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  1. Stressed. Again. Wish to change. But things happen out of my control and what can I do but to accept it. I gotto push myself to make it through this day. Choose peace n calmness instead of hatred.
    7 points
  2. Tired, but not too awful. I decided not to continue camping with others and buggered off. Once a hermit, always one.
    6 points
  3. I always knew the downside of drugs. My opinion is we're different in the country. We eat and drink and smoke whatever we want until the doctor says you better quit you're going to die about 20 times. Then we might quit. I'm not sure it really matters to be honest. My grandparents did whatever they wanted their whole lives and lived into their 80s. Who really wants to live longer than that in this world?
    6 points
  4. I gave up caffeinated tea and coffee a long time ago now and I don't get on with it anymore..... I think that's where cokes snuck in... They gave me a bit of caffeine along with the sugar rush but not as much as tea or coffee....I really love drinking cokes but I can see all of the damage they are doing to me. In some ways I was better off drinking tea all day long but I'm not sure my nerves would agree with that I don't know what alternative I can find for my beloved cokes but I was managing with a bit of sugar every day to keep me going before coke got her claws in me... I guess I will just go back to that and look for other ways to endure my low moods. Maybe if I step up the exercise it could help I'm on day 3 today. So powering through. Kinda
    6 points
  5. I had a lot of farm experience growing up. There were family farms on both sides that went back generations. Who knows how far back. That's how a lot of people survived back then. Both farms are still here today. I loved bottle feeding lambs.
    6 points
  6. Hi cherryapplez, Are you okay? What is happening?
    6 points
  7. 6 points
  8. When I was in Boy Scouts as a kid we went camping and I had an old cotton sleeping bag in a tent with no bottom. So I was on the ground. my roomie shows up with a lawn chair and air mattress and is off the ground comfy and cozy. about midnight it starts to rain and I get soaked as there is a stream moving through my tent. now I just sleep in my truck when I go camping.
    5 points
  9. I like everything about camping except why haven't they come up with a tent with a soft mattress bottom? I don't know maybe they have. Do that and we'll all want to go camping.
    5 points
  10. Of course I've always lived in places that if you look at Amish Country it's pretty much always looked like that everywhere I've lived. There's nothing to do out in the country when you're young but party.
    5 points
  11. Can we do anything to help?
    4 points
  12. It's true! Same here in many places. Country kids can get into a lot more trouble. I think it's to do with the fact that city kids are more clued up about the downside of drugs. Simply because there is more experience of it in the city
    4 points
  13. Filthy stuff
    4 points
  14. I've had a bit of a shitty day, just feeling crap, I left work early and have been in bed since I don't think I can manage work atm, I can't manage the workload or the deadlines even though I love it. I have a meeting tomorrow that I'm meant to be prepared for, and a couple of pieces of writing I'm meant to be handing in next week but haven't started. I can't seem to do it. It feels too difficult. I feel physically and mentally unable to do it. I was excited to be back at work and had three good days, but today it all kind of came crashing down. Has anyone read "Eleanor Oliphant is completely fine"? if so you'll know what I mean when I say I identify with her.
    4 points
  15. Well, that was weird. The above post showed up twice. Guess I can use this space to declare how sick of summer I am. I have reverse SAD I think...I hate constant heat, light, and humidity. I do my best in the depths of winter on dark gloomy days and cold temps.
    3 points
  16. We raised beef cattle and hogs. Constant work. We thought of Sunday as the day of rest. We only worked 8 hours on Sundays, compared to 14 or more on the other days. I didn't drink when I was in high school, nor do drugs. A friend of mine and I did try to smoke ditchweed (hemp) once but of course that didn't get us anywhere.
    3 points
  17. Our jaws are wired with an absurd number of nerves, tied directly to the brain's pain center. I've been getting teeth yanked this summer and it's unbelievable how much pain can be felt by one stupid tooth.
    3 points
  18. Man, it's tough. I haven't worked much in my adult life but I really enjoyed it when I did. Hang in there if you can but don't push yourself to the point of nervous breakdown would be my advice. If you can get any support with it from work or otherwise it could be helpful but it may be wise to be there for longer before you go down this route. Wishing you the best of luck in your new job
    3 points
  19. I met Hubbard lived close by. What a memory
    3 points
  20. I wish I grew up on a farm. Well I lived on one the first 3 years of my life but I don't remember one second of it and yes as old as I am that farm still exists today. I know it's hard to believe.
    3 points
  21. Epictetus

