set for that day. Its makes me happy to be independent of other's control. It makes me happy to be financially healthy to take care of myself and help others. I'm happy when I exercise. I'm happy to be alive and living with purpose.
    7 points
  47. sober4life

    What Really Bugs You #8

    Yeah it even bugs me talking about things that bug me.
    7 points
  48. extremely tired, worked 60 hours this week already along with packing up a whole house to move, at least i have off until monday now
    7 points
  49. Good morning everyone . I have been reading all your posts. I have not been able to respond because I am so exhausted and busy with family issues. I hope everyone have a pleasant day
    7 points
  50. I share your sentiments. I don't mind the music but they play the same songs day after day and that’s what drive me bananas. I also hate how all the holidays have been so commercialized. A lot of people are only interested in what you are going to give them. Holidays are meant to show gratitude and thanks for our lives, our higher power, and helping others. As for the time changing I'm really having to prepare for readjustment. But we'll make it.
    7 points
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