    I have no friends

    Hi and welcome to the Forums, It is very nice to meet you. Not having friends is so painful. In my life it has been the most painful thing I have ever suffered, so my heart goes out to you. These Forums have helped me a lot when I am desperately lonely. I hope you will find this site to be a warm and friendly place. I wish I knew what to say to ease your unhappiness but sadly I am sort of in the same boat.
    3 points
  22. I have no friends, I used to at some point. I used to have a lot, and then I just stopped having friends. Anytime I see people making plans together in front of me, it kinda makes me tear up because I know that I could never have that. I go through bouts of social anxiety which makes it difficult to befriend people in the first place, and then when I'm really depressed I lose a lot of friends because I can't get the energy to reach out to anyone. I think I just come off as socially inept most the time or like I have something wrong with me, especially when I'm in my highs. It doesn't always bother me because I work a lot and I'm in college, but when I have more downtime, I notice how I have no one. I think I'm just going to move and start over with a fresh start, I hate the state I'm in. I'm just venting.
    2 points
  23. I hope everything is ok. That sounds very scary!
    2 points
  24. Bbqdad

    I have no friends

    I’m Sorry you’re feeling so much loneliness. This DF site has helped me not feel so lonely, people listen to however I’m feeling when I’m manic or depressed. welcome and keep sharing.
    2 points
  25. Im so sorry. Feeling alone is a terrible feeling and I really feel for you. Its also an extremely painful thing to feel so hopelessly alone while watching the people around you have friends and connections and people who are there for them. The nostalgia of a happier more social time period of your life is also quite mournful in a way. Social anxiety is a really tough frustrating thing because it inhibits any rational thought processes; and the only real way to overcome social anxiety is by placing yourself in situations that are out of your comfort zone, and gradually becoming accustomed to socialization. This, however, I know is terrifying, and Im so sorry you are experiencing these feelings. I hope you find what youre looking for and overcome the fear of reaching out to those around you.
    2 points
  26. I was watching a movie online. As it started the "cautions" came up. The intro warned that the movie had instances of smoking, and language--meaning bad language. And, a new warning I've not seen before, "fear". So I was forewarned that the movie included scenes with people smoking and maybe cussing. I'm not so sure about "fear." Does that mean that I will see scenes of fearful people, scared people? That's nothing new, fear is a part of the drama of action movies, suspense, horror, etc. So I guess it means the viewing might cause fear in the viewer, a warning that would be appropriate for these touchy times. I liked the movie but it caused moments of fear so I couldn't recommend it? I don't know. Gave me a laugh though. Bulgakov
    2 points
  27. Thanks for some kind words Epictetus and Sober4life.
    2 points
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  29. I didn't grow up on a farm, but spent a number of childhood summers at my grandparents'. They raised chickens, rabbits and bees (or kept bees, rather, though it's awkward to switch verbs). I guess that's sort of a unique combination, so perhaps I've given away my identity. On the other hand, all that's gone now, including them and the farm, which I believe has been torn down and used for redevelopment. I don't think there are really any records of this. Even a top-notch detective is unlikely to track this down. It's strange how these memories are lost in time, like tears in rain. (Hey, who said that?)
    2 points
  30. Snake Farm
    2 points
  31. sober4life

    I have no friends

    Welcome I know how you feel. You don't have to have any anxiety here. This is a come as you are type place. We want you to be yourself no matter who you are.
    2 points
  32. I went without citalopram once and got the worst brain zaps. It felt like I went out of phase with the rest of the universe for a moment...and they would come roughly every 30 seconds. I also went without bupropion for several days. I became really agitated. Absolutely everything p!ssed me off. I think my biggest worry is not being able to get these meds in the future. I don't think I could hang on through the withdrawals. I'd have to be sedated and tied to something sturdy. Best wishes on your journey through the side effects. I know how horrible they can be.
    2 points
  33. Best wishes to you. My daughter lives about 15 minutes away from me here in Wisconsin. She loved Alaska too. I have a pic of her building a snowman on the ice of the Chukchi Sea. She would have been 11 at the time.
    2 points
  34. I had a 1961 John Deere 4010 diesel for many years. You can see one like it on my profile page...though mine was never that clean. The neighbor's daughter would often be out plowing or whatever on their Case 930 "Comfort King." It was a sweet-looking tractor, and she was easy on the eyes too.
    2 points
  35. yes, i fell in love with Alaska 10 years ago. I am planning to move to St Louis in 1-2 years to be near my daughters and grand kids. So working on ssdi, ssn, etc.
    2 points
  36. Anyone hear from @cherryapplez2020? I'm worried about her.
    1 point
  37. Charlee

    meds..

    Thats so interesting, the way dopamine and serotonin effect our thoughts and feelings and actions is so varied and so interesting! it must be a nightmare to manage, but good when you're stable?
    1 point
  38. JD4010

    SSDI and USA

    Wish I hadn't got rid of my minivan. I could have lived in it. I can't lay flat in the Kia. Well, I did have a friend who lived in a Ford Fusion so I guess it's possible. Of course,the bank will come for the Kia if I miss a payment or two.
    1 point
  39. JD4010

    SSDI and USA

    I have not done enough research yet. I need to get on the horn about that...I'm not currently working so money has become very scarce.
    1 point
  40. Text me bud...if you can...
    1 point
  41. That is what I am talking about, cuz the Beach Boys would forget about California girls if they had been in Kentucky and experienced Farm Girls.
    1 point
  42. 90 and exceedingly humid here. If I wanted tropical weather, I'd move to the tropics. Yeah, global warming is a thing. How much of it is caused by human activity seems to be the point of debate. The planet has cooled and warmed over the eons. One thing you never hear mentioned when it comes to pollution is the military--the largest single source of pollution on the planet. Driving a hybrid car is less than a drop in the ocean compared to that.
    1 point
  43. I used to be someone that put sugar in my coffee. I'll admit it's hard to get used to black coffee or tea with no sugar but that was the route I went. Maybe try that. Once I got rid of the sugar I saw nothing wrong with the black coffee to give me energy when I needed it. Yes it is hard to get to a point where you only drink it as needed too and not drink too much but giving up sugar and caffeine is rough.
    1 point
  44. Bbqdad

    SSDI and USA

    A friend gave me a referral to a law firm that specializes in SSDI claims. I have an introductory phone interview with them today. hopefully they can help git er done
    1 point
  45. Shijima

    meds..

    My medication at least some of mine I can stop eventually someday if I can become more healthier and have a better mindset as well. The rest of my medication I have no choice but to take them the rest of my life since it will effect my badly if not on them. ( A women thing I have and my mood ) I rather do all natural remedies to treat my mental health. Though my doctor said I could try it though only at a better mental state then I can and healthy. I'm doing therapy and its really doing wonders for me, so I've been feeling great, so I've been getting better now. LastlyI like to add medications can only help you so much like 50/50. The other 50% you have to do yourself so don't rely fully on your medications to fix you. Thats what my family, therapist and doctor told me.
    1 point
  46. I called my support person again. She came and talked to me... in quite heavy rain, under a tree. Some people are truly made of steel. I cannot believe it! People like this exist!
    1 point
  47. Bbqdad

    meds..

    Back in the 60’s and 70’s they prescribed things that are illegal today. Am I right?
    1 point
  48. sober4life

    meds..

    Yeah magnesium definitely works. Mom was the only person I ever heard of that was addicted to peanuts.
    1 point
  49. Bbqdad

    meds..

    I am bipolar 1 and had a major episode 3 years ago that lasted 6 months in medicated. Typically these episodes come every 1.5 years so 3 years is a record. I’m on mood stabilizers which include Abilify and Lamotrgrine. I don’t feel anything from the meds. However I don’t have symptoms so they are working for now.
    1 point
  50. Charlee

    meds..

    This is such a good description of my meds experience too, I get by doctors told that these will make you feel better and normal again but they don’t, and to just keep upping the dose of they're not working, and they continue to not work. Exactly like asking for something but been given something completely different and being told to just keep trying and itl eventually be the something you asked for
    1 point
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